A collection of poems...

[CataMoomba]

I look up, and still see the clouds.
I smile and watch them as they pass.
My head fills with creative and adoring sounds.
I close my eyes, hearing natures whims and woes.
And slowly, I relax.

I open my eyes again and those growls are amplified.
Mother nature is making herself clear.
I stare at the dark pallet of noise.
A wind touches the curves of my face.
Around the edges of my ears, it has a voice.
A voice, I crave to hear.

A shiver, a sigh, a smile, a darkness.
I feel light and floating.
Knowing all too well my feet are pushed to the ground
This is where I want to be.
And this is what I've been waiting for.

Mother nature's warning begins again.
And I am not afraid.
I continue to watch her.
Repeating that long lasting smile.
The sounds are now far and abound.

But I can still see the clouds...  

[CataMoomba]

In Memory of a Friend...

Lord She's Coming Home.

Some say life is a series of events,
Making up the past, present, and future,
Some say your soul is the key to heaven,
Recording all these said trails and accomplishments.

One thing is for sure, it's something far too valuable,
Life should not be taken for granted,
Your future is unknown, keep that in mind,
Something so fragile can end so quickly.

Lord, she's coming home,
Open arms, a welcoming gesture,
Let the angels bow their heads,
And the trumpets blow.

Lord, she's coming home,
A star that will never cease to shine,
A smile that will conquer the sun,
A beautiful, smart, sophisticated, young women.

Lord, she's coming home,
Waiting by the pearly gates,
Waiting to enter in eternal heaven,
Waiting to be with you.

Lord, she's with you now,
In the arms of the mighty protector,
In the hearts of many,
And in the souls of everyone,
We know the reasons why you want her home.  

[CataMoomba]

love...

So my life is improving.
Bursts of emotions quickly fleeting.
Carelessness at free will.
I'll be with you soon until.

This anticipation is killing me.
Watching the clock, hoping for 20 after 3.
Love and devotion for only you.
I'll be with you tonight- if only you knew.

This euphoric feeling, like no other place...
Floating, light as a feather, stuck in outer space.
This beautiful concoction of love, happiness, and devotion.
Saying I love you, over and over again.

So my life is improving.
Self esteem quickly rising.
My confidence is slowly brewing.
My smile, so anew.

I consider you the best in my life.
Laying here, smiling, and with a sigh.
As I fall asleep and dream of who?
Just know that I will always love you.

 

[CataMoomba]

Lies...

It feels really cold...
Knowing I'm lying to myself...
My overconfidence is our demise...
Your fear will conquer you...

I'm fine though...
Knowing my trust is overseen...
It feels so different when it's on the phone...
I'm not talking much..

Because my hope is fading away...
My heart is breaking again...
My self confidence is dwindling...
And you think you're emotional...

I'm glad you took my word...
You took my bait... I appreciate it...
That one promise doesn't matter...
But it makes me think about the promises I've made...

You put another mask on my face...
Hiding what you truly want to see...
This ridiculous part of me...
What you've fallen in love with...

I'm fine though,
Another fake smile on my face...
I'm going to keep one promise to myself...
To always hold my tongue...

And to always keep this feeling inside me...

 

[CataMoomba]

Daydreaming

There is a melody that plays in my head,
It reminds me of you, describing what you've said,
But this sensational melody, it plays without sound,
It plays and plays, when you aren't around.

And as I sit here, thinking and listening within my mind,
I know deep in my heart, our love is an unbreakable bind,
With honesty, truth, love, pride, and care,
With troubles of course, just to be fair.

If my mind was a maze,
Would you get out alive?
Walk through it unfazed?
Would you figure me out without strife?

And if my body was the barrier,
My heart the key, the emotions- the trap?
You would become the harrier,
Charisma is the subject I mostly lack.

But my love for you, is only true,
My feelings for you grow with every passing day,
If only you knew how much I truly love you,
And if I only knew what to say.

There isn't anything better in the world,
But to be with you-my barrier-unfurled,
This melody is never ending, never ceasing to play,
This love for you, will last among my days.

 

[CataMoomba]

Anger.

May you swing this pendulum in my face...
Something so hypnotizing... so solemn..
Quietly it whistles, in it's own sliver of space.
Never break sight of it, looking at the bottom.

But this device isn't the same.
It swings so slow.
It reminds you of your life.
And the choices you blame.

Those choices can differ from anything.
But it's still your life, this pendulum can take.
As it moves, you should think otherwise,
Think about whats important, what you must sacrifice.

It still has a way to go... don't fret...
Making it swing faster, something not worth a bet.
Whats important to you?
What isn't?

It's edge so sharp, so bright.
Dwindle in your own fear, fright.
If you survive this, you are worthy,
I don't believe you will.

This judgment is of your soul,
How heavy and dark...
How light and angelic.
Are you ready?

I can see you're not.

 

[CataMoomba]

Secrets...

We all have secrets that need a code,
Someone to decipher them,
Something that made you vulnerable,
It dwindles- it seeps deep inside your bones.

You see yourself in the mirror,
And you try to understand,
Trying to comprehend in your fear,
Sickening as it may- you won't look away,

We all have those desires that need fulfillment,
Desperation, satisfaction, acceptance of the other,
Don't get ahead of yourself- it's the abandonment,
It's the itch you can't scratch- never ending shutter.

You see yourself in the face of another,
Yet you judge them as a stranger,
A contradiction,
A pointless recognition.

Hum that secluded hymn,
Your dignity breaking into bend,
You don't know who you are,
They're said stories you grow from apart.

 

[CataMoomba]

Envy...

My arms are wide open,
My heart is yet closed...
The mind is swaying with the music..
Following the rhythm, time, and the flow.

Calm and with wonder,
Yet uncertained and untamed,
A battle of emotions, sunder.
My body, a vessle, in vain...

As the night sky falls along the edge of earth,
And as we reflect against our thoughts...
We figure what all of it is worth...
These battles, always fought.

Still at ease, and still quiet,
She fights, deep inside her,
Lay in bed, dear child.
Rest your eyes, sleep away your fear.

I want to rock you against my grasp,
Rock you gently with such love...
Interlocking fingers again, a clasp.
This feeling, rising above.

I can't stop thinking,
That this dream will soon expire,
I can't stop wishing,
That you'll feel this strong desire...

This lulliby that slips through my lips and to your ear,
Is something growing deep inside me,
Something I grow close and near,
This beauty, is what you can never be...

 

[CataMoomba]

Those Feelings...

So I still feel them writhing inside me...
Like a small pest, a little flea.
They make my stomach flutter...
My head spins... followed by a shudder...

Those feelings you get when you see him...
Those feelings you get when he sees you...
That shy smile you bring forth to the world around you...
Those feelings of happiness... hope to never end...

As if a distant dream suddenly coming true...
Like a long sigh released to the ready wilderness...
When you escape this reality...
Its all over... but if you only knew...

I have this energy... that I cannot control..
I have this feeling... this feeling so unknown...
This confidence running through my veins...
This optimism... praying it will stay...

This vision of you... still in my head...
Those beautiful eyes... what can be said?
That strong and loving hold... I still feel it against my skin...
Your gentle and soothing voice... flooding through my ears holding deep within.

So I'm feeling them still...
Those feelings that can never be at will
They will always be with me...
No matter what... love is not a sin... set it free

 

[CataMoomba]

Emo days...

I sit in my stuffy room tonight

Thinking on ways to stop being so uptight
Have you ever felt that way?
Insanity ripping at your veins
Not caring of the world today
Killing off the feelings i never use, to say

I sit in this cold desk this morning

Shaking and shivering hearing judgment and scorning
Have you ever felt that way?
Origin at it's best crawling up your skin like a little pest
Under your nails it burns
Like little spits of fire
Does it hurt

Kiss this stone that i wish to break
It doesn't matter if it's heart shaped as long as it can take the blows for god's sake
Let me go today
Let me go tonight

May your eyes still fill with tears
Your bones dwindle with fears
Self- centered you will always be
Everything is an imprisonment, but i am set free
Light guiding your way through life
For i believe in you... never strife

Take my hand as we venture through the fog
Or you will suffer for far to long
Now that im here, never fear
I can't take this anymore
God help me tonight, body aching, so sore
Have you no mercy?, Have i blinded you so?.
To never see?

Suffer for me...
Or let me be free

Goodbye
Our
Ordeal is Ni
Do you wish me gone?
Nor do you even care... to sing our little song
I have to leave this wretched place
Goodnight to you all
Have your self a good life, hope to never fall
Tonight i take this smirk right off my face

For this is my last stop
Our time is up, wish i could just drop (right now)
Rightiousness in my name
Enough of the lies that bring me fame
Vengence here to stay
End is near
Right here i will lay. in never ending fear.

 

[CataMoomba]

(Last one, promise!)

My Keepsake...

Let the shadow take over your brightend sky
Run through the lonely forest for what your trying to find
Look over your way of life
See that you make it better
Keep your goal in sight
We'll conquer it together
I run by your side
You run by mine
We smile as if everything is alright
The full moon is quiet
But it screams out to be free amongst the night
You stir in your subconsience
The dreams become restless
Above all else
The skin you caress
Bare your teeth and head on
Walk through the fire but be calm
Place your hand in my palm
For it is yours to take
You're my Keepsake