The time I've spent posting and reading poems on this guild has been very important to me. I've posted a lot of very personal things, during some of the most complex moments of my life. I remember posting in the religion ad abortion threads, and the next day, I Lunar had sent me an invite to be a crew member ^-^. And so I've been crew here at Silver Moon for a few years. 2, I guess, maybe 3.
Anyway, I've reached a point where I need to move on. People change, angsty teens grow up, and poets become dancers ^-^. Truth be told, I haven't got the time for this internetz anymore, and I haven't written or posted in a LONG time.
It's still weird to leave here though. Like I said before, I spent some of the most complicated and developmental times in my life posting here, and because of that, many of you know about a lot of my issues. So, before I go, I'm posting this note to say goodbye, because many of you were good friends to me, and because I don't want to leave you hanging as to the plot of my adolescence.
Regarding my love life - The first boy who messed around with physically me is out of my life, for good. The second, who messed around with me mentally, has been whipped into shape, and we have an ok friendship now. My ex girlfriend and I are great friends, and I say that honestly. We're tight. And my current girlfriend is the love of my life, an amazing and beautiful girl who must have been sent by G-d for me.
Regarding my issues - Because of the aforementioned amazing girlfriend, I've been able to quit self injury completely, and I'm now eating a normal amount regularly, and am no longer underweight. I don't wear all black, and you're much more likely to see a peace sign or a Magen David tied around my wrist than a star carved into it. My mind is mostly healed too, and I have faith in my G-d that the rest of the healing I need will come.
One final note - many of the poems I've posted here had to do with self injury, eating disorders, suicide, promiscuity, depression, and confused sexuality. These have all been removed. The threads and comments remain, but the poems have been replaced with an [X] symbol. Please do not ask me to repost them. I took them down because they are a part of me, that, while I will never forget, I no longer need to see on paper, or on a computer screen, to understand and deal with, and because I don't want to trigger anyone else's problems with those issues. The only remaining poems are all, while not all cheerful, much more wholesome.
I guess that's it. Everything that needs to be said, has been. A special goodbye to Lunar, Davis, and Scaz, you guys are the best, and I'm gonna miss you so epically (even though we haven't talked in a while anyway... T-T). Being on teh Crew with you guys has been amazing, and you three had my back during some pretty tough sh*t. I know Scaz has already left, but he's in the goodbyes section anyway. Deal with it.
Also, goodbye to SongsOfTheEnchantedHeart, Moondey, Misuyume, Zein (On all his various accounts, haha), Aigis_Raiden, SomebodysLittleAngel, MissMinta, Within_Love, ScarredRavens (Congrats on being Crew now, watch out for the place once I'm gone), SisterSan, and Jaffar (Who I guess is now Tseko?). There are probably a few more that I forgot about, but you guys are the ones that come to mind when I think of semi active users who's poetry rocks socks. You are the people who help keep this amazing guild alive, and I have/will always admire your poetry.
Farewell, but not forever ~ Silver_Wingling@yahoo.com
Anyway, I've reached a point where I need to move on. People change, angsty teens grow up, and poets become dancers ^-^. Truth be told, I haven't got the time for this internetz anymore, and I haven't written or posted in a LONG time.
It's still weird to leave here though. Like I said before, I spent some of the most complicated and developmental times in my life posting here, and because of that, many of you know about a lot of my issues. So, before I go, I'm posting this note to say goodbye, because many of you were good friends to me, and because I don't want to leave you hanging as to the plot of my adolescence.
Regarding my love life - The first boy who messed around with physically me is out of my life, for good. The second, who messed around with me mentally, has been whipped into shape, and we have an ok friendship now. My ex girlfriend and I are great friends, and I say that honestly. We're tight. And my current girlfriend is the love of my life, an amazing and beautiful girl who must have been sent by G-d for me.
Regarding my issues - Because of the aforementioned amazing girlfriend, I've been able to quit self injury completely, and I'm now eating a normal amount regularly, and am no longer underweight. I don't wear all black, and you're much more likely to see a peace sign or a Magen David tied around my wrist than a star carved into it. My mind is mostly healed too, and I have faith in my G-d that the rest of the healing I need will come.
One final note - many of the poems I've posted here had to do with self injury, eating disorders, suicide, promiscuity, depression, and confused sexuality. These have all been removed. The threads and comments remain, but the poems have been replaced with an [X] symbol. Please do not ask me to repost them. I took them down because they are a part of me, that, while I will never forget, I no longer need to see on paper, or on a computer screen, to understand and deal with, and because I don't want to trigger anyone else's problems with those issues. The only remaining poems are all, while not all cheerful, much more wholesome.
I guess that's it. Everything that needs to be said, has been. A special goodbye to Lunar, Davis, and Scaz, you guys are the best, and I'm gonna miss you so epically (even though we haven't talked in a while anyway... T-T). Being on teh Crew with you guys has been amazing, and you three had my back during some pretty tough sh*t. I know Scaz has already left, but he's in the goodbyes section anyway. Deal with it.
Also, goodbye to SongsOfTheEnchantedHeart, Moondey, Misuyume, Zein (On all his various accounts, haha), Aigis_Raiden, SomebodysLittleAngel, MissMinta, Within_Love, ScarredRavens (Congrats on being Crew now, watch out for the place once I'm gone), SisterSan, and Jaffar (Who I guess is now Tseko?). There are probably a few more that I forgot about, but you guys are the ones that come to mind when I think of semi active users who's poetry rocks socks. You are the people who help keep this amazing guild alive, and I have/will always admire your poetry.
Farewell, but not forever ~ Silver_Wingling@yahoo.com
