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 Posted: Fri Jun 05, 2009 3:12 pm
Hey guys, this is my experience log. You'll see a lot about Tarot in here, and I'll probably mention the people in my life and my relationship to them, since I'm very sensitive to the emotions of others around me. I hesitate to call myself an empath, but only because I'm going through a tough stage in my life in which I'm discovering myself. Background: I'm sixteen, female, and I have very open-minded parents. I've been sensitive to energy ever since I was a baby. I was the odd one out, and if we were going to be on the more physical in-this-realm side of scientific, then I'd say I have a processing disability on the same spectrum as Autism, yet in some cases it's on a completely different spectrum. I believe my version of this disability, simply Sensory Processing Disorder, is on the more Autistic side. By "processing," I mean physically processing information. My morals aren't messed up; I try to be nice to others and I would never go out of my way to hurt another human being. 99.9% hurt I cause is purely accidental. I leave .1% open because I'm not done living yet, and anything can happen between now and the day I die. On the more spiritual side of why I'm so weird, my mother believes that I'm an indigo child, and lately I've been fairly convinced. (FYI, an indigo child is not just someone who has an indigo aura. More info here: http://www.indigochild.com/ ) So on top of being weird, shunned by humans in general (except for a very select few very kind people, who I'm pretty sure are also indigo children), and not being able to catch a ball on an arch or feel where my pelvis is, I'm psychically sensitive. These days I've been working on reading Tarot, and I've been getting better at it. Soon, though, I'm going to get attuned to Reiki (a kind of energy healing that my parents do, that my mom is a master of) and then I'll be healing, just as I feel I'm supposed to do. I feel that I'm here to be a healer, whether it be through energy work, counseling, or giving insight and advice about future events. If y'all want to post advice here or anything, just don't turn it in to a long off-topic conversation. If you want to continue a conversation, please do so in the PM's. If anyone wants a quick Tarot reading, I'm not charging at the moment, so send me a PM and I'll give it a shot; I need more practice anyway. I do one card (a basic overview), three card (past, present, future), four card (three card along with relationships with those around you), or Celtic Cross readings (I need more practice with the Celtic Cross though >.<) so if you want to help me out, it would make me happy.
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Posted: Tue Aug 04, 2009 8:50 pm
After watching a video of George Kavassilas and 2/3 parts of his presentation about 2012 and this ascension (which I found a bit less intriguing as the videos went on, sorry to say) a few numbers popped up in my head the same night, that I remembered the next morning. 6, 25, and 12. In accordance to the theme, I took this to mean the date of my supposed ascension; June 25th, 2012. This might not mean anything of relation to that, or anything at all, but I'd like to put it here in case it does have significance later on. I'm not expecting anything, but hey, this is a psychic's guild!
Also, a few weeks ago, around the middle of July, I was out to dinner with my dad, aunt and uncle, and grandmother for her birthday. My dad was having shoulder pain, and I suddenly felt this energy rush through me. I could heal! I could feel and just KNOW it. So I got up, walked around the table, and put a hand in front of and behind his shoulder, and just gently pressed. Huge rush of energy. My dad also felt it. I could feel his shoulder loosening, and then, with another "jolt," I made the flow stop. My hands were really hot. So I went and sat down, and we exchanged an amused, knowing look between us.
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Posted: Sat Sep 05, 2009 8:23 pm
I recently had a dream that just made me a bit... unnerved.
Basically, I was in some area that was a bit of a mix of this place I stayed in Welfleet, Cape Cod a few years ago, and my idea of a small place in Hawaii. There were themes of cousins, my brother and some girl he was with/dating/whatever, and oil. I remember there being oil on the roofs of buildings, and it was "common" I guess. Then around the end of the dream, my mother and I were looking for my brother and the girl, Anya, and we ended up driving to the top of this really high, really unsteady tower. It was leaning one way, so I remember wrapping myself around a pole and being really scared. I mean, this was extremely high up and unstable! Eventually I let go with my hands and looked at them. Covered in dirt and oil. Crude oil? I'm not sure. Then we found my brother and Anya (they came up the tower) and things were settled, I guess. Then we decided to go home, and I mean home to Connecticut home. I remember looking out at the land below us. We were in a valley, and there was a lake, such a beautiful view. But the lake was entirely of crude oil. There was a breeze, and it stirred the lake, and I just remember thinking, "I hate this place."
So I want to find the meaning of oil in dreams. Most of the meanings I get are about wealth, but it certainly didn't feel like wealth. It felt horrible, like something ominous was going to happen, especially when it was on my hands. Another meaning I got was "inner turmoil", which makes sense, but I want to find a reputable source.
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Posted: Sun Oct 04, 2009 4:11 pm
Good news and bad news.
My abilities are coming back! I often go through states in which my abilities just aren't working, and then months later I very much am able to feel things again.
But of course it happens with a really big amount of energy that almost anyone could sense.
A few hours ago, I thought of my brother up in college. I hadn't spoken to him in some weeks, so I sent him a message on Facebook, saying hi, asking what's up and whatnot. A little while, maybe half an hour after I sent it, my dad gets a call from him. Turns out there's been some trouble up at college. He's not harmed, and neither is anyone else, but there's just a bunch of stuff that I don't want to go into, and it's pretty bad.
So my abilities came out of dormancy, but it took something bad for it to happen. Freaking fabulous.
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Posted: Sat Jan 16, 2010 6:39 pm
About two weeks ago, I listened to one of my mom's meditation/hypnotherapy CD's for a healthy sleep. As soon as the CD was done playing, and as I was drifting off to sleep, I felt a hand clap my right shoulder in a friendly way. Not very gently, but in a rough friendly way that an uncle or family friend would. I was a little shocked at that, but I felt no bad vibes, so I went to sleep. It was the first good night's rest that I've had in a long time.
Some days later, my dad and I were talking about our house and how old it was. It's over a hundred years old, so sometimes there's a ghost or two that walks through. Nothing major. My dad's only seen things once or twice, but once recently he saw a smoky figure in the middle of the dining room. No vibes from it, and it went away as soon as he looked. As he told me about it, I looked in a close spot and saw a little wave too, but I'm willing to pass that off as my imagination, but I'll write it here anyway.
While I was taking my mid term for chemistry yesterday, sometime during the middle of the test, I swore I heard a whispery voice say my name. But it happened to be at the same time my teacher moved his rolling chair, and it was around 8:30AM, so it could have been my imagination again.
Last week, a friend of mine asked me for some advice about three dreams of his. He said that he was asking me because I seemed to know about dreams because I handed out surveys and did a psychology project about them. He wrote them down for me to interpret, but they weren't very detailed. I suddenly just felt the information flowing through me. I wrote down my interpretation and things that I just knew for his first dream. I saw nothing, but just knew everything, as though I had read it years before, forgot it for a while, and was suddenly remembering it again.
When I finished my interpretation and gave it to him, he nodded and said that everything was pretty much dead on, with what things were going on in his life lately. I just hope that he ends up taking my advice.
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Posted: Sun Jun 13, 2010 5:45 pm
Recently I've been doing a bit more healing. Not Reiki specifically, but a sort of energy manipulation healing.
A few weeks ago, I was in class and my friend complained that her back was really hurting. So when we had a free period, she lay down on her stomach and I put my hands near her back. My entire head instantly heated up. My hands tingled. I felt the energy in waves. I saw/felt/sensed this crude-oil kind of negative energy in her back. So I started scooping it up, like I had a spongey glove around my hands. I scooped it up, shook it off, and my other hand replaced the negative energy with gold energy. I kept at this for a while until a mutual friend of ours looked over and said (quite loudly) "What the hell are you doing?" I guess we looked strange. So I lost my concentration, but my friend did say she felt better.
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