August 26th, 2008
How long has it been since I've written in this? A month? Can't really blame me thought, I've been busy. Since my last entry, my relationship with Syd has deepened. We are not treading on the shaky ground of love. But with every passing day the ground gets more stable. I love him, more than I ever thought I could love anyone. He makes the darkness with me standable, maybe because he accepts it as a part of me?
He took me out on a date a bit ago, my first date. Syd was my first for a lot of things, but I won't get into that. Anyways, the date was nice. We watched the sun set, then played and kissed in the rain. He also gave me a flower, another first. It was so small and pretty...I feel guilty that it got crushed in my pocket during one of our make out sessions. To escape the rain we went back to my place. Syd ended up staying the night, and well the rest can be left to the imagination.
A thing of interest that has popped up is this strange girl that hangs around Syd. I'm not sure what she is, though I have been trying to figure it out. I couldn't see her before, then one day I just could. Maybe she's a ghost of some form? Doesn't really matter I guess, I only want to know to sate my own curiousity.
I don't think I like her. The first day I saw her she was hitting and kicking Syd. And lately it seems that whenever I see her she does something to upset Syd. I can't see what it is she does, but I know she's doing something. She makes me want to bite off the heads of small animals...
