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I fell in love this summer you guys, and it was the most beautiful thing ever. But alas, every good love story has a tradgic ending...

We had met over a year ago, and from the first time I had saw the blue eyes ringed with honey at the pupils, I knew she was a girl I could love forever. But I didn't say anything because she was straight. Very open to homosexuality from what I know, but very much straight. I know because I had asked one day when I was confused. I had thought she was possibly bisexual, but my dream did not come true. And so we were friends for many long months. And then... on the eve of when we had first met in February I learned my first harsh lesson. She told me that night on the phone that she was bisexual. My heart was in my throat and I couldn't speak. At last, my dreams had come true! She had been hiding it all this time, and now I could have her. After deep contemplation and such, I finally asked her out. I got the yes I had always been hopeing for. It lasted for an entire 16 hours at most. She told me she liked men more. My heart was broken, but I hid my sadness and we went on in life as friends. Until that day in March. She was once again having feelings for girls, and this time she asked me out. Well, I'm stupid and so I said yes, and I had my dream girl back. I was in a cloud and ignored all the warning signs that something was wrong. She hated all these other lesbians and stuff that were my friends, and told me my friends were constantly wrong. One of her favorite lines was "Oh, this better not be another lesbian thing...". But I ignored it all because I didn't want to believe it was true. Love will do that to you. And then it happened. It was the day before my sweet 16, and it was the worst day of my life. We had a silly fight over something that had happened in a book. We were always having these fights, but they had never effected us like this. It was as if this was the thing to break the camel's back, and when her's broke there was hell to pay. Harch words were exchanged, more from her than I, and each one lanced my heart until there was nothing left. The one friend I had at the time who witnessed it all offered for me to call, and this girl I had loved who had hated this girl before started whining about how she needed someone too. My other friend told her that she could call if she needed to as well. So I turned to Kohki. I didn't call my friend who had witnessed it until hours later. I couldn't. She was helping my love. And so I spilled it all to Kohki, and he sat and listened, and with his wonderful charms of humor he helped to heal my heart a little bit. By the first hour of that phone call I was laughing again. But I still hurt. At least I had someone to talk to who could help. I can never repay Kohki for what he did for me that night. And I still love the girl who shot me down and told me her bisexuality was all a lie. I guess some lessons are never learned.

I've pretty much recovered and I have found someone else, but it's bothersome because it's almost as if I don't feel for her. It's wierd. So I felt compelled to share this with you all.

Kohki and I attend school together. It's... interesting. xp

Yes, that is all true. *nod nod*