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Mood: Tired
Listening to: amanda ******** palmer.
Reading: the holographic universe
Drinking: green tea.

so um it's tuesday i guess but i never slept so it's monday to me. my mom just walked in and said "oh you're up, are you?" and so i said "yes i am up, aren't i?" because you know, we're both stating the obvious here and she suddenly goes on this tirade about how i'm always condescending and she can't say anything to me anymore without me attacking her and i'm thinking wow, projection much?

earlier i was in the underworld but i made a 3am phone call and i was rescued and finally wrote something worth sharing. it was written for that person but i thought sharing is caring so i will post it here too.

my therapist wanted to take me out for lunch and i said um, no thanks. besides i'm pretty sure that breaks some kind of protocol. weird.

i watched a leonard cohen documentary at 3 am one of these past few days and in the beginning he tells a crowd about the time he was visiting a friend in a mental hospital and that he asked where he could get a coffee and his friend said downstairs and so he went downstairs leaving his jacket behind because although mentally ill, his friend was not a thief. in fact, he suspects that his friend wasn't even mentally ill, he just saw it as the alternative to college.

it's 9 am and there's a man walking down the street whistling and the moon's in hiding and i miss her. i want it to be June. i want sunshine and flowers and street performers. i want to go around the city and take down every stop sign.

i'm so tired of being denied. but i'm alive, i'm alive.

Protocol?

Reading this all I can think of is other stories. I don't know.