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I wrote a story awhile ago. I just decided to post it. Don't flame it even though it is pretty bad...

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Summary: [Oneshot] What right did she have to take your heart away, when for so long you were mine?

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You Were Mine

She looked out the dotted, stained glass windows of the Greyhound bus, out of her gray seat. All she could see was the dark sheet of night dotted with stars covering the open ground and occasional tree, with crickets barely audible to the rumble of the bus. Everything seemed so simple and quiet, a beauty unseen by someone so used to the city. She sighed, letting a soft whisper out her mouth, unheard to the other bus riders.

Unhappily, she thought, what is it worth it anymore? What did I have to lose? I do not see why I should keep going on like this, in this unhappy state. I am lost without them, without him. She shook her head, shaking the thought from her mind. Her auburn hair swung back and forth with her.

No, no I will not think that way. It is not me. I am the eternal optimist remember? Or, at least, that is what everyone else believed. Or what he thought. His memory brought back stings of recognition.

Oh Robin, dear, dear Robin, what did I do wrong? Her throat choked and she suddenly had the impulse to begin crying. No, I will not cry. Once I begin, I will never stop. Starfire looked around the bus. A man with a hearing aid five seats ahead, two eighteen year old sisters in the front seat snoozing, a woman two seats from the back clicking away on some white machine, and four seats behind her was a snoring man with a volume of some large book resting on his lap. None of these humans would recognize her, for she was dressed not in her uniform, but in a pair of jeans, a blue shirt, and a large white hoodie that she had kept safely tucked in the back of her closet for years incase of emergencies. Besides, she was far from Jump City, now somewhere in the middle of the country.

Star shifted in her seat, trying to catch some sleep. She hadn't slept well since she had been back at Titan's Tower, and that was along time ago. Or maybe it just felt that way. She looked at the little pocket calendar she had stuffed in the duffle bag the night she decided she must leave there. No, it hadn't been that long, just about a week. It felt so long, like she departed years ago.

She wondered what had happened when they realized she was gone. She hadn't even left them a note. Dear, I hope that they were not too scared. They must have been able to tell, with her closet empty and her valuables gone, her pictures torn of the walls. Star had nothing to do, so she changed positions and stretched out on the seat, using the duffle bag as a pillow. The bus bumped up and down constantly, leaving her restless for hours. I must do something. I wish I could just tell someone something. It might make me feel better. A letter will do. She could at least tell the Titans and Robin that she was safe. Star found a of stationary crumpled at the bottom of her bag, along with a few miss-match items, like a few photos of the Titans, a wallet with the remnants of her savings, a small book she had bought a few years ago, a sandwich she had bought at the last rest stop, an extra pair of clothes, and a stuffed teddy bear. She started off rambling then finally expressing her point.

Dear Robin,

I am sorry. For everything. For any confusion caused by my leaving so suddenly. Again I am sorry. I was just so unsure that I was welcome any more. It seems as though I was being forgotten, slowly but surely.

As I was listening to a radio on my way, and I believe I have found a song that mirrors our predicament. I think it is called You Were Mine, by some artist I am unsure of. I shall write it in between my words.

I can't find a reason

To let go

Even though you've found a new love

And she's what you're dreams are made of

Yes, our problem exactly. You had always told me I was all you would ever need. I was the one you love, with everything, your mind, body, and soul. Did your mind change? Was I not good enough for you anymore? Yet, maybe I am mistaken, and Raven is truly the one for you. I may have been simply a mirage, leading you astray, away from the truth. When you and Raven called a meeting and you both announce that you had formerly had begun dating, it shocked me. I was not aware that we had even, how do you say it? Oh yes, broken up with me. You two had mentioned that you were for each other and were so much in love. I suppose I just did not understand.

I can find a reason

To hang on

What went wrong can be forgiven

Without you it ain't worth livin'

Alone

For a while, that is what I believed. Perhaps you had been erroneous in your decision, and you only imagined you were both so deeply in love. Everyday I witnessed new accounts of your love, form simple gestures to kind words. The hope began crumbling away, leaving the truth in its wake. I saw you completed her. Raven was so happy with you. She was happier than I have ever seen her, even happier than when she had destroyed her father's influence. It pained me to see her happiness. You had given me so much happiness, and now without it, I needed more than ever. You were stabbing me constantly, rubbing salt in the wound, as you would say it. I loved you so dearly that I would give my life for you, but now, I see you no longer care for me in the same way.

Sometimes I wake up crying at night

Sometimes I scream out your name

What right does she have to take you away?

When for so long

You were mine

Yet I cannot blame it all on Raven, for she did not "steal you away," as you would say. I believe that it was my fault. I should have understood sooner that after we stop talking like we used too and stopped telling me you loved me that "we" had ended. Neither do I blame it on you, Robin. Never would I let you take this burden. You two should be together. You two love each other. I am just hanging here in Limbo, still in love with you while you moved on from me.

Took out all the pictures

Of our wedding day

It was a time of love and laughter

Happy ever after

I could not stand seeing you and Raven together. It pained me so much I imaged I would just die sooner or later if I kept staying there. Every waking moment I felt betrayed and hurt. No one noticed I failed to get out of my room until midday. No one ever seemed concerned about me or asked if I was all right. No one comforted me in my time of need. I had come into the room one day and saw Raven with her head on your shoulder, and Beast Boy and Cyborg happily laughing about some joke. Where was a space for me? Why was I still around when no one cared about my well-being? Those thoughts lead me to believe that I was no longer needed. So I left. There is no better explanation. I wanted to lift the Titans of my load, and I did. It may have seemed rash at the moment, but it was the right thing to do.

But even those old pictures

Have begun to fade

Please tell me she's not real

And you're really coming home

To stay
When I left, I felt terrible. I did not know where to go. I had no friends on this planet, and going back to Tameran was not an option. I just ran, without thought. I was scared, and at first felt like I wanted to go home. But then I realized an old saying, "Home is where the heart is." Was Titans Tower really where I wanted to be, left locked in that prison? No, it was not.

I am now ripped in two parts. One half of me wishes to come home, or that you will rush up to me and tell me you were wrong. The other half knows that will never happen and that you never will come back to me. The problem is that each side knows that the other is faulty. I cannot follow one side without the other cautioning and warning me.

Sometimes I wake up crying at night

Sometimes I scream out your name

What right does she have to take you away?

When for so long

You were mine

I wish my mind would settle. I know that one day I will have to give up, but for now I will always pray I could be with you. Today I will stop being Starfire. Today I will fall under another name, some name I once had. I feel a relief in penning it. I have a hope that with the remains of the ink, I will leave behind everything, and can start anew. I will miss you dearly. I will never forget any of the Titans. Never.

I remember when you were mine.

Sincerely,

Starfire

She set down the pen and looked out the window. A light had broken out of the sheet that had cloaked the scenery around the bus.

"Miss? You in the tenth row, are you ready to get of yet?" She turned to the front, just now realizing that the bus had stopped. The bus driver, a lanky man with messy brown hair, had been trying to get her attention for the last two minuets.

"Not just yet, thank you. I will wait a little longer."

"Oh," the bus driver replied, "I'm sorry... Miss... what's your name again?"

She thought for a long while. Suddenly a grin spread itself across her face.

"Kori Anders. That is it."

She let the bus start up again, and drive off into a new life.

Drive off into the sunrise.

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I know. Its pretty wimpy. I was just bored.

It was a sad yet wonderful story. You did great.

It's deep and very good story.
I look forward reading more, but please try to remember on thing, Robin go to Starfire as Beast Boy goes to Raven.... twisted ok...so that my rules, but you really dont have to follow them
Mal~

Its good i like it whee

i like your style!