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Jayce: I try hard to concentrate as I write these words. Within all these distractions I try to push that aside for just a brief moment of peace to organize my thoughts. I admit that it is rather difficult as the day always keeps me so busy, busy from thoughts of you. But if I am to end this pain, this. . nightmare. I must face it on my own and defeat it. only then it is that I will find peace and heal. It has been so long since we were so much in love yet I find that it is nearly impossible to erase you. You were the cause of my demise and the love that I once had for you is now overshadowed by my hatred. I have never been as so betrayed as when I was with you.
Even in death, you won't leave me be.

Red: Over and over again I try so hard to talk to her and she never wants to hear it. It isn't in me to give up, not after everything that I have gone through just to be with her. We never promised each other a rose garden but I did promise her forever. When two people finally recognize that they are meant to be together, how can you just walk away from that? She just keeps pushing me away and I just keep . . waiting in a way. Will she ever come around? will the women that I most loved. . .still love and cherish ever let me back in? I feel like I am just waiting by a door and she is the only one with the key. Its raining all the time in my head and that door never seems to ever open. Does this make me stupid? but I never wanted anyone else and I still have hope that we can return to that place where we were both so incredibly happy.