Ok I was going to let this all go but then it was brought up agian so here...

Last week i screwed up big time because I thought I was loosing some of my best friends, so i acted like Kathy Bates in Misery/ crazy ex girlfriend. When My Best friends stopped speaking to me. I tried to find out what was up but he refused to speak with me and everyone else said he was going through.."Things."
So i just give him space by not calling him and ect...Well he moves out of the locker and blocks me on myspace/ deletes me off friendslist. (This isn't whats upsetting me at the moment it's back up story)

Well saturday comes around and he finally calls me to talk.

He yells at me telling me i ruined peoples lives by whining to them about him and trying to find whats up. ok yeah I was annoying granted, but he could have spoken with me instead of letting my imgaination go wild.
Anyway he tells me everyone i confinded in...TOLD HIM EVERYTHING! I said! And that they were too scared to say they didn't want me at the party. (There was a party the next day i wanted to go too and everyone else was going as well) And he says I don't know if I can still be there for you...blah blah blah...

I was distraut, the people I thought cared and gave me their cells to call them told him, They didn't want me too call. (Then don't give me the cell number?) That They didn't want to talk to me..(Then say that to me?) And more...so I don't go to the party.
Instead I have an amazing day goofing off with my mom and shopping. I was walking on air, untill at about 3:30 pm today I get an email from my "best friend" Yelling at me about how i constantly called people and wouldn't shut up about him since we last spoke. Then I apprently forwarded his messages to me and lied to people....

Ok I'm going to stress..the day after he called to yell at me...I WAS NOT HOME! I do not have a cell or a laptop. I was cut off from the world, and when i got home i watched animes and thats it. This morning still didn't call anyone. So I havn't had any conntact with anyone since i had a heart to heart with Ashleys (The girl hosting the party) awnsering machine telling her i wan't attending.
So I'm confused, I havn't done anything new to upset anyone since last friday yet people are newly pissed off at me about things I had no way of doing.

I stayed away from drama yet it followed me.

And here i was thinking everything last week was my fault that something was wrong with me. But maybye it's just that people wanted to see me keep doing those annoying things that when I disapear they have to make up stuff..I don't know!

But When i'm dealing with all this i have no friends to go too because the ones left are not involved in this at all. and the ones involved are the ones i went to for EVERYTHING! I don't know what i'm suppose to do.

How far do i have to run before these things stop following me. And when I don't do anything, am I still guilty of things?


Ug!