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 Posted: Sun Jan 18, 2009 7:54 pm
Another teen with depression story. My mom makes a joke of it and so does everyone else. I haven't been eating and just recently people have been saying something about it. My older brother gave me a hug just the other day and said I felt like skin and bones. My mom said she notices that all I do is sleep and when I'm not sleeping I'm thinking or crying. They all think I'm being "hormonal" over some guy. It's really not that, and it's quite hard to explain since so many things have seemed to trigger this depressed state that I am in.
I'm not eating, not wanting to get out of bed, I just lay there and cry. Quite frankly it's horrible. I don't know what is worse, living or dying.
My boyfriend treats me like...well..like I'm just his friend. We've been in a relationship for 8 months now. 6 out of those 8 months we were happy. My mom is depressed as well, she's even taking medicine. She says that we kids depress her, she says she never wants to be at home anymore and that she often has suicidal thoughts. My dad is hardly in my life. I see him like..once a month. I used to have like...3 best friends. My one best friend Josh is going to California, he doesn't have round trip tickets so he might not be back. We're also a bit more than friends and he just recently got a girlfriend. He's known that I've had a crush on him for a month or so now but he turned me down to date a 12 year, while he's 14. He's also been ignoring me for the past 3 days and acting like I don't exsist. My other friend Leanna is pissed off because I've been happy. When I first met Josh and we became friends I used to go to Leanna and tell her everything about my new friend. Just recently she came to me and told me that she is pissed off at me because everything is always about Josh, and she's tired of hearing about him. She also said she is jealous of my happiness. So that kinda depressed me...then my third best friend being my mom. Of course as stated above, I depress her.
I don't know why I haven't been eating, it's really scary. Usually I can get two whoppers from Burger King and still be hungry. Now I can't even eat a double cheeseburger. My mother says that at 4ft 9 I can't stop eating it'd be unhealthy for me. I have no reason to eat, and nobody honestly seems to care that i'm not eating anyways. I just poke at my food, nibbling on it every now and again. I tried to talk to my boyfriend about it and he just blew me off to talk to some "Wolfey".
So, I've lost all my friends, I have no life and I don't really feel like I have a reason to live. I'm turning 17 in 6 months. I worried that I might not even make it to my 17th birthday.
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Posted: Wed Jan 21, 2009 9:13 am
Your mother shouldn't say that your depress her. That's a very mean and unhealthy thing for a mother to say to her child. You could try pointing that out to her.
All in all, it sounds like there are many issues going on. Your age means you're more likely to be emotional because of those hormones surging through your body. But all that stress could put anyone in a funk. I think most of us are going to go through at least one similar situation in our lives, where it just seems like all of our relationships and support systems are failing us. Luckily some of those relationships and support systems will strength again for many people. And for those that don't strength, new ones will usually take their place in time.
I'd recommend looking for something that makes you happy in the meantime, even when you're alone. Maybe drawing, painting, reading, walking, pretty much anything. You could also try something that can make you feel good and give you a chance to meet friends, such as volunteer work. It would probably be good to talk to a professional about this too though.
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