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 Posted: Thu Sep 10, 2009 4:54 am
What are your dreams?
What are your goals?
What are your expectations?
What are you, what is your life, at present?
What do you wish things would be like right now?
What are you glad things are not like right now?
What brings you joy? Not just happiness, but real, true joy?
What brings you sadness?
What makes you angry?
What stops you from achieving your dreams?
What do you do to keep yourself from achieving your own goals?
What do you fear?
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Posted: Thu Sep 10, 2009 5:25 am
I dream of flying--real, physical flight under my own power, and not involving a hang glider, basejumping suit, or bird wings.
My goal is to become an astrophysicist.
I expect to someday be an astrophysicist, but that there will be a long road full of stepping stones and interesting detours along the way... though all those stones and detours will help me write novels and make me a more interesting person, so I'm cool with that.
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At present, I'm a stagnant idiot in need of a nice long break that I will NEVER be able to have. Did I mention this was supposed to be my scheduled two weeks of vacation? Instead, I'm unemployed and looking for a job. I'm battling boredom, frustration, all the tasks that have piled up for me to do, and bills. There is less and less magic in my life, and more and more drawing (which only happens when I'm really, truly depressed).
I wish for a full reversal of situations--that my husband had a full-time job with consistent hours and enough of a paycheck to cover us without me having to work again right away, giving me time to sort my own life out and figure out what the heck I'm doing. I wish I was on vacation right now, or, at most, somehow taking art commissions or something. I wish I felt safe enough to practice energy work again.
I'm glad I'm not dead, homeless, living back home with my parents, attempting to go to college too soon just to have the money to live, lost in Arkansas still, or lying dead in an alley in Memphis. I'm glad to be alive and not suicidal or in mortal danger. I'm glad that I can walk, if not run, and have running water where I live. I'm glad there's a dawn, even if I never see it, and I'm glad there is a wind and clouds to wash away the pain and misery of everything I know, turning the world green, an oasis instead of the endless desert. I'm glad I haven't run afoul of a prairie dog yet and contracted the bubonic plague (which, by the way, prairie dogs carry).
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I don't understand anymore what does or doesn't bring me joy. I think... I think it comes from within me. I mean, I know attitude is a choice, not fully a reaction to events, but... joy comes from within. Joy is the magic I feel inside, if that makes sense. Sometimes certain music, or a scent in the air, or something in nature that I see reminds me of it, and then I have the choice to call it up and be joyous, but I don't have to do so. If that makes any sense.
Sadness is when I remember sad things. I remember sad things more when I'm very tired, when I'm crying from some other pain, some lack of control. Sadness is when I call back the feelings from when I was suicidal, or my heart hurt, or I was all alone. Sadness is recalling the feelings of depression, or sad dream.
Anger is pretty rare, I guess. I mean, there's a touch of anger when I'm frustrated and being short-tempered with someone, but that's not really anger; that's just taking out my frustrations on someone. Anger is what I feel when I see or hear about an injustice. I just get that way. I'm a different person when there's just something wrong going on. I've called that feeling up while looking in the mirror, out of curiosity, and it's kind of interesting to watch... At the point where my jaw sets, my eyes change color to this icy blue stare. I've scared people a few times doing that, and I have to keep reassuring them that it's the subject that upsets me, not them. This whole paragraph sounds conceited, but I'm trying to be honest.
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The laws of physics keep me from flying. My dreams are very real... so for the longest time, I could only tell the difference between my dreams and reality by asking myself, "Was I flying?" Now, I've stopped flying in my dreams, so even that is gone... But I have this feeling, this belief really, that I could fly in the real world if only I remembered how and wasn't afraid. After all... in dreams, I still had to learn first, and it was only fear that kept me near to the ground. If I'd been free of it, I could have flown as high as I could imagine.
I do stupid things. Really stupid things. Things I'm ashamed of, because they show me that I am weak and threaten me that I will always be weak. I eventually got the three genie wishes down to one--If I had only one wish, it would be willpower. Where there is a will, there is a way, but I know more ways than I have the will to follow, and I screw myself up every time that way.
I fear me having power. By extension, I fear passion and magic and willfulness, and I fear knowing the truth about myself, because all those things lead to power. I fear power because it is what I desire most.
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Posted: Thu Sep 10, 2009 7:01 pm
What are your dreams?
my dreams are to become either a virologist or a game designer/developer.
What are your goals?
work hard in high school, go to college and succeed, get a good job, retire in my 30's
What are your expectations?
i expect i'll ******** up somewhere along the lines like i always do, miss an opportunity or simply be lazy, then i'll slowly ruin my life.
What are you, what is your life, at present?
my life is a series of idiotic happenings.
What do you wish things would be like right now?
i wish that mroe people were philisophically inclined, that (she) would go "omg you're amazing!", that as a race we could accomplish something spectacular in my lifetime.
What are you glad things are not like right now?
i'm glad we aren't all cannibles?
What brings you joy? Not just happiness, but real, true joy?
Diana
What brings you sadness?
Diana
What makes you angry?
myself, and by extension all other morons.
What stops you from achieving your dreams?
at the moment it's the fact that i'm too young.
What do you do to keep yourself from achieving your own goals?
age slowly.
What do you fear?
can't think of anything really.
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Posted: Thu Sep 10, 2009 11:42 pm
What are your dreams?: My dreams change as often as my moods. I want one thing one day, and then something else the next. Mostly, I want to develop my wisdom and magickal prowess.
What are your goals?: Short term: Job, License, another month of having somewhere to live. Long Term: I want my own land, and a lot of it, wooded. I want my own top of a mountain. I want to basically drop off of the face of the earth, as far as the government is concerned, living mostly off of the land, and doing odd jobs to pay for everything else. I want to heat my house with a woodstove, without the help of the electric company. I want freedom. I want a library packed full of thousands of books.
What are your expectations?: I expect very little from anything. I expect that I will go on as I always have, barely getting by.
What are you, what is your life, at present?: I'm in an awkward stage of being an adult, but trying desperately to hold onto childhood. I don't want to be grown.
What do you wish things would be like right now?: I wish things would be more stable. I wish i could live in the same place for more than a couple years.
What are you glad things are not like right now?: Well, I could be homeless. I'm glad I'm not.
What brings you joy? Not just happiness, but real, true joy?: I don't know. It's been a long time since I've felt actual joy.
What brings you sadness?: The ignorance of the masses.
What makes you angry?: Humankind, and our amazing ability to consider anything that gets in our way as a "problem"
What stops you from achieving your dreams?: Laziness. Pure laziness.
What do you do to keep yourself from achieving your own goals?: I don't do anything. at all. That's the problem. I'm all dreams and no action.
What do you fear?: Staying the same way forever.
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Posted: Sat Nov 28, 2009 11:25 am
What are your dreams?
To find a purpose in life, to pursue it wholeheartedly and in a way that fulfills my desires, and, if I get lucky, change the world.
What are your goals?
To finish a lot of the things I've started, to get my life to a point where I can feel like I have all the skills I need to survive and be happy, i.e. learning to drive, learning how to work a job, getting a degree that will get me a job that I actually want.
Also: write some books, make [a] video game(s), be a part of a movement or community.
What are your expectations?
I expect that if I can find the power to change and to live my life in a positive way, that I should be able to have the skills to pass that on to others.
What are you, what is your life, at present?
It's mostly me trying to do my best at college and battling my faults in order to do better, as well as a bit of self-analysis and questioning. Figuring out how I can relate to others in the college setting, how I can build bonds with people both there and everywhere else in my life.
What do you wish things would be like right now?
I wish that I could more aptly and swiftly handle the obstacles set before me in a smooth way, rather than submitting projects that I felt could have been better with more time [time that I had 'wasted' away], and rather than not always knowing how to handle potential new friendships or how to deal with college students. I also wish I could be more productive in general with my free time.
What are you glad things are not like right now?
Super hectic, what-the-hell-have-I-been-doing-this-whole-time work, glad that there are less demands to fulfill then there could be, basically. Glad that I don't feel particularly intimidated by the work I have to do.
What brings you joy? Not just happiness, but real, true joy?
When I can feel purpose, strange feelings of exaltation or of love/affection, when I can spend time with people and feel the thankfulness of having a real friend.
What brings you sadness?
Lack of time, worrying over something to come or something gone by.
What makes you angry?
Academics, antagonism towards people due to their flaws, superiority and the abandonment of loyalty/trust. These are all occasional things, I suppose.
What stops you from achieving your dreams?
Myself, my schoolwork [still myself, just me procrastinating on it, really]
What do you do to keep yourself from achieving your own goals?
I procrastinate, I drop good practices before they're made into a habit or before I've finished what I set out to do.
What do you fear?
Having regrets, making non-obvious decisions that will leave me with huge regrets 20 years later. Losing friends, losing respect from those I respect.
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Posted: Mon Dec 14, 2009 10:29 am
What are your dreams?
My dreams exist on several levels: The physical world and the potential world involved with my gifts. I dream of being needed in a time of desperation, but I also dream of having a child to call my own in a peaceful world.
What are your goals?
To learn to coexist with the people and beings in my life, to become more alert in all things, including being able to aide my confidence that my path is true.
What are your expectations?
My expectations are that I perform to the best of my ability when I am capable, and to know when enough is enough when I'm not.
What are you, what is your life, at present?
I would have to say my life is a series of interconnected forest, concrete, and cobblestone paths as I'm being torn into three directions concerning my spiritual, professional, and personal life. One day I'm pulled in a direction and the next I'm hauled away for one of the other two directions at random.
What do you wish things would be like right now?
I'm where I need to be spiritually. There's nothing that comes to me at present that I can't handle, and that's the way it has to be. One day it'll change, for better or worse, and all I need to do is trust I know what to do. Personally I wish for the quiet times that come with meditation and lots of hugs from my family.
What are you glad things are not like right now?
I'm glad I'm not still in my primary stages of my gift, as they were very traumatizing.
What brings you joy? Not just happiness, but real, true joy?
My family and friends are my greatest treasures. Who I am and who I will become is thanks to those who love me. That brings me the greatest happiness I know.
What brings you sadness?
The thought of not finding someone to call my love. A substitute is around every corner--spiritual reason, family, substance, education--but I have the notion that what I seek is with someone with whom I can share even the darkest fears and brightest dreams.
What makes you angry?
Bullies, injustice, disrespect, and myself on top of that for not being my higher self in the face of my own anger.
What stops you from achieving your dreams?
My inability to choose which path means the most to me. Finding myself and my actual desires holds me back from becoming the person I'm meant to be.
What do you do to keep yourself from achieving your own goals?
Other than waiting for an answer in the hopes that someone or something will show me the way? Nothing.
What do you fear?
Dude, spiders. haha. Joking, although I'm not fond of the fuzzy ones.
Persecution by peers who don't understand. Also, that I'm not going to become the person I'm meant to become, that I will not be ready when the time comes to make the decisions that define the moments of life.
Lastly, I fear on some deep level that I'm actually wrong, the so-called normal people are actually right, ending with my facing a padded wall for the next fifty years.
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Posted: Mon Dec 14, 2009 11:53 am
What are your dreams?
I have many dreams... I dream mostly of marriage and love and belonging. I dream of changing the world of being able to truly reach people. I dream of change of progress. Reformation. I dream that one day I will truly understand what is in another's heart.
What are your goals?
They align with my dreams. My goals are to find love. To have at least one child. To get my PHD in Psychology where in I most likely will become a therapist. To learn enough about politics and political reform and other people to actually accomplish something.
What are your expectations?
I expect that I will at some point get a job that I will enjoy and have at least one child with or without a husband.
What are you, what is your life, at present?
I'm finishing my bachelors. I'm saving to buy a car. I'm planning on traveling the world, or at least the US. I'm going to ecuador over the summer to help teach children. I'm stressed. Its finals week. I work with fruit.
What do you wish things would be like right now?
I wish I had money so I could afford to go to graduate school without working. I wish I had a loving boyfriend. I wish people didn't have addictive personalities
What are you glad things are not like right now?
I'm glad I'm not homeless. I'm glad I have a job. I'm glad I can afford schooling.
What brings you joy? Not just happiness, but real, true joy?
Seeing other people smile. Like real smiles. Other peoples happiness. Watching people figure out how things work.
What brings you sadness?
When people form drug addictions. Depression/mental illnesses. People hurting themselves/ keeping themselves in negative situations.
What makes you angry?
When people can only hear themselves. When people ignore/degrade others or invalidate anothers existence. That I can't Do anything to help people.
What stops you from achieving your dreams?
Money, a lack of respect, ignorance, I haven't met the right people.
What do you do to keep yourself from achieving your own goals?
I am too patient and pondering. I procrastinate. I've self sabotaged and I have ignored my own desires in favor of other peoples.
What do you fear?
I fear that one day I will wake up and realize that nothing will ever change. That people don't change. That the pessimists were right. I fear that one day... I will wake up and realize everything I ever thought believed or hoped for was wrong. That my life was built around a lie. That nothing truly exists and that everything I have ever tried to accomplish was pointless.
Edit: Oh and I second the fear of spiders. Dying a slow excruciating death injected by poison by some fury fast moving critter. Its a terrible thought.
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Posted: Mon Dec 14, 2009 1:27 pm
What are your dreams? I want to be successful at making beautiful art, that I can be completely happy with.
What are your goals? To get myself in a situation to be more self reliant.
What are your expectations? I want my dream.
What are you, what is your life, at present? I'm in transition mode, training, schooling getting things in order. I'll have my tattoo license in a few months and I can have a career in the arts that has nothing to do with computers.
What do you wish things would be like right now? I wish things would go more my way and for my family to be in a better position.
What are you glad things are not like right now? Idk? This question confuses me...
What brings you joy? Not just happiness, but real, true joy? I have a lot of wonderful people in my life, I need to stop taking them for granted.
What brings you sadness? Having to wait to start my life in some aspects.
What makes you angry? My shitty job as a cashier, the way the world is, paperwork, chores, the daily grind, politics.
What stops you from achieving your dreams? Myself mostly, I make a lot of mistakes and don't always listen to myself or good advice.
What do you do to keep yourself from achieving your own goals? I procrastinate, I think I can't do something, I talk myself out of doing things I want.. by thinking I can't.
What do you fear? Mental pain, having a loved one hurt, losing, condemnation.
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Posted: Mon Dec 14, 2009 1:30 pm
Kajunk What are your dreams? I want to be successful at making beautiful art, that I can be completely happy with. What are your goals? To get myself in a situation to be more self reliant. What are your expectations? I want my dream. What are you, what is your life, at present? I'm in transition mode, training, schooling getting things in order. What do you wish things would be like right now? I wish things would go more my way and for my family to be in a better position. What are you glad things are not like right now? Idk? This question confuses me...What brings you joy? Not just happiness, but real, true joy? I have a lot of wonderful people in my life, I need to stop taking them for granted. What brings you sadness? Having to wait to start my life in some aspects. What makes you angry? My shitty job as a cashier. What stops you from achieving your dreams? Myself mostly, I make a lot of mistakes and don't always listen to myself or good advice. What do you do to keep yourself from achieving your own goals? I procrastinate, I think I can't do something, I talk myself out of doing things I want.. by thinking I can't. What do you fear? Mental pain, having a loved one hurt, losing, condemnation. I think they mean what are you grateful for. What has changed for the better. What bad things aren't happening to you.
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Posted: Mon Dec 14, 2009 1:34 pm
Ishtar Shakti I think they mean what are you grateful for. What has changed for the better. What bad things aren't happening to you. Ahh, thanks, I guess I'm just happy I have wonderful people in my life who care for me, I have a roof over my head, I'm happy my grandpa was kind enough to loan me the money for school, otherwise I would feel like I was going nowhere like I usually am.
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Posted: Sun Dec 27, 2009 9:24 pm
What are your dreams?
My dreams are juvenile. I still relish in the thought that I could be a schooner sailing trader in the Caribbean, or travel to impoverished countries to set up sound sustainable agriculture practices. My dreams would take me to the far reaches of the globe, I would be alone, I would be writing, and eating fine foods. My dreams are entertaining at best.
What are your goals?
My goal is to own a farm on a decent plot of land in Maine once I complete college.
What are your expectations?
That I pass college.
What are you, what is your life, at present?
I've been called a dope smoking hippy. I don't really think that it is an accurate description. At present my life only pertains to my classes and partying. Otherwise I have no real direction. I am applying for a semester abroad in Iceland, and I am going to Wales during spring break for a travel course. My traveling habits I plan on pursuing more in the near future.
What do you wish things would be like right now?
I wish I was up in Maine. I wish that I was back in classes.
What are you glad things are not like right now?
I'm not very sure, life is good at the moment.
What brings you joy? Not just happiness, but real, true joy?
When my friends and I are out in the woods making forts and camping out during the week, taking a half hour hike back to campus to get to classes. Cooking frogs over the fire, and drinking whiskey. Smoking bud, singing, and otherwise enjoying each others company.
What brings you sadness?
When people act irrationally. When people forget the small things that count. Starvation and commercialism. To be brief.
What makes you angry?
Gossip. ******** that s**t.
What stops you from achieving your dreams?
Myself. That's the only thing stopping me, or anyone. I imagine that if anyone were to answer this question differently they would need to re-evaluate themselves and stop blaming others.
What do you do to keep yourself from achieving your own goals?
I had a lack of ambition, I have depression like every other person in America.
What do you fear?
Death. I'm coping though. My family is hardy when it comes to these things. When we're heading out the door we don't try desperately to prolong our lives. When God wants us back, we come back, nuff said. I still fear death though. I only accompany this by smoking and drinking to my hearts content. If I am going to live, I am going to be happy while I live.
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Posted: Tue Apr 27, 2010 4:10 pm
What are your dreams?
Oh thats a tuffie, I think somewhere along the line I gave up on dreams. I dream of no pain, being able to move freely. a funky house with a garden. good friends over for dinner. a little store to do healings and teach, sell crystals and herbs.
What are your goals?
Most days it's just to get out of bed! But official goals for this year are to gain some mobility, do something creative at least once a week, take a class, feed my soul (which means going to the beach at least once per month) grow a garden
What are you, what is your life, at present?
At present I am a woman coming to terms with a chronic illness, trying to find a way to bring the two pieces of my life together, my corporate work life and my mystical spirit seeking home life.
What do you wish things would be like right now?
Right now, I want all my bills paid, money to play with, all family and friends healthy and passionate about something, romance, HEALTH.
What are you glad things are not like right now?
I'm so gratefull that I'm not at my old job where I just heard got raided again by the FBI. I'm glad that I'm not alone, that I have someone to share my time with. I'm happy to have most of my needs met, I'm not living on the street, I'm not hungry, I'm not in the hospital. I'm glad that there are no earthquakes, tsunamis or hurricanes in my neighborhood.
What brings you joy? Not just happiness, but real, true joy?
Music, my dogs, my babys, the beach, trees, beam of sunlight through the clouds. dolphins, whales, pelicans, growing things
What brings you sadness?
Cruelty, greed, selfishness, poverty, slavery, genocide. On a personal note, disrespect, being left out, illness.
What makes you angry?
Republicans. Slaughter and enslavement of species because of greed. Stupidity.
What stops you from achieving your dreams?
Fear
What do you do to keep yourself from achieving your own goals?
Not try. Mostly I don't even make or dream of a goal. I'm working on it though.
What do you fear?
my house becoming so dilapidated by me not having enough money to repair it that it literally falls down on my head. Getting so sick that I cannot work. Being homeless.
What are your expectations?
I try not to have any. I don't want to be disappointed.
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