He never even asked. All I had was his. He said he wanted freedom, but I never stopped him from seeing friends, I even encouraged it. His friends just didn't like him at the time. I'm on the other side of the world right now, but he said he needed space. I wanted only the best for him. I just can't understand why he does not care. I love him so much. Love just does not dissapear so easily. I still can't come to terms with it, I really can't. I've never crashed this hard after a breakup before. I've never cared for someone so much before. I lost a boyfriend, and maybe even a friend, It feels like I lost one of my own children. It's hard to explain. Whenever I talk to him, I think I just make him more annoyed with me, and I'm left with no answers. I don't even want answers, I just want him. - You know, I really would have done anything, even.... even let him see other people... I'm so pathetic I guess... I don't know what else to say. He was my God. He was what I lived for.