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by: Micah Starr (Midoriiro Haru)
The careless pull of the current
Pulls me under and I sink deep.
The gentle flow of water around me,
Floods my lungs as I try to breathe.
I try to swim to the top,
The waves keep crashing down on me.
If I get out alive I'll be beaten,
Bruises will cover all of me.
The waves just won't let up,
This has happened before.
And as I start giving up,
The current pulls me to the shore.
As I lie there and catch my breath,
I think about what just went on.
And I see a pattern here,
And it's you who've always won.
It's you who's pulled me under,
And made me lose my breath.
It's you who crashed down on me,
Making me feel death.
It's you who pulled me once more,
And saved me too.
But it's also you who left me there,
Half-dead and badly bruised.
I wonder why it always turns out this way.
Why can't I beat you?
Some say I have because I survived,
But we both know that, that's not true.
Nothing can take it back,
And the bruises will fade away.
You'll always have one up on me,
Because the trauma will always stay.
No one can ever beat you,
And many have tried.
But I guess I should be grateful,
For I have survived.
Hello; Goodbye
by: Micah Starr (Midoriiro Haru)
An episode of Inuyasha inspired this one XD
I love it when I watch you laugh
Or I see your smile.
I adore being the cause,
It makes me happy in return.
I love you more than you could ever know.
I just needed to tell you.
And you said it back,
I can't speak or respond.
I think I could live off of your love forever.
It makes me happy and alive.
I just hope I can make you feel one day,
The way you made me feel tonight.
You've been my best friend for a while now.
You've been my confidant.
I wish one day I could lift you up if needed,
And be your rock.
Then you said, "Sorry,"
"I don't know what I was thinking,
I barely know you.
How could I ever adore you?"
Again, I'm speechless, ripping and tearing inside.
I'm mortified, I can't even cry.
How you could do this to me,
I'll never know.
Later you admit to saying I'm a burden,
Even after ruining other loves I could pursue.
Yes, I was a little nutty over you.
How, though, could you say such things?
You're so oblivious and rude.
You push and pull, confuse me.
You make sure you're in control.
But you don't care, you don't even care that I care.
You're an insensitive fool I never gave up on.
But I'm only human,
I can only withstand so much.
Goodbye.
Hello.
Goodbye.
Hello.
Hello.
Goodbye...
by: Micah Starr (Midoriiro Haru)
The careless pull of the current
Pulls me under and I sink deep.
The gentle flow of water around me,
Floods my lungs as I try to breathe.
I try to swim to the top,
The waves keep crashing down on me.
If I get out alive I'll be beaten,
Bruises will cover all of me.
The waves just won't let up,
This has happened before.
And as I start giving up,
The current pulls me to the shore.
As I lie there and catch my breath,
I think about what just went on.
And I see a pattern here,
And it's you who've always won.
It's you who's pulled me under,
And made me lose my breath.
It's you who crashed down on me,
Making me feel death.
It's you who pulled me once more,
And saved me too.
But it's also you who left me there,
Half-dead and badly bruised.
I wonder why it always turns out this way.
Why can't I beat you?
Some say I have because I survived,
But we both know that, that's not true.
Nothing can take it back,
And the bruises will fade away.
You'll always have one up on me,
Because the trauma will always stay.
No one can ever beat you,
And many have tried.
But I guess I should be grateful,
For I have survived.
Hello; Goodbye
by: Micah Starr (Midoriiro Haru)
An episode of Inuyasha inspired this one XD
I love it when I watch you laugh
Or I see your smile.
I adore being the cause,
It makes me happy in return.
I love you more than you could ever know.
I just needed to tell you.
And you said it back,
I can't speak or respond.
I think I could live off of your love forever.
It makes me happy and alive.
I just hope I can make you feel one day,
The way you made me feel tonight.
You've been my best friend for a while now.
You've been my confidant.
I wish one day I could lift you up if needed,
And be your rock.
Then you said, "Sorry,"
"I don't know what I was thinking,
I barely know you.
How could I ever adore you?"
Again, I'm speechless, ripping and tearing inside.
I'm mortified, I can't even cry.
How you could do this to me,
I'll never know.
Later you admit to saying I'm a burden,
Even after ruining other loves I could pursue.
Yes, I was a little nutty over you.
How, though, could you say such things?
You're so oblivious and rude.
You push and pull, confuse me.
You make sure you're in control.
But you don't care, you don't even care that I care.
You're an insensitive fool I never gave up on.
But I'm only human,
I can only withstand so much.
Goodbye.
Hello.
Goodbye.
Hello.
Hello.
Goodbye...
Half of Me
by: Micah Starr (Midoriiro Haru)
This one's me talking to my father who passed away a little over a year ago. Some cursing.
I never once took you for granted,
I think I loved everyone less.
I see you in my lips and hair,
And feel you in my chest.
I like to joke and be a b*tch,
It makes sense 'cause you were a pr*ck.
But I'd give anything to get you back.
Knowing you're not here makes me sick.
A couple of months ago, my worries were
About you getting clean and sober.
And wondering if you'd be out of jail in time
To walk me down the isle and see your first grandson or daughter.
When little ray died, I think I was too young to understand.
I'll love him and miss him but you were the only man
In my life and to be an influence.
You have no idea how you've affected me.
You're half of me.
The last two times you called (damn, I'll miss your voice),
You were crying and saying sorry for things I already forgave.
That's the way it always was with you, I guess.
Things were always too little; too late.
I always felt we'd have that chance one day,
To be happy and laugh and joke.
But that chance had already passed us by
We could never get that time back, even if I shoved all the pain away.
You and I, we had a lot of issues,
A lot of things left unsaid and a lot of things..
Well, they would've been better off that way.
Some things were hard to take.
You were half of me.
Sometimes I see you in a lot of things I do.
And sometimes I wonder if it's because of you that I am that way.
My dreams tell me I was so desperate for your love and affection, I'd do absolutely anything.
I guess I never got passed being in love with my daddy.
I guess actions speak louder than words,
'Cause I know you loved me...
I know you did.
But I never felt it.
Too many broken promises back when I believed them
And when I said all I wanted for my birthday or Christmas was you,
Those simple wishes were never granted.
You were half of me.
I guess now I'll know not to expect you for Christmas,
Or to ask you over for some birthday cake.
And now I won't have to live
Worrying about you making another mistake.
I'll never get to sing with you again
Or see that smirk you get on your face from your underbitten grin.
I'll never get to look into your sad blue eyes
Or hear you snore when you fall asleep on the phone.
And I'll never get to hear you say or sing, "Daddy's Home".
You were half of me daddy,
And you always will be.
Half of you is left in me.
And though part of me has gone with you,
And another part with Little Ray,
I'll go on and try to take it slow and get through this day by day.
I love you, farewell, and godspeed to you, dad.
I love you with all of me.
Frozen
by: Micah Starr (Midoriiro Haru)
My body's frozen
As I lay upon the floor.
My heart's like stone,
I can't feel anything at all.
Reaching out,
I look to the memories you stole.
Broken dreams, and shattered hopes,
And the foolish love you took.
It's hard to tell
When you look at me now,
As I'm stretched out on my grave.
But I won't let
My heart take
Off and leave me hurt again.
Too much strain on me,
I feel weak.
And I crawl back to the shore.
A foolish girl and
I am lonely now
My body shaking into stone.
My body's cold
As I lay upon the floor.
My life is draining.
I can't feel anything at all.
No memories to come; No more dreams to come true.
My love is gone,
I gave it all to you.
So leave me here
Like you do
And have so many times before.
No more tears.
No more lies.
No more anything else at all.
by: Micah Starr (Midoriiro Haru)
My body's frozen
As I lay upon the floor.
My heart's like stone,
I can't feel anything at all.
Reaching out,
I look to the memories you stole.
Broken dreams, and shattered hopes,
And the foolish love you took.
It's hard to tell
When you look at me now,
As I'm stretched out on my grave.
But I won't let
My heart take
Off and leave me hurt again.
Too much strain on me,
I feel weak.
And I crawl back to the shore.
A foolish girl and
I am lonely now
My body shaking into stone.
My body's cold
As I lay upon the floor.
My life is draining.
I can't feel anything at all.
No memories to come; No more dreams to come true.
My love is gone,
I gave it all to you.
So leave me here
Like you do
And have so many times before.
No more tears.
No more lies.
No more anything else at all.
