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I was going to go to bed, but something told me to check out the guild one more time. *smothers Grin-chan in hugs* Now I know why.

Excited about new school -> Dreams. They're oh so important, Grin-chan. Don't cast them aside just because some stupid people stomped on them. You had every right to be excited about getting a fresh start. That's why they're called fresh starts. It's very unfortunate that this one wasn't... quite as fresh as we would have hoped, but that's okay. There will be other starts from Grin-chan, you just have to give yourself the chance to be around to experience them.

Reality -> I'm sorry that this girl Kelly turned out to be a backstabber. That really really sucks. I didn't quite understand the PM you showed us, but I gather it was really bad. I think you should just break up with this guy if you haven't already. It's pretty clear that the two of you don't properly mesh on the relationship level, and if he wants to be with Kelly, fine. You're too good for him, anyway! There's someone wonderful waiting out there for you.

Trust -> Hoe, when I met my best friend, she had been betrayed a lot in the past and she had a lot of trust issues. It took me a good two or three years to chip my way passed her hardened exterior, before she could learn to trust me. She still has problems sometimes with thinking I'm going to leave her. The point I'm making is, you absolutely have to take chances on people. Grin-chan, humans weren't meant to be alone. We need love. It's just how we function. You have to take a chance on love and friendship sometimes, because you never know when it will turn out to be beautiful. If my best friend hadn't let me in, she probably [might have] would have killed herself over something very serious that happened a while ago. This time it didn't work out. Next time, it might.

Failing -> In all seriousness, and I do not tell you this to make you feel better, school is not the end of the world. Take it from someone who has failed courses before, both in high school and university. It sucks and it's disappointing and yeah it's not fun, but you know what? A couple of failed classes does not automatically mean you get no future. Everyone fails sometimes, because no one is perfect. If this is your time to fail, than that is okay. There is nothing wrong with that. While school is important, there is way too much stress placed on good grades. Those might be important, but a couple of bad grades won't kill you [if they did, I'd be dead].

Suicide -> Honey, please, please, please don't do that to yourself. I know that things seem really hard right now, but the old saying that nothing lasts forever actually has merit. I bet for the past month you've felt like you're falling into a big black hole, and no one cares, and now you've hit the bottom, and the top is so far away you just want to give up. Don't give up. You can make that climb. It's a lot closer than you think. The first step is reaching an arm up, which means realizing that as crappy as life can get, it can also get better. Once you realize that, you can start making it better. Did you know, also, that something like 99% of suicides regret trying to kill themselves once it's already too late? There are a million better ways to go besides wishing desperately that you could live.

Advice Wind-Up -> People can be stupid idiotic jerks, but we have to keep trying to find the special ones that make life worth living. Love is very important, school is not so important. Once you hit rock bottom, the only place to go is back up. You don't want to die while you're at rock bottom. You want to live, or you wouldn't have come to us for advice. Crying isn't a sign of weakness, because I cry all the time. Crying lets your emotions out and is therapeutic. You were not an idiot.

Coping -> Find someone you can talk to, whether it's IRL or online. Go for long walks or runs. Scream into a pillow or in an empty house. Play music so loud you can't stand it. Take a very long bath and give yourself a manicure and pedicure. Spoil yourself. Spend a lot of time doing something you absolutely love to do. Get a good night's sleep. Watch television shows or movies that are your favorites.

I have an exam tomorrow, so I can only pray that this advice makes some sense [exam burnout, such fun]. Also sorry if perky optimism wasn't what you wanted; I accidentally discovered the on switch when I was thirteen and I think I broke the off switch in the process. I hope Grin-chan feels much better. *hugs*