I'm currently on the second semester of my second year in the university.
*I wanted to change to another area, but they ask me a very high percentage, which I don't have. That started making me feel crappy.
*I studied hard for a test I already took a year ago. Last year I had a 68D. This time I studied and learned the material. In fact, when we discused the test I thought "Wow, I still remember all this, I bet I had an A"
Bam... F...
I'm usually a very happy/jumpy person. That's the main adjective a friend who really knows me could say.
But lately I've been having so many stuff on me that I forget everything.
Frustration is driving me crazy and I just feel like giving up on everything I mattered before (university, work, friends)
My birthday is next week and I don't even feel like celebrating :/
altho I do want to.
It's like... all I do is EAT whenever I get too frustrated and want to SLEEP all the time. I HATE THIS.
I was fat, I lost 40 pounds about 1/2 year ago... and I already gained 8 punds :/
I feel like s**t, my room is a mess and I don't feel like cleaning, don't feel like asking for help, don't feel. Period.
I feel like I'm a big fat lie of happiness that it's just bored to death of everything in the bottom.
Help/comments/advice?
PS: My college adviser referred me to a psychiatrist, she said it might be some chemical disorder and that a psychologist wont help much.
and BTW... this is the first time in my life i feel like this. I've always said depression is out of my dictionary and I've always been really happy and optimistic.
Even when I dumped my ex, after almost 2 years and being truly in love.
I'm 18, about to turn 19 in a week and I feel just bored and without wanting anything :/
Also, I noticed I'm reflecting some sort of behaviors that make my close close friends think that I'm being a bit too promiscuous.
I never feel motivated for anything, but lust... ah. That's the one thing that can get me back on track for at least a day. >.<
*I wanted to change to another area, but they ask me a very high percentage, which I don't have. That started making me feel crappy.
*I studied hard for a test I already took a year ago. Last year I had a 68D. This time I studied and learned the material. In fact, when we discused the test I thought "Wow, I still remember all this, I bet I had an A"
Bam... F...
I'm usually a very happy/jumpy person. That's the main adjective a friend who really knows me could say.
But lately I've been having so many stuff on me that I forget everything.
Frustration is driving me crazy and I just feel like giving up on everything I mattered before (university, work, friends)
My birthday is next week and I don't even feel like celebrating :/
altho I do want to.
It's like... all I do is EAT whenever I get too frustrated and want to SLEEP all the time. I HATE THIS.
I was fat, I lost 40 pounds about 1/2 year ago... and I already gained 8 punds :/
I feel like s**t, my room is a mess and I don't feel like cleaning, don't feel like asking for help, don't feel. Period.
I feel like I'm a big fat lie of happiness that it's just bored to death of everything in the bottom.
Help/comments/advice?
PS: My college adviser referred me to a psychiatrist, she said it might be some chemical disorder and that a psychologist wont help much.
and BTW... this is the first time in my life i feel like this. I've always said depression is out of my dictionary and I've always been really happy and optimistic.
Even when I dumped my ex, after almost 2 years and being truly in love.
I'm 18, about to turn 19 in a week and I feel just bored and without wanting anything :/
Also, I noticed I'm reflecting some sort of behaviors that make my close close friends think that I'm being a bit too promiscuous.
I never feel motivated for anything, but lust... ah. That's the one thing that can get me back on track for at least a day. >.<
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