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LightninConventionMastery Vice Captain
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 Posted: Thu Oct 22, 2009 2:28 pm
figured i'd just post... been dealing with this for a while...
i feel lonely, but i can't seem to bring myself to see any of my old friends, i'm always nervous that they look disproving of me or they don't want anything to do with me. And i can never really bring myself to talk to someone new because i end up feeling to reserve.
and lately i've been having anger issues... I don't lash out at anyone, but i start thinking really negatively about someone or something and it starts building from there, up to a point where it feels like pure hatred. The few friends i did talk with either cut contacts with me for reasons i can't fathom or there's some sort of drama going on. I'm sick of coming home to my pissant family that i've decide to improve relationships with but hardly seems to help these days... the only reprise i find is immersing myself in video games but i've been developing weird thoughts about that too...
I want to be able to have conversations with people, online, through a game, or in person, but I always find myself rescricted one way or another... I don't have my own computer, anxiousness repels me from people i know, and don't have the will power to pull myself away from all this to find something else... I've always been able to bear with this before, but i feel like i'm coming to an end...
excuse the melodramatism...
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Posted: Thu Oct 22, 2009 5:42 pm
Depression and loneliness are not the same thing. Typically, depression is characterized by a period in time when your sad and don't want other people to be present. Depression is a time when you want to push everything away, and move away from social interactions; when you want to be alone.
Loneliness on the other hand is a period of sadness were a person wishes or feels depraved of social interaction. Believe it or not, loneliness is almost a polar opposite to depression; save for the fact that it is concurrent to a period of time were a person has a lowered amount of dopamine.
Solution? Get talking to people! Get over your little insecurities and throw yourself out there. Someone will eventually like you; as long as you be yourself. Then you can be happy. Try telling jokes and being nice; it goes a long way.
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