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So my friend is going in to the psychiatrist again, because after being diagnosed with clinical depression, she started taking the pills. She was happy for a while, then decided she didn't need them anymore. Then she stopped being fine.

Well, my mom has said for years that I have clinical depression and anxiety, just like she does. I've denied it for a while, but now I am starting to think that I probably do. I exhibit a lot of the symptoms, and speaking with my friend, we both have one year be totally okay, and then the next year be horrible and shitty, then the next year be okay, and onward. My mom and I have not gotten along for over four years now, so I didn't really take her seriously in the beginnings. I thought it was just another reason that she could give of why I'm not as good as my old sister.

Now there are times when I really just don't want to get out of bed, and I'll be angry and sad for no apparent reason. I'm sick all of the time, but I'm starting to wonder if some of it is just in my head. I worry constantly about things out of my control, and get angry at all of the wrong people when I'm sad. I feel like I'm losing control of my life, one bit at a time. My grades are pretty much straight C's, which are the equivalent of F's to me. Furthermore, I want to quit colorguard, which is one of the first things to truly make me happy, and I find myself fighting with the first guy that I've found that has really been able to understand me.

But, on the other hand, I've heard a lot of horror stories about people feeling completely numb because of medications, or it taking years of being miserable for them to find the right medication with the right dosage. Should I ask to see a psychiatrist? Or am I better off without?



Sorry for the length, and I know this goes in the Advice subforum, but only one or two people actually look in there.

Well there's no harm in going to the doctor and getting checked out. Or in a psychiatrist's case, analyzed. I understand your worries and fears of the medications, because I'm the same way. I refuse to take meds. But if you're really that worried and want to leave something that makes you happy, I suggest looking further into what might cause this feeling.
Maybe talk to your friend's doctor about seeing if you really are clinically depressed. We don't want something to go wrong.
*hugs* good luck.

Heres the thing with just going to check it out. If I tell my mother, "Fine, you're right, maybe theres something up, I'll go," then I won't have an option in whether or not I try the drugs. She will decide for me. So either I go, and I have to take the meds, or I don't go, and try to move through it like I have for the past 4 years.

I'm 15...


Thanks =]