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I don't really like talking about my personal life, but since no one really knows who I am in this place, I don't really mind.

I'm not one to say that I'm a friendship guru, though I wouldn't say that I'm completely clueless about it.

I have (had) a best friend and we've been best friends for about a year and a bit. We don't have major fights often (only about 6 major fights) and in everyone of them, I'm always the one at fault. I accept the fact that it is partly my fault but she always blames me for everything that goes wrong. The other day while we were in assembly, my friend was annoying my other friend and I tried telling my friend to stop while trying to get in trouble, so I softly tapped her arm. My 'best friend' then glares at me and tells me to stop hitting her. I tried telling her that I was only trying to stop my friend from annoying my other friend, and all she did was ignore me.

Problems started long before this though. It sparked when my friends and I went to this shopping centre kind of thing. It was pretty much last minute because my close friend's mum works in one of the coffee shops there and she had to stay there until her mum got off work, which was around 5:15 pm. So I didn't want ot leave her all alone, so I offered to go with her, then my other close friend wanted to go too. Since the centre (let's just call it KV) was walking distance, we were down a hill when we met 'best friend'. We weren't as distant with eachother back then, so we asked if she wanted to go too. She called her mum using my phone (as always, not caring if she's wasting my money or anything) and her mum gave her conditions that she had to be home by 4 and so she came with us.
Since she normally takes the bus home, she asked my close friend (not the other one who's Mum works in KV, let's call her A and lets call the one whos mum workes in KV, M) if it was okay since they live near eachother. A called her mum up and her mum said that it was okay.
Everything was fine and dandy until it was close to 'best friend' had to go that A mentioned that her mum had to pick her up around 4:15 cause she was a bit busy.
'Best friend' exploded. She walked off into a shop and since me, being her oh-so wonderful best friend, followed her and confronted her why she was mad. She then started to rant about how much unorganised I was and how I should be more organised (why is she saying that when I am -I'm not ashamesd to say this cause my other friends agree with it- more organised than she is). She was pointing this out because she was told that she was getting home 15 minutes late. She then started b.tching about how much of a bad friend I am for always never being told off by my parents.
I know perfectly well that her parents give her strict rules, but I don't know why she has to blame it on me. It was then that I realised she's always been blaming me for everything, and everytime we have a fight, I'm always the one saying sorry in the end. ALWAYS.

We started a new year in school a few months ago, and ever since the first week of school, she's always been hanging off this girl (let's call her F) that I don't really like. She knows this cause I told it to her when she asked me what I thought of her.
I don't really mind F, but the reason I don't really like her is that 'best friend' is always with her, and she seems to not care about that fact that we don't talk anymore. And also the fact that she's a bit of a wanna-be emo/scene

Last year, my close friend (M) used to always take me away from 'best friend' (we used to be really close then, almost unseperable) and she got really mad. She told me about it, and asked me to tell M to back off for a bit, so I did. Now, guess what she's doing? She's glued to F and yapps all about how wonderful she is and how funny she is, how great she is. I don't really care that she's rubbing it in my face that F is SOO much better than me. But what really ticks me off is that she doesn't care that we haven't been spending any time with each other and the fact that she is doing what she stopped me of doing before (about the M thing)cause she didn't want to me to 'ruin the friendship'.

Now, she is obviously disgusted by me and hates my guts even though she doesn't express it, she somehow reeks of the fact that she hates me.

I know that there is no such thing as perfect friendships, but the fact that everything now surrounds F and how perfect best friends they are.
'Best friend' and I were known to be unrelated twins, cause I was only 4 hours older than her and we apparently look alike too. But now, her twin is F and now the apparantly look like eachother. THEY DON'T EVEN HAVE THE SAME F.CKING HEIGHT NOR DO THEY LOOK ANYTHING LIKE EACHOTHER.


Sorry for my rant, it's just that I don't know anywhere else to do this. The only place that I am free to do it is in Gaia cause no one really know who I am.


I need a bit of help about how I can talk to her or confront her about what's been happening.
PLEASE HELP ME