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Hey guys,
Im Drew,
I'm 16 and write alot of poetry,
It's my way of dealing with anything that brings me down in life,
Heres one of my peices,
I hope you guys like it
And if you don't,
Thanks for taking the time to read it anyways,
It means alot to me

Oblivion

I no longer know how to word
these feelings and all this hurt
i gave you my everything, my trust you betrayed it
you had to go and make it all so complicated

and now i'm like you
not knowing what it is i want
is it you? that i love
or could it be a wishful thought?

you'd have thought i'd learned by now
how not to believe in lying vows
but still i put myself thought so much pain
because i feel that love is mine again

look where i've gotten
nowhere, stuck at the beginning, broken, rotten
getting only worse and worse
the pain goes deeper to wear it hurts the most

i look at your picture, and i remember
you're so beautiful, that time in decemeber
our first weekend together
you loved me so much, needed me, i thought forever

i hoped forever
i wanted forever
i needed forever
what a crazy endeavour

no time at all brought forth so much emotion
i swear that you must have used some sort of love potion
i have not a clue how, but i was and am under your spell
a secret type of magic, from heaven or from hell?

i'm at wits end trying to pry you from my head
so little thought to get you in, so much effort to get you out
but is that what i really desire?
is it for the best? what i require?

you were perfect... are, according to me
mistakes and flaws so stunning to see
and now i can't see anything through my tears
you've become all my most paranoid fears

and your warm demeanor i cant even hold
cant do those things that you once told
i think of you and my thoughts get choked
all those wonderful things that you once spoke

now weak and fragile i weep broken
alas, its all my fault for my heart was not stolen
i gave it away willingly hoping only for the same
instead i got a toy one that cause true pain

although not all pain, there were happy moments
among the rest, just hard to recall when your heart lays open
i dont want to let go but i feel that i must
i want to have hope, when what i need is trust

you cannot possibly care, right? oh how i wished you did
but why even fight? you want me rid, so do it tonight
so the pieces i'll sweep and pick up carefully
mending my broken heart delicately, beautifully

only to let it shatter again in your grasp
do you still love me? why do i even bother to ask?
because within this concealed mind of mine
lives a love so strong it lives through all time

but as for now it must be locked away
for good? i cannot possibly say
but i'll keep it there, praying for that day
for when those lovely words you'll say
and this time you'll mean
when you believe in the glory of your dreams

The End...perhaps