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TansLamb: Oh shush! I know that *--* And, yeah, they can be kind of... bad... I hate it, I want to throw up

Shurikan: I don't feel bad, just disgusted. Makes me want to curl up and die.

Cory: Night! Good luck with those deposits! whee

lol not exactly something you'd say on the comp. But yeah, alot of people are like that, though some are a freakin miracle that they are still vergins. I know a chick who gabe alot of head in some school but she's a virgin. (yeah, i know what your thinking, how the hell is that possible XD))

Don't throw up! D;
Cuz then I will be forced to shoot one. >>

@Shurikan: I met a girl like that once. She wasn't a virgin after I was done with her. ;D

Eh, no, not really. Physically, I've never been assaulted or touched beyond what I've initiated but... For years, every three months or so I'd have these dreams... Thankfully, they stopped after I started dating Darke. Except for one time, anyway. But, they just feel so god-damn real. I swear I felt hot blood leak down the back of my throat once... Nothing happens but its the threat of it... that I know what he wants, and I so badly want to get away but can't... I'm sorry, you probably didn't want to know that...

@Tenshi: nope. just good at it. xD

@Froot: Its a pretty common fear among women. you just ahve to get past it and be able to figure out who are the emotionless assholes that date people only for sex, or rape people from the people that actually care about you, and want you for who you are instead of how you look. Thats pretty extreme though. If it bothers you that much you should talk to darke about it. Make sure he is who you think he is.

No, no. It isn't Darke. Sweet as he is, say caterpiller or worm and he cringes into a ball ^^'

No, the man he... sometimes he looks like my dad... sometimes just some man I've concocted in my head. I hate it so much. My skin crawls and there was I time I'd cry afterwards, curled up in a ball. I've sort of told Darke about it... not in so much detail though as to you guys. I wanted to tell him face to face but... I could only say so much...

EDIT: Yeah, the man, he wants to rape me. Sometimes he catches me... but the dreams stop there but... it's still too much.

jeez.....you know you seriously ought to tell him. I used to have a nightmare where I was running from this man who was a serial killer. No matter where I ran, he was standing right there, a mask on his face and a knife. No matter what I did, he was there. But over time the nightmare stopped but it was creepy. Then every now and then I'd get dreams where they feel so real......

but that sounds like you need to talk to darke about it or even see a doctor. That is very extreme to be just some dream. I'm serious you shouldn't have to keep going through this

Well, my real father, I'm only just getting to know because he left mum when she got pregnant with me but my current dad would never hurt me. We used to play wrestle and there were times - being a d**k that he is - would grab my chest as we were play wrestling and say "Boobies" real loud... I think that might have messed me up some. I never liked that. And mum would never help me no matter how loud I'd shout because dad and I would always play wrestle. But sometimes the man isn't my father at all... times I don't even see his face at all...

I have sort of told Darke. He knows I had bad dreams but I never went fully into it. I think I'd rather not tell him the full extent anyway. Mum doesn't know about the dreams either. Just you guys and my big bro. Like I said, I've only had the dream once since I started seeing Darke and it's nearly been a full year. I don't want to send my mother through a drama due to those stupid dreams...