stare I was not raised on any religion at all. My mom was an 'Easter Christian'. I'm sure some of you can discern what that means.
My dad introduced me to parapsychology at a very young age. I have always been an inquisitive sort of person and when I saw things i didn't understand or felt things that seemed out of the ordinary I would ask the only person who seemed to listen. I spent a lot of time developing my gifts ( which i will not discuss unless asked about). I studied meditation, ways to focus the mind and psychical defensive and offensive techniques from the time of childhood.
On the subject of religion my father sat me down around age 4 and said " I will take you to whatever church you'd like to go to, If you feel connected with a church or group even if I don't agree with it i'll take you." We drove around on early Saturday and Sunday mornings while i had my 'feelers' out for any sort of spiritual connection when I asked. Not much ever came from that however, I found the older Catholic church building to have some really awesome positive energy around it, my father explained that that was a very selective place to go and they might not accept us.
My mother didn't like this idea and insisted that i go to vacation bible school at my grandmothers church which was southern baptist.
stressed I respected the church as a place of worship and insisted dressing conservatively and in a dress out of respect even when other children didn't and not surprisingly i was ridiculed for it. When It came to classes teachers weren't very fond of children who asked questions about stories that weren't very logical or clear. I was expected to have this mysterious 'faith' in the words of God. I understood that if God was not a human he could not write any words and If God wanted everyone to know something and believe in the same thing we would be doing it already if 'God' was as powerful and miraculous as the 'faithful' claimed to be.
I don't know if any of you experienced this but when I was in vacation bible school they have a time where we all 'pray' and then they ask us to come up to the alter and 'give your soul to Jesus'. This really gave me the willies as a child. They are asking for the souls of children like kids really understand the idea that is happening. Not many kids came up to the alter but when they did they cried and screamed and seemed to be very unsettled and afraid.
Mostly what i got from it was, Jesus is an undead spirit who feeds on the souls of believers to stay 'alive'.
Kids made fun of me alot in bible school. I would ask questions and then get in trouble with the teacher. I was always overdressed for church they said. I responded that i was only respecting the word of their god. I asked about pictures in the bible books and why they didn't match what the words said in my bible 'my grandmother gave me a gold leaf inscribed king James version of the bible when i was a child and that is what i took to church. It was a heavy volume for a kid to carry but at that age i could read quite well.'
Needless to say when I said that i believed Jesus was just a human they got kind of peeved. And when their answers weren't making sense i said something to the effect " i don't really see what his prophecy was other than he was going to somehow 'save' us by dying?" Save us from what?
Since then I have a greater understanding of the ideas behind the bible than my teachers had. i look at the lives of Buddha, Krishna, Mithra and see the same patterns of belief.
I consider myself to be skeptical agnostic divining spiritualist occultist.
I'm the type of agnostic who believes that there might be a universal being or god whatever you want to call it but that we might never attain the true nature or knowledge of this entity, if it does in fact exist at all.
I prefer to look at all available facts before I make a decision about something. In my mind I feel that the true word of the universe and understanding is available to everyone if they only listen to what their brain and heart feel, live life without fear of death and never discount anyone's interpretation of the truth. Even through lies knowledge can be gained as long as you go with what is true in your heart and use your brain.
-- Vittoria
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