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I'm going to be helping my dad out this summer making cheese and tending the store. The first summer I have an actual job for the whole time. Hehe, I hope I get to meet people down there and everything, because once I graduate from where I am now, my parents are moving there. (Sorry for using there for everywhere because I'm super paranoid about giving out my location o.O) Plus, I'd like to have some friends down there so I can keep in touch with them during next year.

Yeah, as of Friday, I've had an absolute spasm of my "I hate it here and I can't wait until I graduate" fits. I mean, they aren't that bad, but still. I don't know...its really weird the mindset I've had since Friday, and it was one thing that triggered it, but I'd rather not talk about it. But pretty much, yeah, I'm kind of setting the break between me and my friends here, it'll be easier that way when I go for the summer and everything when I don't have that connection. I mean, the ones I'm setting up my barrier between aren't the best of friends either, or at least they aren't anymore. We've gone our separate ways, and that's that.

Yeah, like I said, its kind of weird, and that's really not all of it.

But anyways, what else with my summer =D Since summer is going to be so much more optimistic!

I wish I was going back to music camp, but I'm not. I'm still keeping in touch with my friends, and at this point, I think that's really good that I'm still really good friends with some of them.

I plan on really doing a lot with alto saxophone and bassoon over the summer. =D Yay Senior Woodwind Quintet next year (except possibly needing a freshmen because that's the only person who plays oboe, its the reason I'm learning bassoon so it'll be possible without replacing different instruments).

Um...learning physics so I don't have to deal with the physics teacher next year, I mean, I'll still have him as a teacher, but I figure the more I can teach myself, the better off I'll be.

Writing the college admission essays. Fun...fun...fun...

Um, preparing for 4 AP courses, with the summer work, oh joy of joys. (European History, Calculus, Biology, and English)

Much tennis! =O I'm going to be vicious next year. Lives might be lost at my hands...xD Probably not. I need to stop squeaking at the ball. xD

Yeah, I'm actually really glad I broke off from at least one (example how horrid my day was today due to her telling yet again how horrid I am...=P Ugh). But yeah, there's probably one good friend I'll always keep in touch with. I thought I'd always be friends with my one guy friend, but lately it just hasn't been good, so yeah, I've been close friends with this one girl since the first day I moved here, and I don't think that's going to change. I mean, if I get into Cornell, and she into Clarkson, we'll have competing hockey teams! =D

I hate soccer and love tennis. xD I'm vicious when it comes to badmiton, when makes everyone laugh because I'm actually really meek. But I almost took out a few people during our unit in P.E. xD

=O You do? Well...I know what you did last summer. >xD

You won't tell it because I already know it. =O I know everything you did last summer! >=D (Just kidding, hehe)

I just slam the birdie at people. xD I made people scream. hehe, its fun!

Well, 'he' is kind of different. I don't know. I'm thinking about calling him tonight to sort some stuff out. I think I just got a little hot headed, I mean, he's been there an awful lot this year. Hehe, I was the first girl to cry on his shoulder this year when I had a breakdown during musical. =O And I do like talking to him. I just want some closure on it all. Plus, this stress I think is what is keeping me sick right now. I had this girl all out tell me all these things I was doing wrong (which half didn't make sense. She yelled at me for not talking, then she yelled at me for verbally attacking her whenever she talked to me. How is that even possible?). See, I've gotten used to this because it happens periodically, but I've come down with something since pretty much friday. And I started shaking afterwards, and I couldn't eat any lunch, and I love food. =O I was afraid people would call me aneorexic because I wasn't eating anything, because people say I'm too skinny as it is (Me: "But I LOVE food! Dx")

So yeah. He could have changed, but he has a good heart and morality, so I doubt it. Any other guy I wouldn't doubt it for a second.

Anyways, he was one of the only ones who would do music stuff with me over the summer, when everyone else considered it stupid and everything. So, I really do miss my duet buddy and intend on getting him back, even if it means seduction. =O Did I say that? xD Probably kidding, since I kind of lack seductive ability of any sort. I'm quite pathetic. I did get a freshmen date at a dance, when I was brave and just wanted to practice asking someone to dance...well, he stalked me for three weeks, and then during musical, I'm almost positive he touched my butt on purpose. Dx Darn freshmen boys!

Seduction is the way to go if he's worth it. If he's really worth it, I'd be a bit more careful. x3 It's hard to find guys like that. I found one...and then we dated and everything was ruined. But he talked to me the other day! Over MSN...out of nowhere. Good signs? I think so.

I think he's one of those ones that's worth it. I mean, he was my first boyfriend, but that was middle school, you can't really count that since we never really held hands or anything. I did turn him down to homecoming dance because I found out he had a crush on me, and that was the biggest mistake I made. I mean, the more I thought about it, the only reason was I didn't want to ruin our friendship, and I actually made things awkward because I was pushing him completely away, and now I kind of realize that I think I could have liked him back. I'm going to call him up tonight, work things out, and then see if he'll go to prom with me (xD I know it seems a lot in one night, but I'll see if I can work out something...I'll figure it out, if its only the two of us we might just start talking about potter puppet pals or something the whole time and then I'll get ticked off because I accomplished nothing.)

But yeah, that sounds like good signs! I hope it works for you! I'm happy as long as I get my friend back (and out of the clutches of ultimate evil Dx< )

This summer I'll be preparing for Otakon, finding a small job, hanging out with my boyfriend/friends more, moving into a new apartment across the street from our current one (xD), going to Georgia and probably doing Summer Track & Field.
I'm looking forward to the summer a lot now. =D I'm hoping nothing will go wrong, and this will be a time of relief and no more stress. I need it. > w<