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 Posted: Thu Feb 04, 2010 10:47 pm
A wise man once said "He who walks sideways in airport is going to Bangkok."
You can't screw up when you bangkok. Then you're mostly just in pain.
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Posted: Thu Feb 04, 2010 10:49 pm
thank you.. for those... mind blowing words..
they were so inspirational.
My life.. has never made so much sense before e.e
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Posted: Fri Feb 05, 2010 12:02 am
I'm helping out with a raid and went to go invade, I got this message
"Your opponent is hiding, please try again "
Lmfao xD
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Posted: Sun Feb 07, 2010 2:12 am
my Tarot Card Reading
Sunday, February 7
Nine of Wands Reversed
Feeling overwhelmed as this is end of journey and cycle. Exhaustion. Doubt. Not ready to walk away and be done with something. Needing to hang on and draw out the end. Outcome not what you wanted or intended. Thoughts of taking the wrong path to get where you wanted to go. Feelings that you have been unfair or unwise. Uncertainty and unrest.
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Posted: Wed Feb 10, 2010 8:58 pm
So.. I'm not feeling too well right now..
I woke up feeling sick to my stomach..
had the feeling that I needed to throw up all morning
Finally did.
... it didn't make me feel better
I took a nap earlier today because my head is still pounding
... It's like a horrible headache that never goes away..
I learned not to leave the t.v on while napping.
Hearing the Tyra show maked me have weird dreams.. and this isn't the first time.
Mom called earlier today, .. I kinda yelled at her.. didn't mean to
She called back an hour later and asked me if I was okay
Glad she knew I wasn't feeling good and that I wasn't trying to act like a b***h.
She told me to come home this weekend.. she's hosting a vday dinner..
I'm not sure how that will go.. or who will be there.
But it doesn't matter much
What matters is that I'll be home
Goodbye couch,
Hello Bed
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Posted: Fri Mar 26, 2010 9:26 am
I feel a little faint right now.. and more than a little sick to my stomach.
When I try to sleep my mind wanders..
and old memories tend to come up.
Today it was about my childhood
and the molestation that I had to go through by my grandfather.
I keep thinking about some of the things he would say and the things he did..
and it makes me want to throw up..
I haven't told any of my family.. when though I want to badly.
I have to wait till after his death.. mostly because I don't want him to live the last few years of his life hated.. I wouldn't want that for anyone..
So my mouth stays shut..
I keep thinking of what I would say to my mother..
Would she even believe me?
I mean.. think about it...
The reasons I was so depressed as a child, the reasons I wanted to run away.. why I was so quiet.. why I refused and bitched about going over to visit... I hated waking up to having someone touch me..
She thinks the reason I am the way I am ( closed off to the world) is because of the abuse I went through with my biological father and his girlfriend.. but it was more than that.
I'm surprised yet.. not really at the same time that she never noticed..
After she lost her father .. I didn't want her to lose another one.
Am I stupid for that?
Because I never tell on the people that hurt me..
I want to pass out right now.. but the thoughts and memories are still lingering..
and ugh..I probably sound really whiny
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Posted: Fri Apr 23, 2010 5:13 pm
You know that kid.. who's all lonely.. and goes to sit with a group of kids at lunch.. and then they all get up and walk away?
Yeah, my parents did that to me. Fml
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