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So. There's this girl... and things are complicated. Allow me to start at the beginning.

She moved to my school two years ago. At first I didn't like her because she was dating my best friend, and I thought my best friend should be dating another girl (who turned out being a poor choice -_- I feel awful for it).

Anyway, after a month or two, they broke up, and that's around the time I found out that she's bi. We became friends, and we started to like each other. I wanted to be careful, though, because I had a bad break-up with my first girlfriend earlier that school year. She told me she liked me, and we decided to start hanging out more, take it slow, see where things go.

She invited me to her birthday party. I bought her flowers and a ticket to a battle of the bands that our friends were participating in. But she ended up cuddling with and kissing this other guy that showed up. Which confused me a great deal.

And then the next day, we went to the BotB.. but she ran off with another friend in a different band to get drunk. They ended up finding some random guy to give them tattoos... But anyway. We were going to leave around 8, right when our friends were done playing, but she didn't even get back to the venue 'til 11. It was a school night and everyone was really really pissed. We had called the cops, and I had to call her parents to tell them that she ran off and I didn't know where she was, which was so embarrassing. So when she showed up, I was really mad at her. And the next day, a good friend of mine was killed in a car accident, and I just decided life sucked, and I didn't want to be friends with someone who would just make it worse.

So, I didn't talk to her for over a year. But! Then I became friends with someone who was also a friend of hers, and he really wanted us to reconcile. I decided I would try it and see what happened, and it turned out that within that year, she really matured a lot and was a lot more responsible. And less into drugs/alcohol.

We started to hang out more. I told her I like her. She told me she likes me. We did nothing about it. And then I noticed she's anorexic.. I decided that I didn't want to be the person who had to drag her out of that because I don't do well with it, and it's not my problem. I mean, she's my friend and I care, but if she won't listen then I don't want to care enough to force her to stop. And all of that was well and fine... Until yesterday. She came to lunch holding hands with another girl. She told me today that they basically broke up last night because she didn't realize how much into drugs the girl was and she didn't like that...

But when she was holding hands with the girl, I think I was jealous.. Like, I wanted her to change her ways and not date anyone til then so she can date me... Which is selfish.. But, what should I do? Am I being to harsh? I don't know...

Mmmhm.^^