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 Posted: Fri Feb 25, 2011 6:14 pm
 Hunter Ryan Black"Take me from this earth
an endless night-
this, the end of life.  Hunter sighed as the male said that was what he wanted. Honestly Hunter didn't want Raff to be content with that, even if he expected that answer. The priest was always so damn content with second best, when the man honestly deserved much better than that. He deserved first class, top shelf, the best. Hunter knew that, though he knew it was something he would never say, because that meant that he would run the risk of Raffaele actually realizing that he deserved the best and, quiet frankly, Hunter was not the best. And Hunter was selfish, he quiet wanted to keep the priest to himself.
He sighed a bit, his face scrunched into a frown as the man stood up and announced he wanted to go to the bathroom. He almost wanted to protest and tell the man to stay and talk, but if he had to go... then he had to go...
From the dark I feel your lips
and taste your bloody kiss."
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Posted: Fri Feb 25, 2011 7:16 pm
 ι ηєє∂ ѕσмє мєαηιηg ι ¢αη мємσяιzє
The kind I have always seems to slip my mind. -------------------------------------------------------  Well this was a stupid idea. He thought to himself as he looked around the bathroom.
Raffaele had wanted to alone, just for a minute or two, but now that he was alone, he realized, he really didn't want to be alone. Raffaele just, he just didn't want to be with Hunter right now. Looking at Hunter made him realize all his shortcomings, and Raffaele was in enough pain right now to deal with self loathing. He exhaled deeply, sliding to his knees, his back against the locked door. He really didn't want to be alone, but who could he talk to? He didn't want to talk to Hunter's mother. She was a wonderful woman, and Raffaele liked her a lot, but this, this wasn't something he thought he should go to Hunter's mother about, especially because he didn't really know her that well. Furthermore, she was a woman. She wouldn't be able to understand the way he felt simply because she hadn't sacrificed her gender role-and Raffaele doubted she really wanted to know the inner workings of her son's homosexual relationship. This was one of those times Raffaele had friends, or brothers (he probably wouldn't have spoken to his brothers about this though, well actually he couldn't say that for sure). Hunter had Dimitri, at the end of the day he had a twin, and who knew you better than your identical twin? But like always, it seemed, Raffaele had himself, and only himself.
He supposed he was just in a bad mood. He wasn't feeling well, he had come to the realization that there was something very wrong with his body, and well, Hunter didn't love him...even though Raffaele had sort of known that last part anyway. He sighed and put his face between his knees. He couldn't stay here locked in the bathroom though, that would just be kind of weird. But he really didn't want to have to go face Hunter alone right now, he really really didn't want to.
But this was just another one of those things he didn't want to do, that he would do.
Raffaele stood himself up, winced a little at the soreness of his body, and took a few empowering breaths. He could do this! He was going to have to anyway..but what would he say? What would he say!?
What did it matter? If it got really awkward he could always just pretend to be tired and "fall asleep". Yeah, that would be his shitty backup plan. Yeah!
Raffaele unlocked the door, and very slowly moved down the hall back to he and Hunter's bedroom. He opened the door slowly and stepped in, looking at his feet as he walked back over to the bed.
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Posted: Fri Feb 25, 2011 7:46 pm
Hunter Ryan Black"Take me from this earth
an endless night-
this, the end of life. Hunter sighed and frowned standing up after Raffaele and walking towards the the window, throwing it open only to be assaulted by the smell of mass quantities of blood and he shattered the glass as he slammed it shut. He growled lowly and stalked out of the room, after the male, with yet another frown. It seemed he couldn't get that frown off his face. He doubted that it would be gone for a while.
He opened the door slowly and sighed, walking out of the room and closing it just as slowly behind him. He wasn't trying to be sneaky, he was just feeling.... well he was feeling his age, if a vampire could feel their age that was. He walked down the hallway, making his way past the bathroom Raff had locked his self in with another sigh. He could hear the male's breathing and his heartbeat behind the door and it only increased the frown on his face as he walked down the hallway.
He wasn't running away, he just needed to sit, to think somewhere other than the room that had the stench of Raffaele's blood outside the window.
From the dark I feel your lips
and taste your bloody kiss."
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Posted: Fri Feb 25, 2011 8:48 pm
ι ηєє∂ ѕσмє мєαηιηg ι ¢αη мємσяιzє
The kind I have always seems to slip my mind. ------------------------------------------------------- So, Hunter didn't want to see him right now either. Well, how wonderful was that? Not as wonderful as Raffaele had anticipated.
He didn't want to be alone, not really. Being alone, was okay, and he'd get over it, but being alone, made him, lonely. That was it, he was lonely. Maybe he shouldn't have said anything to Hunter. There had been times before, a lot of times actually, were he had wanted to express to Hunter his love, but had held back. He'd kept it in for so long, but perhaps he should have held it in longer. But then things would have gone back to the way they were and as Raffaele had just figured out, he really didn't want things back to the way they were.
Why was this so complicated!? And why was he doomed to just, sit here by himself?
Well, it was beyond him.
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Posted: Fri Feb 25, 2011 9:03 pm
Hunter Ryan Black"Take me from this earth
an endless night-
this, the end of life. Hunter sighed and sat outside, he could still smell Raffaele's blood and frankly, it was starting to bother him. He growled lowly to himself and stood up from the spot against the wall and looked around, he was upset. Upset that he had hurt Raff, upset that he couldn't give the man what he deserved, upset about the fact that Raff was obviously upset. He paced solwly before growling lowly to himself and heading towards the woods.
What did Hunter do when he was upset?
Hunter killed things.
From the dark I feel your lips
and taste your bloody kiss."
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Posted: Fri Feb 25, 2011 9:25 pm
ι ηєє∂ ѕσмє мєαηιηg ι ¢αη мємσяιzє
The kind I have always seems to slip my mind. ------------------------------------------------------- Well sitting around by himself wasn't going to make this any better. Moping never did help anybody after all. He needed to, he needed to talk this out with Hunter, and perhaps his 'just move forward' strategy was best after all...even if it wasn't terribly desirable. Raffaele picked himself off the bed a second time and moved out into the hall. Hmm, no Hunter.
Where had that vampire gone? The one time Raffaele really needed him and he was nowhere to be found.
Actually, this wasn't the one time, this happened quite a lot actually.
The human continued down the hall and peeked his head around the corner. Where the ******** was everyone...well actually Raffaele could care less about the rest of the Black family, he really needed Hunter right now.
Exhaling sort of exasperatedly, Raffaele rounded another corner and to his pleasant surprise, there was Hunter...or so he thought.
"Hunter, I don't think avoiding each other is going to make this any better." He said quietly. "We should just, talk about it."
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Posted: Fri Feb 25, 2011 10:02 pm
 Dimitri turned and looked at Hunter's plaything with interest. Should he mess with the male? Man did he want to, it seemed the two were fighting, or arguing.... or perhaps his twin had done something stupid... "What's there to talk about." he said with a frown, really he didn't have any clue what was going on... He tilted his head to the side, his eyes narrowing on the human for a moment before sighing. The male really did look like he was having a rough time.
So instead of continuing to mess with the male he shrugged. "I'm Dimitri. You sleep with my brother every night and yet you can't tell the difference?" he teased the male gently.
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Posted: Fri Feb 25, 2011 10:17 pm
ι ηєє∂ ѕσмє мєαηιηg ι ¢αη мємσяιzє
The kind I have always seems to slip my mind. ------------------------------------------------------- What was there to talk about? Was that a joke? "Oh, well, if you don't want to talk about it, I guess, I guess that's fine." Wait, why did he always p***y out!? It was his own fault he never got his way because he never asserted himself...well unless Hunter threw him into a wall, because that just pissed Raffaele the ******** off!
Wait, this was Dimitri!? Well this was embarrassing....He really couldn't tell them apart.
"Oh." He said dumbly, unsure of where to go from there. "I suppose, I'm really not as good at this relationship thing as I thought...which I guess, is not surprising." He beat himself down softly. "Do you know where Hunter is? Actually, never mind, he probably doesn't want to see me anyway."
One second he was dead set of talking, the next, well the next he was off to mope.
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Posted: Fri Feb 25, 2011 10:50 pm
Dimitri tilted his head and looked at the man at his subservient attitude. The male started walking away again and Dimitri started forward, both curious and pitying the male in front of him, reaching out a hand to grasp the ex-priest's shoulder. "Hey, what's bothering you?" he asked "You can talk to me if you want, I won't tell anyone."
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Posted: Fri Feb 25, 2011 11:02 pm
ι ηєє∂ ѕσмє мєαηιηg ι ¢αη мємσяιzє
The kind I have always seems to slip my mind. ------------------------------------------------------- He certainly hadn't expected Dimitri to reach out to him. He had just assumed the vampire didn't care whatsoever, and viewed him as a food source rather than a person.
"You probably wouldn't want to know." He said quietly. But then again, he didn't want to throw away an opportunity to talk about this.
"I started to bleed, and Hunter lost control-so I, you probably don't want to hear this part, well I did something to try and distract him from the blood an it only made things, worse. He bit me, and I guess he just passed out. But instead of turning into a vampire, which, would have just been so much easier, I just-well I didn't turn. And I was weak, and broken up for a while-but long story shot, Hunter came to, and I told him what had happened and it wasn't a good reaction--and you probably don't want to hear this either."
He said covering his mouth with his hand. "It's just a whole onslaught of me being womanly, and homosexual, and saying things I knew I shouldn't have said, and here I am, regretting everything, and unhappy-and, without Hunter."
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Posted: Fri Feb 25, 2011 11:19 pm
Dimitri stood there for a moment, letting his brain process what the hell it was that Raffaele had just said. "You uh... you told him you loved him didn't you?" Dimitri said, focusing on the less confusing last part of the explanation Raff had just given him.
"Hunter's.... he's a weird guy. You wouldn't think it but he's.... really emotional. He's always been like that. Me... not so much. But Hunter... whenever he feels anything it's like... multiplied by ten. So when he's angry... he's REALLY angry. Or when he's sad... or scared." he said trying to explain his twin in a way that wasn't lying, but would make Raffaele feel better. "I guess it's hard to describe.... You guys have been together for a while, I'm sure he told you about Bella right?"
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Posted: Fri Feb 25, 2011 11:37 pm
ι ηєє∂ ѕσмє мєαηιηg ι ¢αη мємσяιzє
The kind I have always seems to slip my mind. ------------------------------------------------------- Raffaele was honestly shocked Dimitri had figured that out from his messy explanation. "It's not like I planned it. It just sort of come out, because I was scared."
Hunter emotional? "More like emotionally retarded." He muttered under his breath.
"Oh yes, she's what got me into this whole mess. And if I somehow ran into her, which would be impossible, I'd behead her. But I don't think Bella's really the issue. I mean, of course Hunter still burns because of her, and I'm sure it was traumatic, but if you love someone, no matter what, you love them. That's how love works, it heals you. I don't doubt that long after I'm dead Hunter will find the person that will erase Bella from his existence, it's just sort of hard for me to know that I'm not that person and it's hard for me to just make everyone happy, and make everyone feel okay when really, I'm not okay, I've never been okay."
Raffaele's lip twitched.
"I'm glad you're not emotional Dimitri, everything will be so much easier for you, and someone at least deserves and easier time."
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Posted: Fri Feb 25, 2011 11:42 pm
Dimitri chuckled, "Well he loved Bella 10 times fiercer than say... the average Joe would. And when he found out about her, he was 10 times more angry. In his anger, he killed her. I'm sure you've heard that story?" Dimitri nodded, knowing Raff had heard at least that part of the story. "After all was said and done, Hunter came home crying, telling me how he couldn't believe he had done that, had let his blind rage just take over and how he could he have killed her. He tries to act like some hard a** when he's really just a big baby." Dimitri sighed
"He's trying not to hurt you by blocking you out... I know it's stupid, but he thinks he's protecting you by doing that, even if it hurts you now, he's OK with it because that is a bearable hurt, rather than he himself hurting you." he said with a shrug.
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