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 Posted: Sat Mar 01, 2008 11:37 pm
well lila, im looking forward to your response the most ^.^
a couple of weeks ago i had found out a friend of mine had died, hit by a train. i cried alot of course. we went to highschool together
well, before that my aura sencing had dulled down to almost nothing, didnt have as much time for the paranormal anymore with all the other stuff thats been going on in my life, school, work, other deaths in the family. but after Nate died, well, all of a sudden im not only feeling auras like crazy, but im seeing things too, no, im not seeing nate, im seeing other spirits and shadow people everywhere and i keep on hearing my name get called. i cant even go into some rooms in my house because the auras will make me feel so weak. its been happening so much ive been getting sick. i feel like i used to when i was 5 all over again.
should i be happy about this? what do you guys think about it? what the heck should i do?
and i have found this shadow about the size of a large cat that "lives" in my room. i see it scamper acros the walls and cieling alot. should i be worried about it? dont know much about shadows.
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Posted: Tue Mar 04, 2008 6:49 pm
xd I'm glad my advice is sought here, and it made me chuckle before I read the rest of it.
I seriously think that you should take it easy for a while and talk to a councelor who accepts supernatural beliefs. They might be tricky to find, but they are out there, believe me.
I'm offering that suggestion first and foremost because regardless of what you're sensing, death of a close friend at such an age is very traumatic in and of itself. The grieving process brings up a lot of emotional issues from all aspects of your life. You may notice that things that didn't seem to bother you before now bother you deeply. It will make you reevaluate your life on many levels.
The only explanation that seems reasonable to me is that your psychological reaction to your friend's death caused a breakdown in your psychological shields or buffer zones for your ESP. These buffer zones are your method of establishing barriers and protecting yourself from being overstimulated or harmed in some way. It is like a relationship with another person: you establish barriers and expectations from each other. Establishing these barriers are a really good method for you to stay somewhat grounded in the importance of your life "in the world", as some would say. It is a coping mechanism as well.
Now that you are reevaluating your life, your psyche is somewhat fractured at the moment, leaving you with many different feelings. You may feel weak, wounded, emotionally drained, or any of the emotions experienced in the grieving process. In your case, it seems to me that your psyche is preoccupied in protecting itself from the trauma of grief, and a couple explanations can be given for this situation if it is really what is happening:
A) Your psyche is protecting itself from being wounded by grief and is protecting itself from the greater perceived threat (death and grief). It could be that it shut off your barriers, or that you are experiencing a sort of perhaps temporary mental illness as a coping mechanism for grief (I apologize if that is frank, but honesty is the best policy and I don't want to insult your intelligence or push a treatable condition out of the realm of possibility because that would potentially cause great harm to you),
B) Something might have happened when you were younger that is similar to this situation you're experiencing now, so your psyche is reverting to a familiar coping mechanism (whether what you perceive is real or not, it could still be a coping mechanism), and therefore shut off the psychological barriers you later learned to develop consciously or subconsciously,
C) You are in a liminal stage in your life and the realm of the supernatural (and spirits within it) are attracted to those who are in such stages and manipulated your psychological weakness to overcome the barriers you use to keep such things out of your life,
D) or it could be all of these, or something else that I cannot foresee for you.
I really do wish you would at least talk to a therapist who specializes in grief therapy. I don't remember how old you are, but make sure that if you are underage that the person you see answers to you and not your parents (it is a common tactic used by therapists to not tell the minor that they work to answer guardians' questions and provide therapy approved specifically by a guardian). You don't have to tell them anything you aren't comfortable with, but if you can't trust your therapist, you probably shouldn't see them anyway.
If you want, I know of many web resources for finding really good therapists.
As far as the shadow critter goes... I think that it possibly might have a less tenebrous, more coherent form than just a shadow. If it does not, then it is a simple thought form, not sufficient enough in any sort of energy to really effect you. If it does, then perhaps it chooses that form, or you choose to perceive it in that form.
For now, what you can do is establish "safe zones" in your home and effectively banish unwanted spiritual energy forms and spirits. First, try giving a peace offering at night and politely request that they leave. Usually, people clean the house from top to bottom, front to back, and sweep everything out the front door after such an exercise. It is pretty effective.
But I would double up with some wards, if this is at all possible.
When you feel comfortable and strong enough (perhaps you should find someone who can help you), "wash" away the troublesome energy and keep your house "clean" by use of a strong, will-worked ward backed up by the use of consecrated sea salt or consecrated water, and a strong protective and warding incense such as frankincense and myrrh, rose tree and sandalwood, or smudge with sweetgrass or white sage. I highly recommend white sage smudging, but if the scent is too much, the combination of frankincense and myrrh is really effective as well.
I would also recommend performing a sort of rite of mourning. Not only will it help you psychologically accept your friend's death, but it may clear up the overwhelming senses you have. Wear black, deep purple, or white as they are each traditional mourning colors.
Take long, hot baths with herbal infusions or bath oils and salts. I highly recommend lavender for many reasons regarding your situation. Use this time to really let go of your stress, and be sure to make your bathroom a safe zone for this purpose.
I also recommend finding something to do to occupy your time, to reduce your stress and help you manage your grief. It should be something physical, such as starting a garden (now is a good time to prepare your seedlings indoors), a craft hobby, or volunteer work. Anything that will help you accomplish the goal of feeling better about yourself and others and letting go of your stress. It should not cause more stress. I've felt that the worst control I've ever had over these things was always when I was extremely stressed out. Really listen to your body's needs and the pace of your subconscious mind.
Let me know how things turn out...
And I hate to sound cliche but you have my condolences. Let me know what of these work, and if you have any more questions, keep me in mind, okay?
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Posted: Wed Mar 12, 2008 7:59 pm
makes sence that my shields may be down.
i have begun to draw again. i havent in a year bwcause ive spent so much time at the hospital with my grandmother.
im also asking my father if i can see a therapist or something because im crying almost everynight.
for some reason though i dont feel like i need to make a safezone in my room (where the shadow is) whenever im in there alone it feels like someone is trying to make me happy, but its not anyone ive ever met. i dont recognize the aura, but im glad its there. kind of like a gaurdian angel or something if you will.
and i always have on black >.< well, ive been going with forest green recently, but ill go back to black
thanks for all the advice.
and about the shadow, it doesnt really do anything, its just there and will scamper around the room sometimes if i sit still. it seems skiddish
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Posted: Sat Jul 19, 2008 4:57 pm
huh. Something like this happened to me a number of years ago. I had a breakdown and saw spirits clearer. My parents though I was grieving and took me to a few Psychologists. I drove them all crazy. I wouldn't talk to one and then wouldn't shut up to the other. It was fun but I didn't let any of them inside my head.
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Posted: Mon Jul 21, 2008 8:34 am
I'm afraid I can't offer much advice on the supernatural aspects you're experiencing, but as someone who's suffered from severe depression for most of her life please please make sure that you see a counsellor/therapist that seems right for you. I saw one lady for about a month that actually made things worse for me sweatdrop Don't feel embarrased or ashamed about anything you want to say, these people are trained to listen!
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