Zero Fai
IRL
IRL
1/27/10
Dear Diary,
Day...well heck does it even matter what day it is? I've been at this damn experiment for what? Sixteen years? I feel like I've tried everything. Nothing seems to be working. I've even tried what I would least expect--still nothing. It's hopeless; I'll never find the cure.
Of course, now I have to ask myself: Was everything worth trying to find it? I mean...I got through one obstical: my twin and I were reunited. But everything else...I put my life on hold and dedicated it to finding a cure that is nearly impossible. Now I'm almost fully certain that it is. Maybe I'll just shut the light off on this experiment? Of course, I won't be a pessimist and say that it was all for nothing. I now know what won't work and what could possibly help get rid of this disease. I'm sure a few will be happy with my decision. After all, all this lab work was really beginning to take a bad toll on my health...not that it already hadn't.
I'll still continue in science and such. There's no way I could give up inventing and experiments all together. Just...I need a break...a long break. The light to the laboratory is shutting off and the door is closing without me behind it. I'll say my farewell and then be off to breathe for a while without stress.
I'm taking time for myself. And even though I can't regain the time I lost or even chase after my dream...everything was well worth it. Good-bye.
Of course, now I have to ask myself: Was everything worth trying to find it? I mean...I got through one obstical: my twin and I were reunited. But everything else...I put my life on hold and dedicated it to finding a cure that is nearly impossible. Now I'm almost fully certain that it is. Maybe I'll just shut the light off on this experiment? Of course, I won't be a pessimist and say that it was all for nothing. I now know what won't work and what could possibly help get rid of this disease. I'm sure a few will be happy with my decision. After all, all this lab work was really beginning to take a bad toll on my health...not that it already hadn't.
I'll still continue in science and such. There's no way I could give up inventing and experiments all together. Just...I need a break...a long break. The light to the laboratory is shutting off and the door is closing without me behind it. I'll say my farewell and then be off to breathe for a while without stress.
I'm taking time for myself. And even though I can't regain the time I lost or even chase after my dream...everything was well worth it. Good-bye.
Signed,
Z
Z