Hopeless_Knight
I am stuck in my ways. Im only 19 but my life story is too long to write here. Anyway Ill list my cons
No self worth, I sabotage my life of any help or happiness, I used to be suicidal, I find something wrong in even the most beautiful of things. I hate myself and Im at fault for everything wrong in my and all of my friends lives.
Anyway, when I was younger my friend cheated on his then gf with me twice. He made me promise to never talk about it. It still eats at me that I was used like that especially since I thought at the time I loved him. I know we were young and I was stupid but part of me wants to talk to him about it. Im terribly lonely and though Ive moved out of high school into college it still feels the same. I hated high school. Ive fallen into the same cliches and the same attitudes. My life is stuck in a rut and I need some sound, helpful advice. If all you can do is console me, dont reply. Thanks for the time.
I'll try to help you as much as I can. I used to have absolutely no self-esteem. I hated life, I was pessimistic, and I was always lonely. What I did doesn't work for everyone, but what I did was I made a conscious effort to look at even the ugliest things in a way that made them seem beautiful. That way, it wasn't hard at all to make the small things that I tended to look at negatively seem more positive or a bit brighter. It took me a while, but once I was able to do that for other things, I was able to see the good qualities in myself too.
Another thing that always helps is to surround yourself with people you love and can confide in. Your true friends are there for you through thick and thin and family tends to love you unconditionally. They should listen. If they don't? Well, make some new friends. (: There are always people out there that you can meet.
As far as the guy, just listen to your heart. He used you. Can you move past that? Do you love him enough to forgive him? If you do, then talk to him. You never know what could happen if you do, and you might regret not doing this if you let it go.
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Next time, list some pros. I bet there are a lot of good things about you that you just can't see because of everything that's happened. Try to sit down and think about it with a clear mind- I bet you can come up with a post as long as your first. :3
If you ever want to talk or just rant about something to get it off of your chest, just send me a PM. I'm all ears.
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