so i did something last night that i'm not too proud of...I made out with this guy that i sort of like. I screwed up so bad. I'm losing one of my friends again. I know I screwed up. I don't regret it, but I feel bad for doing it. I'm still not over my old boyfriend[i refuse to call him my ex because to me I feel like I'm putting him down and crossing him out of my life and that's the last thing i want] I shouldn't like the guy i made out with because he smokes, drinks and does drugs and s**t. The drinking don't bother me--i used to drink all the time--but the other stuff does. His friend likes me too.
What's wrong with me?!?!?!?
What's wrong with me?!?!?!?

