I'm feeling extremely evil, more diabolical than normal and I'm disgusted with myself. I let a single moment of bitterness spiral out of control and have seriously hurt someone who was previously close to me. I was concerned about them before, but this feeling is just sickening. I really am fed up with myself currently. Anyways, to let these feelings out of me, I just began typing, giving myself over to the pain and betrayal and all of my own anguish that I hadn't truly dealt with yet. It's all out now though, as soon as I'm done feeling sick with myself, I'm gonna feel a little better. Here goes;
How I Feel About Sadism
I watch you squirm,
I feel you sigh,
You watch the clouds
and wait to die.
I kiss your pain,
I lick your hate,
Your opium dreams
still dissipate.
I'm dying, I'm dying,
WHY WONT YOU DIE FASTER?!
Accept it, ACCEPT IT,
Anguish, your Master!
Take it down,
take it in!
Feel the dream,
let stress begin,
Fight the bad fight,
and rape the sweet dreams,
your tongue claims to be
much more than it seems.
scream, Scream,
SCREAM and lay down.
Lay down your hands
and prepare to drown.
Beg me, BEG ME
plead for compassion.
Hate me, fight me,
I'll take your existence!
Heresy! HERESY!!
Give in to the flesh,
Fight for your madness,
tear through the mesh.
Struggle, Struggle,
aim for the top!
Never quit! Never stop!
Never give up!
Keep on going,
you're almost there,
it's so close,
can you see it?
don't stop or stare.
It's that close,
it's this close,
it's just before your eyes!
Too bad, too bad,
before your very eyes,
I've seen your face,
i've seen your trick,
fall back down
and meet your demise!
How I Feel About Sadism
I watch you squirm,
I feel you sigh,
You watch the clouds
and wait to die.
I kiss your pain,
I lick your hate,
Your opium dreams
still dissipate.
I'm dying, I'm dying,
WHY WONT YOU DIE FASTER?!
Accept it, ACCEPT IT,
Anguish, your Master!
Take it down,
take it in!
Feel the dream,
let stress begin,
Fight the bad fight,
and rape the sweet dreams,
your tongue claims to be
much more than it seems.
scream, Scream,
SCREAM and lay down.
Lay down your hands
and prepare to drown.
Beg me, BEG ME
plead for compassion.
Hate me, fight me,
I'll take your existence!
Heresy! HERESY!!
Give in to the flesh,
Fight for your madness,
tear through the mesh.
Struggle, Struggle,
aim for the top!
Never quit! Never stop!
Never give up!
Keep on going,
you're almost there,
it's so close,
can you see it?
don't stop or stare.
It's that close,
it's this close,
it's just before your eyes!
Too bad, too bad,
before your very eyes,
I've seen your face,
i've seen your trick,
fall back down
and meet your demise!
