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Some teacher just get on your nerves? Some people mess with you and you just can't STAND THEM!?! Do you want to wrap your hands around someone's throat because of the lousy day at school?

Well, to prevent you from going to juvie or jail, this is a forum to help you release all that pent up anger from school!

In this forum, please do not reply to the messages left. This is for people just to vent. Do not expect sympathy or ridicule. And do not give it.

Noo, I find it all on Deviantart of Photobucket. I'm not that talented (I wish I was, though).

So I'm in the VERY tail end of my senior year as a high school student- we're talking, I can count on one hand how many days I have left, right?
and I get called up to the office and told unless I hitch up my grade in math, I'm not graduating- you THINK this would have come a bit sooner, but NO.
So I, naturally, freak the ******** out and go see the teacher; who says 'sure, we can work on this' and commences loading me with work to my eyeballs, whick she doesn't even give me half credits on. So now it's down to three days, and I still don't know if I'm graduating or not. the stress is building and I'm having an almost constant panic attack, only punctuated by a few moments of peace when I'm on my sleep meds and drifting off.
So right now, I'm an insomniac, even though I'm poppin' twice the reccomended dose on my meds, I constantly feel like either breaking down into tears and/or killing myself to get it over with, and my heart rate won't kick it down a notch for the life of me.
All in all, I find out if I am able to graduate tomorrow;
and I don't know what I'm going to do.
Because my mother's riding on this,
and my father- who is generally unsupportive of me- is actually being kind and believes I can make it, which is actually sort of comforting, even if half the time it feels like another added weight of expectations on my shoulders.

Well, everybody; after threatening legal ramifications, I graduated two days ago. sweatdrop

Alright, I don't care if anyone checks this place anymore, but I really need to get this out of my system because it is EATING ME ALIVE.

My life has officially taken a turn for the 'ugh'.

Ever since I started my senior year, life has been an inchworm, and there are thousands of people on the ground shouting at the inchworm while it inches. Every where I turn, life slaps me in the face, and I can't escape it.

First. Driving. I can't do it. I don't even have my temps. I am 17 and I have no means of transportation. And apparently that makes me a pathetic laughing stock.

Driving TERRIFIES ME. It scares me witless. I want to wait till I'm 18 to get my temps and licensee because then there's no stupid classes where they scare you more than you need to be scared. I'm already petrified, don't show me feet in buckets, you will keep me off the roads FOREVER.

Lots of people I know wait till they're 18 to drive. So why am I pathetic and a loser for not knowing?

Let's move on to college. I have no clue what I'm doing with this. I know I'm not good enough to get into any colleges that require a certain GPA or an essay or something like that. Not only am I not good enough, but I don't have the money, and the idea of my getting a scholarship is laughable. And please don't post in here saying things like "don't put yourself down, you'll find a way!" because frankly that's not true. I know that, and I've accepted that. I just can't stand every single person I know coming up to me and asking "Where are you going to college?" Cause all I can say is "I don't know, probably community college." Which there is NOTHING wrong with. I know tones of people who go to community college.

But whenever I do, people always say one of two things: "Oh... Uh... okay." Or variations of "Not good enough for regular college eh?" THANK YOU FOR REMINDING ME OF HOW MUCH MY GRADES SUCK. I'm not an academic person. I'm just not.

There are also questions like "What do you want to do with your life? What do you see yourself doing in ten years? What do you want to be when you grow up?"

Dude. The future for me is the next five minutes. I can't plan my life. I just CAN'T. And my worth isn't dependent on what I do with my life. I'm worthy of respect and dignity all the same, aren't I? So what if I don't have every day of my life to the day I die planned out.

And the SAT and the ACT. Oh dear god shoot me now. I'm not taking them, I'm simply not going to take them. Every time I say that, I am attacked. "YOU NEED TO TAKE THEM! The heavens will rain unholy wrath upon your head if you do not take them!"

If I get my grades up enough in Community college, I won't need to take those, so it would just be a waste of my money. Also, my dad said to me "I don't want to pay for you to fail."

Your encouragement is tangible dad. Thanks.

I'm sick of my worth being measured by how successful I am. Don't I deserve respect and dignity and worth just for being a human being? Just because I'm here, and I exist?

I know they say respect is earned, but I don't think that should be true. Cause it hurts every time. Like someone is saying. "You're not worth anything until you've done something to earn respect. Till then you are nothing more than dirt for me to tread on."

I try to respect everyone for being a human being. That's not to say I like them, or want to hang out with them... but we share life. Isn't that enough?

I don't want to be worth less because I haven't accomplished as much. Sure, people should be praised for their accomplishments. Just don't treat me like I don't deserve the air because I haven't.

I'm a ******** horrible student. I've missed so many classes this semester and I'm only taking two courses. I do work full time, but still, that's not that great of an excuse. I'm just a lazy ********, basically.

I have to put minor finishing touches on two projects, and complete two other for my radio production class before the end of the week if I want to pass. Which I should of had done so many weeks ago, it's ridiculous. I always procrastinate, but then I actually get stuff done before it's due. I don't know why I just left all this s**t go to the last week. : /

I really don't want to do this second project either, because it involves interviewing people for sound bites, and the idea of having to randomly interview strangers is fairly awkward to me cuz I'm super shy and stuffs.

Also: Yeah ******** driving. I'm a horrible driver yet, and I've had my license for years. I hate driving on highways. It's scary. Merging is scaaarrry. >: d