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All new poems mentioned in the title will be in red. Anyway,


Every Day-Song
You comfort me when I need it most
You open your arms when I won’t tell
I’m the one that you chose
Out of all those other Sara Belles

And I’ll be with you ‘til the end
When the stars fade from the sky
I’ll give my message an angel to send
To know that how I feel is never going to be good-bye

I’ll miss you every day
In every possible way
Even when I hear your name
Screaming to me from the heavens
I’ll miss you every day

I’ll see you in a while
I’ll not leave you behind
It might take some time
But it’s not the sourness of lemon and lime

I don’t know how
But you keep me from being sad
You keep me inside of you
You love me when I’ve been bad

I’ll miss you every day
In every possible way
Even when I hear your name
Screaming to me from the heavens
I’ll miss you every day

I know how I feel
I know you can tell
My love is like


When I’m screaming in pain
And writhing on the floor
And swearing at Satan
For ever opening that door

Especially to me
You come and open your arms
And I’ll feel so free
And I fall asleep ‘cause I’m so tired of this
Joyous laughter fills my head
When I’m with you
I can smell your scent in my bed
Because you love me, too

I’ll miss you every day
In every possible way
Even when I hear your name
Screaming to me from the heavens
I’ll miss you every day

Yeah, yeah, every day
Every day I’ll miss you, baby

Yeah, yeah, every day
I’ll be missing you

Yeah, yeah, yeah, every day
Every day
Every day
Every day



My December-Song
This is my December
This is my pain
This my December
This is my suffering

My December
This my pain
This is my December
This is my suffering

This is me
This is my December
This is my life
This is my December

My December
My December
December
And it’s all mine

This is mine
This is mine
This is mine
This is MINE

My December
I never really wanted it
But it’s my December
And it’s my torture

My December
My memories
My December
My feelings

This is mine
This is mine
This is my December
This is my DecemBER

I had everything
I gave it all away
Just for one thing
And it never really paid

This is my December
These are my thoughts
This is my December
This is my time

This is my lonely night
My time of death
My time of sorrow
My time to pray

My December
Yeah, my December
Oh it’s my December
Yeah yeah yeah

My December


I Need You, I Want You

I want your guidance
I want your thoughts
You’ve broken my silence
I’ve finally been taught

The world is clear now
I can suddenly see
I don’t know how
But you’ve made me, me

Everything makes sense
Again can I feel
You’ve relieved me of my density
You broke the seal

Finding myself will be my chore
But I’ll have you there to help
Sadness I will have no more
You’ve helped me for myself

I’ve been selfish and filled with greed
All those times, child
That I’ve said please
I must have lost track of time

I need you in my life
To feel your touch
I’ll make you mine
With each smile and nudge



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And here's another..


My Sweet, Sweet Guardian-Poem-Not edited yet

When I was four
I would get mad
And hit myself
Harder than any dad
Then you would come
And hold my hand
You'd give me your piece of candy
From our teacher
And you'd smile at me
Warming me inside
Then I'd smile back
And you'd kiss the bump I had made
On my head
You'd hug me and tell me I was cool
Then you'd bring me to the sandbox
We'd play all day
Until our parents got mad
Then we'd go to bed
Like good little kids

When I was seven
I'd get upset
And storm around the house
In a rampage
I'd knock things off the wall
And kick my pets
Then I'd fall to the floor
In a sobbing mess
You'd call me then
Somehow knowing I was in distress
You'd some over
And help me clean up
Then you'd make sure
That I wasn't hurt
You'd hold my hand
And we'd ask our parents
To take us to the store
You'd give me some of your allowance
For me to spend on that cute stuffed bunny
Then we'd go back to my house
And you'd spend the night
Making sure
That I was always alright

When I was nine
I went up into my attic
And found my daddy's shotgun
I'd pick the lock
On the his small safe
And I pulled out one shiny bullet
I started to cry
As I fixed the gun up
Then I took advantage of my long arms
And the nail on the wall
And as I readied myself
To be dead
You'd come up from my room
For you had spent the night
And you'd slap me silly
As you unloaded the gun
You'd pull out the nail
And straighten things up
Then go outside
And get the bikes
You helped me on one
As you got on the other
And you'd comfort me
As we road down my driveway
And onto the empty old street
Then we'd look at each other
And smile just slightly
And you made my small heart
Melt like butter

When I was eleven
I stole my dad's motorcycle
And I drove down the road
To the old abandoned shed
From when my neighbour was quite old
And I'd pull out some rope
And I'd grab an old bucket
And I'd tie a noose
And ready the bucket
I'd stand on the rusty old metal
And tie on the rope
Then I'd slip it around my neck
But there was just one more thing
I had to do
Before I was gone
I pulled out my whittling knife
And started to draw
I didn't pay attention
To what I was etching
All I did was think
And I found myself thinking
Only about you
When my hand slipped
I noticed the word
The word etched into my arm
Was you
I didn't notice it before
But I could have sworn
That right then
I was flying
Flying high into the sky
Carefree and giddy
And in my fantasy
The only thing I carried
Was a picture of you
And a lock of your hair
As I stood on that bucket
And realized what luck I had
I slipped the noose off
And slid down the tree
Then I pulled out my new cell phone
And dialed your number
You picked up at once
And came right over
You hugged me
And comforted me
As our tears collided
And then your eyes widened
As you saw my arm
You looked back at me
And smiled so much
I could have sworn
That this was what my fantasy
Was supposed to be

Just over a month ago
While in my thirteenth year
I once again
Started to hurt
Deep down inside
I knew something was wrong with me
But I didn't care
I just wanted to feel that one thing again
I needed to feel pain
The only thing real in my life was you
But you seemed so unreal to me
You seemed like an angel
Who couldn't truly like me
Deep down inside
So I once again
Pulled out that old knife
And I traced that old scar
From that one fateful night
Down at the shed
But this time I thought
That maybe I was wrong
But that thought disappeared
And I went deeper this time
You could almost see my bone
And I was feeling faint
I fell down again
In a sobbing heap
Minutes later
I was passed out
On my cold kitchen floor
You were starting to wonder
Why I hadn't called you yet
As I had promised earlier
And you started to worry
You came quickly over
On your bike
And threw the door open
Trying to find me
You looked in the kitchen
And immediately started to cry
You ran over to me
And checked my pulse
You called the ambulance
Who rushed over
And when I finally woke up
You were there by my side
You smiled
No
You grinned
Then you hugged me so tightly
I almost turned blue
And before I knew it
Your lips were on mine
And as I closed my eyes
I said your name one more time
And our tears
Had collided
For the last time

Now we are happy
We are together
We'll forever be each other's angel
And we'll never let the other
Forget that
I won't for sure
Because your name
Is etched into my skin
And my heart
Thank you
My dear guardian


She's a suicidal girl in love with a sweet-hearted guy, hooked on a dead-young boy, missing a good old friend, hating her ex-boyfriend, living the life that most people want, dealing with the stress that most people brush off, wishing for a new world, waiting for the right one, visiting her inner soul, discovering the real-life awesomeness


Thanks for reading.




Joy spreads through me when I see your SN pop up
Only distance will keep you away from me
See how much I love you
Envy my breaking heart when I hear you say you’re hurt
Pray for me when I’m dying
Hold me when I need you the most

Many times I’ll think about you
I’ll never forget you when you say I will
Chance is that I’ll never see you
Hope keeps us both alive
After a fight I cry so much
Excitement through the happy times
Love me like no other

Call me crazy when I call you my soulmate
Remember my love will never fade
Oh how time hurts me
Zest of life that you feel makes me smile
Better every day gets when I talk to you
You live within me and you’ll never leave my thoughts


This one's still a WIP::
Why does my life seem this long?
Is there maybe something blinding me?
I sing this every night yes I sing this song.
Sometimes I just want to be…
Myself.

There is no time for laughs.
There is nothing for me to believe.
I want to take a permanent nap.
Why oh why can’t I see?

Is there something to help me understand?
Maybe something is holding me back.
Is there someone there to hold my hand?
There is nothing that I lack…
Except peace.



This one's a WIP

There’s something wrong tonight
It’s getting to me
The horrid fright
Can’t I just be?
Is it impossible for me?

There’s something wrong
In the air
So I’ll sing this song
While ripping out my hair
Let my voice be heard through the nighttime air

There’s something wrong with my mind
I’m losing my senses
Something’s following behind
I feel myself getting tense
I’ve lost sight of my senses

When is there ever nothing left to lose


I feel the burning in my chest
Near my heart
It hurts
You aren’t here
To save me again
It’s so painful
I can’t stop the bleeding
The voices won’t shut up
What the ******** am I to do
When there’s nothing left to lose

It’s coming closer
I can tell
Something near me has fallen
Maybe it was just me
Help me find my willpower
When I can’t stand anything
Anymore
I can’t feel
What the ******** am I to do
When there’s nothing left to lose

The voices
They won’t stop
It’s ripping me apart from the inside out
You can’t help me now
I know that and I understand
There’s nothing you can do to help
Please, just leave me be
I know you don’t want to
What the ******** am I to do
When there’s nothing left to lose

I’m slitting my wrists
And popping pills like the world’s ending
Which it is
When the voices won’t stop
There’s nothing left to help me with
The medication isn’t working
It just won’t stop
Someone save me from this hell
What the ******** am I to do
When there’s nothing left to lose