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 Posted: Sat Nov 19, 2005 3:34 pm
Hey, most of you probably don't know me. I was a frequent poster here at the GSA a while back, but i've not been able to get online in a long time.
Anyway, I just need some help.
In August I met a beautiful, terriffic girl. She was from Italy, a foreign exchange student. She's really fun to be with, and we became great friends. But after about a month I started to really, really like her. As more than friends. I never felt that stong about anyone before. I drew her portrait, and made a hand-made teddy bear for her with a quote by Emily Dickinson on the front. Because if you make a stuffed animal and name it after yourself, and if you give it to the person you love, they will always return your love.
I just loved her so much. And I knew she had to leave, and that it was a bad idea to get so involved, but I couldn't help myself.
Today was her 'going away party'. She leaves in a couple days. Today was the last time I'll see her, maybe forever. I can't afford a plane ticket to Italy. I have her email address and cell number, but that just doesn't seem like enough. Maybe I'm just being selfish and wasting your time, and if so, i'm sorry. But I'm just extremely sad right now and could use someone to talk to, advice maybe. I have a problem with depression already, it doesn't need any fuel, you know? I miss her already, so badly. cry
Please comment.
[Off to watch White Oleander.]
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Posted: Sat Nov 19, 2005 4:05 pm
I talked with blood on AIM about this so there's not much I can do. I'll move this to life issules later, I think it should be seen a little first. 3nodding
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Posted: Sat Nov 19, 2005 4:27 pm
neoncode I talked with blood on AIM about this so there's not much I can do. I'll move this to life issules later, I think it should be seen a little first. 3nodding
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Posted: Sat Nov 19, 2005 5:07 pm
Awww.. Im sorry. It must be really hard.. but I really have no advice to give you other than to keep in touch with her. You never know what could happen in the future you know? (hugs)
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Posted: Sat Nov 19, 2005 5:09 pm
1. We've got subforums now, DT-Chan.
2. Neoncode's a mod.[Scary, huh?]
D. That sucks. *Hug of comfort* Providing comfort is one of the things we do best.
V. Welcome back!
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Posted: Sat Nov 19, 2005 6:09 pm
im soooooo sorry, i hope you feel better! i wouldent know what to do if i was in that pridiciment sad
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Posted: Sun Nov 20, 2005 1:02 pm
I'm sorry to hear that but you need to let her go. Falling in love with a foreign exchange student wasn't the best idea since there's too much distance between you both. Just find someone else.
Again I'm sorry. I know how you feel.
It's rotten.
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Posted: Tue Nov 22, 2005 1:41 pm
TenshiJaNai I'm sorry to hear that but you need to let her go. Falling in love with a foreign exchange student wasn't the best idea since there's too much distance between you both. Just find someone else. Again I'm sorry. I know how you feel. It's rotten.
And, an update here, everyone. First off, life at my house is not fun. It's a constant yelling battle between my father and my idiot brother. I can't stand it. Last night it got really bad, and I don't want to get into details. But it was scary. And later on, my dad came in my room to comfort me and said that I was the only good child he had, and went on about how proud of me he was.
If any of you maybe remember, though I doubt it, I posted a long thing a while back about how homophobic my parents are. Like, not just homophobia. EXTREME HOMOPHOBIA. They despise anyone who's "not right". As i said in that thread a long time ago, My mom saw something about a lesbian on TV and said, and these were her exact words, "If I ever had a gay child, I'd throw it out onto the streets and forget the creature."
Surely you can see the problem here. They don't have a clue about my 'preference'. Maybe I'll never tell them ._. But, any advice here, too?
This is turning out to be the worst week ever. crying
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Posted: Wed Nov 23, 2005 1:12 pm
Duct-Tape-chan TenshiJaNai I'm sorry to hear that but you need to let her go. Falling in love with a foreign exchange student wasn't the best idea since there's too much distance between you both. Just find someone else. Again I'm sorry. I know how you feel. It's rotten.
And, an update here, everyone. First off, life at my house is not fun. It's a constant yelling battle between my father and my idiot brother. I can't stand it. Last night it got really bad, and I don't want to get into details. But it was scary. And later on, my dad came in my room to comfort me and said that I was the only good child he had, and went on about how proud of me he was.
If any of you maybe remember, though I doubt it, I posted a long thing a while back about how homophobic my parents are. Like, not just homophobia. EXTREME HOMOPHOBIA. They despise anyone who's "not right". As i said in that thread a long time ago, My mom saw something about a lesbian on TV and said, and these were her exact words, "If I ever had a gay child, I'd throw it out onto the streets and forget the creature."
Surely you can see the problem here. They don't have a clue about my 'preference'. Maybe I'll never tell them ._. But, any advice here, too?
This is turning out to be the worst week ever. crying
I'll probably never be able to tell my parents either. So, I feel your pain. ;_;
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Posted: Sat Dec 03, 2005 6:37 pm
Thank you Dream-chan cry *hug*
Today I got an email from the girl. (her name is Laura heart ) I was so happy! 4laugh She said that she missed me very much, and that the bear i made for her is always sitting on her pillow. Awww whee And at the end the email she signed it with "i love you". Ahh if only she meant that how I wish she meant it. If.. that made sense just now. ninja
But anyway, yeah. There's your update.
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Posted: Sun Dec 04, 2005 10:24 am
Awww.. that's cute.
And im sorry to hear about your parents.. but I have no good advice on that. I suppose you should just keep it to yourself for now. It'd be best seeing as your mom has threatened to kick you out. Focus on school and try not to let them bother you. (hugs)
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Posted: Fri Dec 09, 2005 6:18 pm
AkureiKnight Awww.. that's cute. And im sorry to hear about your parents.. but I have no good advice on that. I suppose you should just keep it to yourself for now. It'd be best seeing as your mom has threatened to kick you out. Focus on school and try not to let them bother you. (hugs)
buuut. hehe, funny story..kinda...
i think my friend suspects me. Today in Civics I was talking with her and a guy friend (pay attention in class? pshh.) and they were talking about how he only watched this one show to see the hot girls. (Project Runway, I think.) xD But anyways, I made a 'joke' and said, "haha, yeah, me too." I say stuff like that a lot, and people laugh it off, so i figured it was just fine. But she just kinda looked at me. So a few minutes later we started talking again, just me and her, and she said 'You know, I have a Gaydar." Her 'gay person radar'. So i immediately started talking about how bad my broccoli tasted, relying on the fact that she had the attention span of an acorn. So after all that today, I'm still not sure what's going on in her brain and it's worrying me. x__x
*steps off soap box* sweatdrop
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Posted: Sun Dec 11, 2005 6:52 pm
Oh geeze. Well, if she does figure it out I hope she takes it well. I would hate for you to loose a friend because they cant deal with something you cant help.
It'll be ok though. Dont worry about it untill she asks you. 3nodding
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Posted: Sat Jan 14, 2006 6:31 pm
I truly feel sorry about that. I don't know if you exchanged phone numbers or something but at least you...alright, I promised myself I would never say the 'better to have loved and lost' crap because I don't know if it's true. However, you know what lovecan be now and you never know...
To quote Elton John:
Some day out of the blue, in a crowded street or a deserted square, I'll turn and I'll see you just like we always new that someday we could start again some day soon.
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Posted: Tue Feb 21, 2006 2:11 pm
Heh, I have a friend just like you xd . Except SHE met a boy on an exchange trip she believed she was with in a past life. She's still accepting they can't be together in this life ninja .
Anywayz, since you don't know if you two were like..destined, it'll be interesting if your feelings transcend even lives. (I KNOW I SOUND LIKE A STONER! LEMME ALONE! I'M TIRED stressed !) Basically, do everything in your power to make it work. Call her. Write her. N one day fly to Italy and be with her. But if the calls n letters n such don't work, and your love starts to dwindle away, it probly wasn't meant to be and it'd be best to just let her go.
BASICALLY: If it should work out-it will 3nodding . You'll make it so.
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