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It might just be me, (I'm going through that point in time where you doubt who you are and why you are here) but why do we love Johnny? I know I do but....why? I'll be honest, I've broken up with many a guy because he didn't fit my standards. But recently, I figured out my standards are Johnny. And I know I won't meet him. My friend Carolyn said she thinks he was made for me, but I don't know. It seems kind of ridiculous for the person you are meant to be with to be on the other side of the world, and married. I'm very confused right now....Johnny isn't anywhere around here, and he doesn't know I exsist, but it feels like I know him. That I've known him for a long time. When I watch him, it feels lioke i'm there and we are talking, but then I remember where I am and who he is. I'm just not sure about anything anymore. I think I'm crazy. He's an amazing person and actor, but it just seems like he's...here. Like he's always been here. But I know he isn't, and he won't be, but a part of me wants to believe is. The part that keeps telling me that I will meet him. I feel very two faced. When I look at Johnny's picture, it feels like I was there when it was taken. I don't know. Tell me what you think my problem is