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Yeah, well, I understand. It's just the opposite problem for me. It's just so boring lately, I usually take up odd jobs or hobbies or something but lately nothing has come up. I pretty much spend weeks at a time just hanging out in this room. It's not bad, but there really isn't any point in waking up or anything. I get up, get on the internet for awhile, read a book or watch some anime, and sleep. Repeat until the next season.

The only reason I used to go out much would be because friends or my girlfriend would take me somewhere, I have no real desire to do much on my own. Even then, they used to come over and visit. But with everyone working, or having moved away I don't really see anyone anymore. And I stopped dating some time ago.

I can't complain about the free time or anything, obviously. I have it a lot better off than most, but I still wish something would come up. I feel really apathetic about life in general, and without some direction or work I pretty much just idle endlessly. I realize how damned boring I am on my own. It's pretty pathetic when you bore yourself to death. I feel so useless.

I like it, but I'll be damned if the downtime isn't ******** killer. I swear I haven't had anything to do since summer. It's really getting to me.

Like I said, normally I have something or another to do. It might not be anything great, but I do like to be kept at least somewhat busy. I'm one of those people who ends up working better under pressure. Having a break is nice and all, but when it goes on too long I get really depressed.

The only times I get out lately are if a friend calls me to come over for something or another, or if I see a movie. I guess shopping too, but I really don't do that often.

I guess I just like having a reason to do something. Or at the least, a reason to slack and not do something. When I'm on vacation I at least have an idea of what I want to do, so it doesn't bother me. Or normally I'll write or draw or something, but I guess without something to work with (or work against, like a routine) then I don't have it in me to do it. Inspiration isn't something that comes readily to me. I think I hate feeling aimless more than I do feeling exhausted.

Jeez, yeah, feeling like that halfway through sucks though. Working out a decent schedule between resting and the rest of your stuff is important.

Yeah, I'm terrible when it comes to that sort of stuff. I have to admit, it does make me pretty creative when coming up with ways to not do something though.

Yeah, I really do need some social interaction. I only see one of my friends when he invites me over to his apartment or to go do something when he isn't working once every few weeks, or this girl I know who wants me to hang out with her when she's bored. Which usually just ends up with us surfing the net together or watching tv. Not that I mind that. But I miss the luxury of sitting on a couch with my friends and just talking, or watching a movie or whatever. I'm one of those people who is content with doing nothing in good company.

Of course, the key words there are "good company". It's been a long time since I met anyone who held my interest for longer than a few minutes, or whom I could actually talk to and not feel awkward for one reason or another.

And yeah, absence makes the heart grow fonder I guess. It's one of those things where when you can't have something all the time it's special, but it really loses it's charm when you overindulge. I really want to enjoy the things I used to do again, I miss that feeling.

I hated it when those excuses were true. But I think I had the most fun looking for loopholes in assignments or things I needed to do. There is nothing more fun than being able to say, "Well, that wasn't in the description."

Gotta love those times. Sadly all my guy friends have girlfriends now. Well, except one who just broke up and blah blah drama. I stay out of it, I don't care, it's not my problem. I guess that it's lucky that the girl I hang out with isn't looking for a girlfriend right now, so at least I have someone to call on weekends.

Yeah, I can manage when I have to, but I really hate forcing myself to act that way. I usually have enough interesting stories to keep a conversation going, but I hate hearing myself retell them over and over. It seems like it's hard to just have a conversation with someone.

Well, I guess I don't really know anyone who dates either. It's weird, people just end up with girlfriends after awhile. I don't really get it myself. I stopped trying because toying with girls is fun for awhile, see how far you can push them. But toys get old after awhile, and I got tired of it. That kind of sucks though, you would think it wouldn't really be like that.

aw, i just left my job, and my gay-opposite-sex friend there (with whom i definitely did check out men) didn't even say goodbye on my last day. BFF!

hey, is this thread still for everyone's random thoughts, or is it a conversational type thread now? i feel as though i'm intruding.

Yeah, she's a lesbian. Which is nice, I like lesbians. It means I can have female company and we both end up checking out chicks together. It's quite convenient. Really though, she's just a good friend. Though I wish she knew more straight girls, it really annoys me when we go out and I know I can't hit on any of the girls.

I do like telling those stories, or listening to people who can tell them well. It's just that it feels stale once I've recounted the same ones over and over. Of course, I need to do more things to get new stories, and so on. Right now it just feels stagnant I guess.

Girls usually end up looking for something in me and approach me, not that I mind I guess. But then they only end up seeing that part of me, and it really frustrates me. It's usually "You're cute, I want you as a boyfriend and then we'll have sex and we'll do blah blah blah and you'll be blah blah...." and so on. Admittedly I'm kind of one dimensional a lot of the time, I play video games, watch anime, and kind of fall into that stereotypical role. I think whats worse than being pegged as one thing is being with someone who is one dimensional. I usually end up being the one to break up with them, just because I feel unsatisfied or I'm done doing whatever it was I had them around for. I try not to waste time when it comes to that, since it is a waste of both people's time.

And don't wouldn't worry PG, it just ends up being back and forth since not everyone is on at the same time, y'know? I've always seen it as being here for random thoughts that spark conversation, or a place to vent temporarily.

Eh, well, thats true. I meet a lot of people like that, and even this girl has her moments. But for the most part I avoid those kinds of people, because when you're character is "I'm gay" that really isn't saying much for you as a person.

Maybe it's something more than that, it's not as if looks are everything. I know that if I were looking for a guy, I wouldn't glance twice at me. I really can't see what it is people see in me, but I guess thats fine. I guess when you like someone you can overlook certain things, I know that when I actually like a girl, I tend not to notice her looks. She just ends up being different from people, thats all.

I think maybe thats what girls think about me, is that I have something deep and secret hidden. But I really, really don't. It bugs me because they look for things that just aren't there. "What are you thinking about?" (In my head: ...) "...hmm....nothing." "Nothing? Really?" "Yeah, really. I'm not thinking about anything." "But you're so quiet!" "...that would be because I'm not thinking about anything." "..." "..." "...are you sure?" "...I'm going to stab you. You know this, right? I'm going to kill you in your sleep." Just because I don't talk much doesn't necessarily make me deep and mysterious. It just makes me quiet. I do think a lot, but sometimes I'm just thinking of ferrets or kittens or whatever. Or sandwiches, or zombies or something. It's not necessarily profound by any means.

I go by the way that I'll answer any question asked, just as long as it's the right question. The problem is that no one asks anything, then assumes I'm hiding something.

I usually try to keep in mind that "It is better to be thought a fool, than to open your mouth and remove all doubt." I don't think most of the things I think of are all that interesting, or worth talking about in the current company. So I'll stay shut until I have something to say. I usually find myself in the company of people who share no common interests, so I kind of find it hard to talk about anything. And I don't really like speaking freely about what I think unless I feel comfortable with the person. I hate rambling incessantly about useless things, and I know I hate it when people barrage me with questions and information that I don't feel like answering. I'd hate to do the same.

Generally I guess I end up sort of glossing over casual conversation with people, going through the motions more than anything. "How are you?" "Fine, and you?" etc. I basically just rebound questions until they start talking, because I would usually rather listen to what others would have to say. At least until I have something of note to talk about. That and it makes it easier for me to understand people when they talk like that, it gives insight into how they think. I guess I feel more comfortable that way.

Certain people catch my eye for one reason or another, but there isn't much in common between them. It's just how they carry themselves, or if they stick out where they are. Even then, I like such a variety of different things I can't say I like or dislike anything specifically. Short hair, long hair; pale skin, dark skin; large breasts, small breasts; etc. As long as it works for the person I really don't go for anything specifically. I guess it just gives me a lot to choose from, as far as looks go. Too bad a lot of them don't have the personality or intellect to match.