Mon Poesias

[chuckee]

November, 2007

Take This, It's Your Fault

There was a time when I would do anything for you
And it got me in all kinds of trouble
I still don’t really know what for
But I do know you never did one single thing for me
And yet you still want to take from me
Know this though, I’ve grown
And now everything I do is only for me
I don’t need you or anyone to make me happy
I definitely don’t need you to be who I am
After all you’re not quite even a man
You’re still a boy who’s just afraid
Hiding behind a façade
And I know that using people makes you feel tough
But, you can’t use me anymore now
So go find some other girl who’s still starry-eyed
And weak to your charms in her naïveté
I can’t save anyone from you but I can protect myself
And if you think that this time you really want me
Get on your knees and beg like I did once
But be careful of your beaten dignity
It’s the first thing to leave with pride
And once they’re gone I’ll start teasing your emotions
Which, once confounded, will leave me clear
To shred your estranged heart to bits
Because people like you made me mean
And I’ve gone slightly insane from the pain you left
I’m actually only lucky that my heart was already gone
Even though I didn’t know it back then
Because it may not be here but at least it’s intact
You messed up in trying to use me
‘Cause it hurt a little bit, but I’m immune
And the fact that I lasted is intriguing
So you’re coming back because you need to see
Why I’m stronger than you, because you want it
But I think you’ll be less than pleased with the lesson
Curiosity is killer and I’m an angry queen
So it’s you turn for your own medicine.

 

[chuckee]

Early 2007?

Ars Amandi

If all my life
Passed me by
I wouldn't care
Because I've known you

If all my soul
Just slipped away
It wouldn't matter
Because I've had you

If all my spirit
Crumbled and broke
I wouldn't care
Because I've broken you

If all the other girls
Decided I'm a threat
It wouldn't matter
Because I've held you

If all the world
Crashed down on me
I wouldn't care
Because I was crushed by you

 

[chuckee]

October, 2004

To Be Your Friend

If I'm your friend
Laugh with me
Cry on my shoulder
Stand by me
Call me if you need me
Hug me and hit me
Trust me completely
Teach me and let me talk
Tell me all of your secrets
Wait with me
Follow me or miss me
Be jealous of me
Come looking for me
Laugh and joke with me
Be comfortable around me
Eat out of my refridgerator
Cook for me and eat my cooking
Accept me and love me
Know that I care
And you'll always be my friend
And I'll return all the favors
I'll climb mountains
I'll do anything to see you smile
I'll love you unconditionally
And I'll never let you go!

 

[chuckee]

October 2nd, 2007

I gave up when I met you
Knew that the dreams I’d had were over
I put myself in your hands
And watched you twist me
And now I don’t believe in the truth anymore
I’ve become an angry cynic
With serious intimacy issues
And I can’t remember when I laughed last
I miss being even moderately happy
I’m tired of always fighting
And I can’t remember how to forgive
I’m fading away…
Becoming darkness in a black hole
Watching myself dying inside
I know I should cut loose
Run while I still have time
Follow the advice I give to every girl I know
But you have chained me to you
And torment me with my weaknesses
And it’s breaking me down
I want to just sit and die or cry or scream
With you hiding behind every ray of light
I’m losing myself fast
Seeing beauty where there is none
And forgetting who I once was.
I can’t believe I once fought life to the death
And challenged my dreams to take shape
Because I’ve been so weakened
And I’m scared of it all by now.

 

[chuckee]

One of the more depressing butterfly poems...

November 7th, 2007

BUTTERY WOE

When fairies dance with butterflies
Strange things seem to happen
The two envy each other’s pretty wings
And the way the flap them

Neither likes the other’s kiss
And that might make them foes
And since they cannot hug each other
They can’t comfort the other’s woes

But how they love to dance together
In rays of golden sunlight
And often they forget the time
And dance long into the night

Ever turning bright life wrong
Now the poor fairy must cry
Because he hadn’t realized
That his dancing partner has to die

For fairies are eternal
And butterflies live but a day
So night will fall with sorrow
As one beauty fades away