Before i start this i just want to say to anyone who read my rant from yesterday, this is about a person who was not mentioned in yesterday's rant.

I'm a bit frustrated with my friend. I don't even know if that's the right word, i am but it's more that i'm curious and i don't think she understands what i'm saying. I want to know what's going on, and i hate not knowing and i hate when she tells other people and not me. And i don't want this to turn into a full rant but i just don't understand why she can't just tell me know instead of making me wonder and worry and i haven't seen her all week and i miss her and i want her to come back and i don't know if she's going to. And i'm crying again and i want to call her but i don't and i want to make her tell me but i cant force her to and i want to know but i don't want to upset her. And i have no idea why this is all happening and i don't know why she isn't happy and i hate the fact that she isn't happy and i don't understand it and i can't fix it.

And now i think i'm more frustrated than sad and upset. I just hate when she doesn't tell me things. And i don't understand why she wont tell me. And i hate that all my friends think i can't keep a secret when i'm not the one who tells everything to everyone.

And i really want to explain all this, but i don't want to use names and i can't figure out any other way to explain it and i think i need to sleep but i'm not tired and i want to talk to her more cuz the only contact we've had in the last week has been texting.

And this is just like a few weeks ago and i thought she was leaving and i cried but then she decided to stay and now she's gone again and won't say if she's coming back and she's apparently "enrolled" in something but she wont tell me what and i don't want to deal with this anymore and i am no longer having a fun birthday.

I wish she would just tell me.