Well mid march my boyfriend of six years broke it off with me because we had a huge fight that lasted two weeks. Our fight got nowhere because we firmly stood on our beliefs. He broke it off saying we were getting nowhere and if i don't forgive some dead girl that was really important to him than we are over. I told him I couldn't forgive her because even though she's dead, she was still a b***h and it doesn't change a thing. That girl betrayed me when i was once her friend. He still remained friends with her and went to meet her best friend. That bothered me because I never believe for a second she was dead, she was the type that made up all sorts of lies. She could have just had her friends lie to him. He only knew her online. That's how we met before he came down to visit me. Her friend lives like six hours away so they met half way. It bothered me but i kept it to myself for a year thinking i could get past it than we he started talking about marriage and all. I felt like i needed to get this off my chest before I could move forward. Just let him know what was up cause it was eating me inside. He didn't take it very well. I told him I just wanted to tell him, i wasn't expecting anything in return. I wasn't going to ask him of anything. He wanted me to get rid of my stubborn attitude or we were over. I told him I was sorry but I can't change who I am and I can't forgive her because the fight was between the two of us. During those two weeks I felt my hand slowly getting numb. It was on and off sort of thing than it just stayed numb. Slowly my whole right side became numb well tingling. I got a rotator culf strain not long after and I feel this weird pressure on just one side of my head. When i stress or when someone upsets me i feel a striking pain in my head that hurts so bad I end up crying. I tried making things less stressful for me by telling him I will be his friend but I had to stop talking to him because he did nothing but give me the cold shoulder. So i went a month without talking to him for my own health and when i feel like i can talk to him. Everytime when i just see his name pop up my heart feels really weird and my head hurts so much when he talks to me. I don't like the pain I get in my head when I talk to him so i just say hi and leave. I really don't know how to cope with this whole thing. It's all new to me. I also have this other guy who likes me and knows about my whole situation but still wants to be with me but i decline him because right now, i don't feel stable enough for a relationship. I will also just end up hurting him with how I still feel at the moment. When does it stop hurting so much?