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I think you should go see his family. 3nodding I know you're nervous, but once you meet them and get it over with, I bet you'll relax a bit. They probably know you're nervous too, because it's normal. Would it help if your husband talked to his family and told them to be a little extra accomadating when you guys go to visit because you're a little nervous about meeting them?

Do you know where your grandma is? Can you contact her without your mom knowing? You're old enough to make your own decisions now, and if you want to get back in touch with her, then I think you should. If your mom thinks she's a narcissist, that's her own choice and her own problem. It's not fair that she insist you keep your grandma out your life.

Some counselling or therapy for your social anxiety and avoidance of other people might be a really good thing. smile One of my closest friend has anxiety problems and bad panic attacks, and with the help of therapy, she was able to go off her anti-anxiety medication for a period of time, and I believe she's off her anti-depressants completely now.

Maybe working out at home would be a good start, until you felt more comfortable with your body image, and then you could go to the gym once you have the confidence. Or you could go when there's less people, like closer to the end of their hours. Or maybe you could take a friend/your husband with you to the gym.

For work, once you've found a solution that allows either your husband to take care of your daughter/childcare that would cover her while you're working... maybe a job from home? Or a job with a friend or someone you know? What kinds of things do you like doing? It helps if you have a job that you like.

I just went back to work for the first time in 7 months, and found a job in a liquor store. I was nervous about trying something I haven't done before, but I knew I'd just need be trained on cash and everything else would be ok once someone showed me how to do it. ninja So I know the feeling of being nervous about work. I started cash this morning at my first ever shift, and I was so nervous my hands were shaking.

And just so you know, and so you can hear at least one person say it, you're not at a nut case at all. heart I have a couple of things in common with your post, so you're not the only one out there like that. It's just a matter of working to put your fears and worries aside, and working hard to overcome them.