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I'm glad that you realise that God is willing to help you. He will never let you down. Satan is trying his best to make you feel discouraged, but do your best not to listen to him. I really know that the Book of Mormon has a power in it that will help you in your life. There've been some tough times in my life where I think reading God's words has been the only thing which has kept me going. Well that's what I was thinking at the time. I realise now that my parents were also always praying for me, and also the prophet is always praying for the youth of the church and the missionaries.

Drinking may be a way of burying the pain, but it will only resurface later, and you'll have a drinking problem to deal with too. Jesus died for us so we don't have to suffer. All we have to do is open our hearts to Jesus, and His love will drown out the pain in our lives.

I know this is easier said than done, but it's easier that Satan would have us believe. My advice to you is to hold on to the gospel, and try to realise the big picture. You will pass through the hard times in your life, and you will be a lot happier if you do it God's way. Remember you are a child of Heavenly Father, your potential is unlimited, and He loves you.

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The internet is sometimes like time travelling... some things happen so fast and other things leave you waiting for months on end to see what comes next. smile

It's okay though. Changes, especially to your self, don't always come quickly. smile

I've felt like this before too. and I can guess that stories of other peoples experiences won't really do much for you. and you feel like you can learn from your own mistakes and not from just someone telling you it's bad for you. you have to realize that if you touch the flame it will burn you instead of taking someone elses word for it. and I guess what I can say is if you don't want to talk to your parents or bishop because you would feel really awkward seeing them at church or just some random day and know that they know what you have done. I'm a member and I got thoughts like this after I joined the church too. I'm an only member in my family and my brother does acid and my dad drinks on a daily basis and I only know of one other member that goes to my school. we used to be really good friends but now I hardly ever talk to her. I stoped going to church for a few months and basically put a pause or a stop on anything to do with the church for a while. and I can say that in that time it all started when I felt too tired to get up and go to church one morning. then it carried on to other things. I drank with a few friends and I even smoked and i even lost my virginity. I'm not saying these things to brag or anything or to make people feel sorry for me but I'm saying these things because I don't want other people to stray away from the straight and narrow path like I did. I did some horrible things that I don't even think I want to even repent for because I said I wouldn't do them and then here I am and I did them. I don't know how long ago you posted this so I don't know if you've actually gone that far away yet but since you still have the thought all I can do is give you my word of advice. Go to church and talk to some of your friends or some of the YM/YW there and see if you could hang out with them. come to the Army of heliman every day and check up on things. pay attention to the people you pass on teh street that you can tell have been smoking or drinking their entire life. and think, do you really want to look or be like that? I know I'd like to be able to talk through my mouth and not a hole in my throat someday when I'm older. and I'd like to know that I won't need an organ transplant because I ruined some of mine through drinking. you can't think of them saying not to do that stuff because they want you to devote your life to christ and be a model citizen but because of all the bad things it can do to you. think of how things will be in teh long run. and please PLEASE don't stray away from the church. once the spirit is gone it's only down hill from there.

Well, thanks everyone!! Read my other thread now to find out a coming conclusion to my problems.

EDIT: OH!!!! I just realized I started this thread under a different username, and then started using this one and you guys thought I was someone else!!!! Whoospy!! Anyway, yeah, this is still Skwunky, t's just that account was so spammed up, I couldn't just change the username, I had to start a new one. Sorry 'bout that!!

((Just so you know, Skwunky is a combination of the English words for "Squirrel-Monkey". Risu-Saru is a combination of the Japanese words for "Squirrel-Monkey" lol, long INSIDE story. Let's just say it's aschool nickname that everyone calls me. The scary thing is, I'm a junior!! lol, and people still call me Skwunky. Very few actually call me by my real name anymore. Well, except for the teachers... We've tried to get them to call me it, but they refuse... Oh well, lol.))

Here is another song that I thought might help. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=noVSgBpIxu0