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Picking Up Stars Vice Captain
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 Posted: Sun Dec 10, 2006 7:51 pm
She took a few deep breaths and slowly regained her composure from having all of her feelings and thoughts and emotions laid bare and ignored Malik for the time being. Defensiveness popped back up and she slapped a hand on the table. "I told you, Sevilin. It's not as easy as you and Piper seem to think. Sure you have nothing to worry about because after all you were on the receiving end, you were never on the doing. It's there, it's in my blood and unlike Malik over there," jerking her head towards him. "I'm still young and it's all fresh. I don't know anything else and I'm not going to have that happen to him because of my selfishness. I will not let him know what it's like to have a mother like I did." Before turning to glare at Malik. "And how do you know you won't Malik? How do you know that you won't turn around one day and do something that you can never take back? Little things can do it without you even realizing. A coarse word spoken here or a mixed gesture given there can be devastating to a child. What guarantee do you have? You tell me that and maybe then you might be able to convince me!"
Not really listening to an argument he assumed was between Zahara and Malik, Zykariel shook his head, "You can't make her leave now, Daddy!" His lower lip trembled and he crawled into his father's lap and looked up at him. "I don't want her to leave no more..." His eyes grew beseeching. "She could learn with your help Daddy...please?"
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Posted: Sun Dec 10, 2006 8:03 pm
Hm suddenly it seemed to be all about Zahara now didn't it? Indeed it did. Though he didn't mind too much he however was concerned for his son. And all these words being slung and raised voices weren't too much a pleasing thing to him right now to have his son hearing. But he glared and crossed his arms at her. "And did I forget to mention that it's always someone else's fault? Never yours. It's not your fault you can't be a mother because you stay away, it's your mothers. One of many examples that can be given."
But as Zahara turned her focus on Malik, he was met with puppy eyes from his son. And there it was....Sevilin was suddenly stuck between a rock and a hard place. His son beseeching him not to let Zahara go because she he though she was ready when Zahara was screaming no. Gee...thanks Malik. "She doesn't want to learn." Trying to keep it simple for the child. "Being ready and being ready to take the next step aren't the same thing Zykariel.
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Fractured Moonlight Captain
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Posted: Sun Dec 10, 2006 8:12 pm
"I remember. that's my guarentee. I know what my father did. I know how he acted, how he did what he did. and I keep myself away from that part. I hide parts of myself that need be hidden, and I do just what I feel is right to my son, not what I feel is 'justifiable'. And I have Piper to stay my hand when I am heading to places I shouldn't."
A small shake of his head.
"there are no true guarentees in life. if there were, Sevilin woudl be no runemage, you would be a dutiful daughter, and Piper would have married Kaden several centuries ago, and have both her ears whole. That's what our parents woudl have wanted, that's what they tried to make happen. Didn't work, did it. Treat your son in the smae manner you treat Nym, or your horses, or Sevilin. like a person, not a thing. like a child, not some investment of future breeding material."
A small smirk.
"and children are brutally honest. if you do something they don't like, they are more than ready to tell you and throw a tantrum if that doesn't get your attention."
And of course a little hardball.
"Or, would you prefer to serve Lloth again, by destroying a young childs chance at a real family so you don't have to be afriad? want him to grow up with abandonment issues, and be distrustful and hateful toward all women? after all, it is the mother that gives the biggest impression on a younger mind of hwo women are. as much as a male boy gets his ideas on how to be a man by his father."
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Posted: Sun Dec 10, 2006 8:32 pm
She surveyed the pen that had been built and nodded happily. "It looks really good." Turning around she found Malikhai with her eyes and then glanced over at Piper who was in conversation with one of the serfs. "Hey Malikhai! Let's play a game."
"I don't have that guarantee Malik. It's just not that simple." She shook her head and sighed. Why would no one leave this alone? They didn't understand. None of them did. Even Sevilin couldn't possibly grasp it and even though Malik said he did, he couldn't. "Those are animals. They are as fickle as drow and can hardly be compared to a living, breathing child. And Sevilin is not an innocent. He's seen far more ugly things than I can do." She shook her head. "You're right Malik, I do want. I want more than I could even begin to describe. And now thanks to your invasion of space, everyone in this room knows the daily struggle I endure. But that's not the point. The point is, it doesn't matter what I want, what I crave, and what I desire. I wanted to kill my mother, kill my sister, kill the b*****d who..." Her voice trailed off and then came back steady and full of conviction. "What matters is what is and what is I refuse to allow affect another life. I refuse to see my son, and he is mine just as much as he is Sevilin's, go through that. I know the truth. It may not make sense to you but you couldn't possibly begin to grasp the enormity of this whole thing. And any rune," she gestured to the ring in her palm. "Couldn't begin to cover it. Besides," she finished quickly. "He has Sevilin. He'll be fine."
"She didn't want to learn runes either and you taught her those!" He snapped accusingly. "Since when does it matter to you what she wants? You only wont' do it cause you don't want her around! All I was asking is for you to try, Daddy!" He hopped down and ran over to the door, yanking on it and huffing out a breath in frustration when it didn't budge and using his tunic to wipe his face. "I don't want to be in here anymore, Mr. Malik, please open the door for me."
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Picking Up Stars Vice Captain
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Posted: Sun Dec 10, 2006 8:37 pm
"That's the point, Zahara. it is that simple."
Walking over to the door, and looking down at Zykariel.
"I forced Zahara to learn runes. and Sevilin and her fought a great deal over it. and I'm going to help you with her too. give me five more minutes, alright? then you can go, and I won't bother you for the rest of the day and we'll get you a bowl of icecream."
then back to Zahara.
"Let me introduce you to something. Let me show you what I struggle with on a daily basis, and then, lets see if you think you can handle being a mother, when I deal with this as a father."
Drawing out Malvolence, and holding out hilt first.
"Go on...hold this for about five minutes."
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Posted: Sun Dec 10, 2006 8:42 pm
He was kicking a rock around as mommy was dicussing finalities and what not but then at his aunt's beckoning, he was quick to jump at the opportunity. "Okay! Guess what?!" Running over to her and giving her a little push and managed to snag her charm bracelet as well "You're it and out!" Thus pivoting on his little boot heel and taking off wth a giggle. Seemed it was a game of tag with an aspect of treasure recovery to it.
And Sevilin pinched the bridge of his nose. Great now he was the bad guy. "I have been trying Zykariel..." This is not what he needed and he was quickly becoming an unhappy camper. Thus a look to Malik. "Enough of this already, it's not helping." Before watching Malik take a hand at bribing his son into tolerating what was going on a bit longer. Though when he saw what Malik was planning with his sword, well that was license enough for him to walk over to his son, putting a hand on his shoulder and pulling him close to himself in protective manner.
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Fractured Moonlight Captain
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Picking Up Stars Vice Captain
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Posted: Sun Dec 10, 2006 8:57 pm
He got her before she could get him, clever little boy. "Hey! Malikhai! You're supposed to say it before you steal it you cheater!" But she took off after him and since she was bigger than he was it was only a bit of a chase before she brought him down and snatched her bracelet back then started to tickle him. "That's for cheating. Now you're it and out!" Thus yanking off his bandanna she let him up and ran off giggling.
Zahara was getting fed up with this and she gave a 'you've got to be kidding me' look to Malik. "I'll put this in simple terms for you Malik." Turning she moved closer to Sevilin and raised her hand slapping him full across the face rather hard but not nearly as hard as she would have had she been angrier or frustrated. Then turning once again she said quietly. "And I "love" him. Think of what I could do to Zykariel. You know it well Malik. Malikhai is screaming at the top of his lungs, throwing a fit because you won't give him more ice cream. You just want it to stop but nothing you say or do will quiet him. It would be so easy to walk over..." She reached for the little boy and pulled him out of Sevilin's hold. "Grasp him by the shoulders and shake the living daylights out of him or smack him so hard that he has a reason to cry or just shuts up." She got down to his eye level and raised her hand.
Zykariel didn't like the tone of voice she was using or the way she slapped his father. This was beginning to sound like that place Mr. Malik had told him about. And when she raised her hand again, he drew back and stared at her."
She lightly pet at his hair then turned him to face Malik. "And that's why I won't, Malik." Gently pushing Zykariel over to Sevilin before rolling her eyes. "But if you insist, I will do things your way and hold your sword." She wasn't stupid, she knew Malvolence was no ordinary sword and it wasn't without trepidation that she reached out and grasped the pommell.
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Posted: Sun Dec 10, 2006 9:07 pm
the second she grasped that pommel, the hilt bit her hand. and Malik let go and just watched the fun.
Of course Malvolence invaded Zahara's mind fast and furious. she may have known about it, but her mind wasn't prepared for it. images of power, bloodlust, death. slaughtering her child, sevilin, Malik, Piper..becoming a practial goddess, louging on a lavish throne with people bowing down to her. Riding her Nightmare through her old home and slaughtering every living thing. power coursed through her, stolen over centuries of bloodshed. her strength increased, her sight got sharper, her hearing. it was like becoming a new person..and all Malvolence wanted was blood. blood for power. anyone, everyone. blood in exchange for limitless power. magical energy coursing through the body, commanding it woudl be as easy as thought. and all you had to do was feed it. it's whispers, promises of glory, strength, power, love, adoration...all for blood.
"It'll get worse the longer you go without feeding it. It'll start to physically hurt in about an hour and a half."
Malik voice was rather casual about it, wasn't it.
"And your example was flawed. you know you wouldn't slap Sevilin for no reason at all. that was a baised example made sole to prove a point."
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Fractured Moonlight Captain
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Posted: Sun Dec 10, 2006 9:09 pm
He hit the ground with a little defeated noise before breaking out into giggles over being tickled as she worked the bracelet out of his hold and then stole his bandanna, clip and all sprinting off with that. "Hey! I need that or my hair gets in my eyes!" Getting himself up and taking off after her, thier little chase weaving through the stables and around the newly built pen, even between his mother and whom she was occupied with. Though of course he had a harder time catching her than she him, but he eventually managed to snatch the back of her surcoat, putting on the breaks as he tried to dig his heels in to stop her.
Well that got her attention and she gave a chuckle at the two at play as they ran around the underdark. At least it was safe around here. Malik really had fostered that...needless to say his child had quite the 'yard' to play in. But a turn back to what she was doing. "Make sure Arthur is taken care of." Thus walking away and plopping on a rock to sit and watch the children play.
Being wholly unsuspecting of it, his head snapped to the side with her slap and he blinked a little disoriented over what was happening at the moment.But it didn't take him but two seconds to move to intervene in what she was doing to his son, and easily taking hold of the child protectively as she pushed him back over. Great now she had upset the child as well. Right now he was wholly unsettled. Thus an arm around his son, he backed them both up till his back touched the wall. Space was good. Space was very very good right now. Especially since she was playing with things she was better leaving alone.
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Posted: Sun Dec 10, 2006 9:26 pm
She put up a good race though she did slow down a few times to let him get close and then he managed to catch a hold of her and she toppled, giggling. "It was the easiest thing to take, silly." She held up his bandanna from her spot on the ground but when he reached out to take it she pulled him down instead, still laughing and started to wrestle with him.
Hissing at the bite, she felt the blood begin to leave her body and then it began. She was wholly unprepared for it and it affected her. That sword knew those she hated, those she wanted dead and fed her the images she had often wanted to see not so long ago. She saw it all in her mind and slowly she turned to the two against the wall. There she was, laughing at her the whole time. She saw herself raise the sword, one quick swipe and it was over. Blood ran warm and thick over her hands, a testament to what she had done. A reminder. Carnage and death lay all around her and yet she felt the most absurd urge to laugh. She saw him again, personified in Sevilin and she stepped forward and brought up the sword urged on by its seductive whispers of finally conquering him. "Mine."
Zykariel was scared. He didn't like the look in her eyes when she'd raised her hand and he really didn't like the look in her eyes now. "Daddy..." He clung to hsi father's leg tightly and whimpered. "I wanna go home."
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Picking Up Stars Vice Captain
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Posted: Sun Dec 10, 2006 9:45 pm
Malik grabbed the blade, and jerked it out of Zahara's hand.
"Still think that you being a good mother is so impossible considering I'm a decent father dealing with that?"
sheathing the blade, and taking a look at Zykariel.
"that's why I can't teach you to speak in minds like I do..I have to have this sword to do it...and it has a price."
though a look at Sevilin, then over at Zahara.
"And since I promised Piper...I won't bring this up again. You know what you all feel. you know what you can become. I'll leave the rest of it up to you three to figure out."
Unlocking the door.
"you can come get that ice cream if you want, Zykariel."
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Posted: Sun Dec 10, 2006 9:53 pm
So now it had become a roll around on the ground thing. Hopefully they would't roll over anything too sharp and pointy, sticky, or something that would cause bad effects like itching and the like. Though he started to find his victory in untying the ribbon that was wound through her braid and one good tug got it all to come undone and he had a lavender ribbon in hand. "Ha!" Thus trying to wriggle away from her.
"Kids, please be a bit careful...it's all fun till someone rolls through some moss and ends up itching for three days." Giving a little chuckle at that and the image it brought to mind. Though she blinked, her attention diverting some slightly to the fortress as the particular slightly pulling feelings. She bit her lip, half wanting to get in mental touch with Malik but knew he probably wouldn't appreciate it. It was hard not wanting to comfort him or something of the sorts sometimes.
See, he knew this would be bad. Malik in the room or not. And for a moment as she looked at him in a particular fashion and said that particular word, his eyes narrowed and he just about went into defensive mode, when Malik took measures to make all the bad go away so to speak. And then left with the oh so sagely words.
Though Sevilin rarely cared about himself these days, he lived for his son and his son was all that mattered when it came to situations like this. A look down at the clinging child and Sevilin concluded that the child was in no mood for icecream, thus he scooped him up and held him comfortingly, turning a look to Malik. "I'll have your runes on your desk in a day or so." Thus turning on his boot heel, pulling the door open and walking out with his son in his hold.
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Fractured Moonlight Captain
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Picking Up Stars Vice Captain
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Posted: Sun Dec 10, 2006 10:03 pm
She rolled around with him for a bit and then shrieked as he pulled out her ribbon and her hair fell about her shoulders. Well tha was only fair. SHe had his bandanna and now he had her ribbon. She reached out lightly and snagged his ankle to keep him from going too far. "Do you give up?"
The moment the sword was gone she wanted it back and she struggled to keep a hold on it though Malik still got it away from her. But the overwhelming presence gone she stumbled and grasped the table to keep from falling before pushign back into a chair and dropping her head into her hands. That just proved her point, now didn't it? She couldn't be a mother, she wanted to kill.
Zykariel wanted to climb into Sevilin's tunic teh way Nym often did when he was frightened but he knew he wouldn't fit. He was not a happy child at all and he clung to his father in a death grip, trying really hard not to cry. He didn't want ice cream, he just wanted this day to go away with everything that had happened. What had happened anyway?
He'd thought she'd been ready and then she got that funny look in her eyes. The one that made his heart beat fast and every instinct told him to run. he dind't like that look and his Zara had never worn it before that he had seen. "Daddy! I wanna go home and I don't wanna ever come back and she can't come!" Thus burying his head in his father's shoulder.
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Posted: Sun Dec 10, 2006 10:18 pm
He looked at Zahara, and shook his head lightly.
"I see images like that every day. I hear those whispers every waking moment, wether I have the sword in hand, at my side, or not. The vampiric power, T'haen...is not you. he feeds on your darkest fears adn desires to make you want to feed him the blood he craves. and I know what it is to give in, and be Malvolence's servant, and not it's master."
He walked over, and took her wrists, and got her on her feet.
"Me and that blade are bound for the rest of my life. But it doesn't make me a monster, it doesn't make me give anything less to my son. We all have things inside we wish we didn't. But your son needs a mother. Piper can't be his mother the way he needs. You have to fufill that role for him. And this bought you some time to make yourself able..he's probably terrified of you right now. You can stay here, your old room is just as it was left."
He let her go and walked toward the exit to the room.
"you're soul is as giving and nuturing as Piper's, if you'll just let go of your fears. and that is something I know for a fact. I have the power to know it."
Before he left her to her thoughts, and went Sevilin.
"Stop a second, if you would please."
and once Sevilin stopped, he handed over a small booklet. the cover wasn't anytihng special to sevilin, but his son woudl know it well enough. the old skull and crossbones.
"I know your upset, Zykariel. but it's not Zahara's fault this time. it was mine. so I have a present for you, a journal of an old aquiantance. he was a pirate in his youth. thought you might like it, maybe give you and Malikhai some ideas. And I apologize to both of you for seeing her like that, it was too dangerous for your son..I didn't think it would get her so easily."
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Fractured Moonlight Captain
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Posted: Sun Dec 10, 2006 10:33 pm
"No!" Giving another giggle as he was brought down to the ground. "Mommy!" Of course any toddler would look to call in reinforcements as he squirmed all the more, trying to get out of her hold with her ribbon but also keep hold to his boot as well. He loved his boots.
Piper gave another chuckle. "Oh no, I don't think so son. You picked this battle, it's yours to have. If I helped it would be cheating and I know that you're not a cheater." She always knew that Lark would go easy on the child anyway.
He merely shushed the child in that soothing manner, rubbing at his back lightly. Oh no, Sevilin was not a happy parent. It wasn't going to be so simple as the child thought it could be...and that would be hell to explain. Though against his better judgement he did stop for Malik, turning to him slightly. Looking at the little book before taking it without much thought, and holding it out to his son since apparently it was for him.
But his eyes turned back to up Malik with a sigh. "I knew it would...after all, I know things of her that even you don't. And it wasn't me she wanted. That blade, I know what it does...and her greatest desire? Well it isn't me. Someone else whom she'd like nothing more than revenge on. I just happen to get the replacement slot. Plenty of red eyes in the Underdark after all." He shook his head lightly. "I perhaps appreciate what you're trying to do...but there is a point where you have to stop trying. I reached that point Malik and she doesn't want to try."
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