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 Posted: Sat Jun 06, 2009 11:52 pm
Out of sheer boredom and need to get something out of my system, I have come up with an idea where we can pretty much blog as our characters. They will have their own usernames, formats and what not. They will not be able to chat with one another here, and preferably not talk about what others have written. It's really just for us as roleplayers to get stuff out, or let other people read what our characters are thinking.
It may or may not pertain to the roleplay, but it will not be talked about in the roleplay itself. Here, people will not bring knowledge into the roleplay.
Bwah. It's too late for me to think.
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Posted: Sun Jun 07, 2009 10:40 am
 __________☂x☂xαи∂ ι cαи'т тεℓℓ ιғ yσυ'яε ℓαυɢнιиɢ________________★moodxxxxxconfused and frustrated__________☁x☁xвεтωεεи εαch sмιℓε тнεяε's α тεαя ιи yσυя εyε________________★doingxxxxxpondering and typing__________☂x☂xтнεяε's α тяαιи ℓεαvιиɢ тσωи ιи aи нσυя________________★wantsxxxxxa solution__________☁x☁xιт's иσт wαιтιиɢ ғσя yσυ, αи∂ иειтнεя αм ι________________★locationxxxxxwherever i feel like it__________☂x☂xιs тнιs тнε ℓιғε тнαт yσυ ℓεα∂________________★songxxxxxpaper wings ←rise against__________☁x☁xoя тнe ℓιғε тнαт's ℓεα∂ ғσя yσυ?________________★lovexxxxxi am not wasting any time right nowㄨ___cιяcuιτ『ω ι я ε ℓ ε s s』sραяк
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I have got to get this out of my system. I am so sick of internally complaining, so I guess you are going to be the bearer of my annoyance.
Today during ethics class with Professor, somehow we got on the subject of families. That is a subject that I have always hated. Always. Ever since I learned that I was just a foster child, and that my mother killed my father, I have always hated it. I would have left the classroom, but the professor seemed to understand my discomfort and changed the subject. I hate my mother. I hate my father. I don't care about either of them. My father beat my mother for no good reason. I have no idea if he beat me. My mother had the power of illusions so maybe she gave him an illusion that he was beating me, or maybe she created the illusion that he was a b*****d to give her grounds on killing him. To tell you the truth I have no idea what to think, so I have just given up on my whole family thing. I had never been able to reach my paternal grandparents, but I got lucky and found my maternal grandparents. Unlucky for me, they don't speak any english so they are working in their english and I am working on my japanese. I guess it's a win/win situation.
People talk about how great their family is and whatnot and that just gets on my nerves. I don't tell others about my family, so they don't really know about my past. It's not their fault, it's mine. I always seem so open to people, like announcing when my period started, but I guess I am not. I haven't told anyone about my past, nothing about my new lifestyle I have to adapt to.
Speaking of which, I am running out of options. I still haven't told anyone and I need to start the treatment options. The only few who actually know are the Professor and Ororo. I refuse to tell anyone else. No one else needs to know. I can't block it off from other telepaths, so I need to just be trustful of others and not have it in my mind. It's gotten to the point where I can tell when me mind is being picked. It makes me wish that I was a telepath or had a power where I could keep them out. I don't want anyone snooping up in my attic.
I have to starting thinking of what I am going to do. Their are several options for fighting this, but they all draw attention to me. If I do chemo, everyone will notice my hair falling out, and me looking like a piece of crap. I can't do a bone marrow transplant because that takes time and I will be out of it for who knows how long. I have around a 75% survival rate, so what am I waiting for? Am I just going to wait until my survival rate dwindles to nothing because I am too prideful to let people know? I guess so.
Anyways, I have to go. I don't want to type anymore and plus, I am going for a day on the town with Kitty, Kurt, Peter and Rogue. It's going to be awesome~!
xxxxx
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