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 Posted: Sat Jun 05, 2010 10:11 pm
In The Kitchen
I find it impossible to love my family. I never will.
I can't forgive any of them.
I am embarrassed by them.
I've never lost anyone, but they've never been a true family to me. I can't find it in myself to love any of them. I've come close to losing family members, and I never cared.
The only one I can love, is my brother. I'm not even fully related to him, his father isn't my father. His father, he was awesome. He wasn't a part of the family.
I hate the others. All of them.
ALL my family talks about me behind my back. Every single one of them.
I've lost the entirety of my father's side. Racism keeps them away, and ever since I found out, I've distanced myself from them. For a year my dad's friend request has been sitting there. I haven't declined or accepted. I can't tell him off, he IS my father, but I barely know him. I hate my dad's mother. I don't know my dad's father. I hate his sisters. I hate his niece and nephews.
See, I can lie at least. I can pretend to like them, I can pretend to respect. They earn that from me, but that's all they get. Fraudulence. It's all they deserve.
At least you guys love your family, no matter what.
Little known fact about me. Neither my mother or my father wanted me and my brother. We passed between them every year or so. When I was nine we lived with my aunt for four years before moving back to my mom.
We were unwanted since birth. I deserve to hate my family.That is the saddest thing I have heard in a while. I hope that some day they will find it in their hearts to try to make amends, and I hope that you can find it in your heart to forgive them. You have to have some hope. I can't say I can feel your pain on that, because I don't think I could hate my father's side, though I definitely don't like most of them. I can give you my sympathy though, and my hope that some day, you will be ready to forgive them, even though they may not want forgiveness, or care. Maybe you will never be able to offer them respect, and you may still feel like they have dishonored you and themselves, but at least try to forgive them some day.
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Posted: Sat Jun 05, 2010 10:13 pm
J of The Wind Umuu... I... am an unconditional lover... Hell, I am pretty much capable of loving complete strangers. xd
I love J. :3
I love hopelessly optimistic people.
Even though I suck at childhood, I still believe in magic, and I always hope for the best.
>.>
<.<
I KNOW dragons were real. Easy enough why we can't find the remains. They had hollow bones, cause like, they flew, didn't they? It also explains why they had really strong hide; to protect the bones.
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Posted: Sat Jun 05, 2010 10:18 pm
Owwin In The Kitchen
I find it impossible to love my family. I never will.
I can't forgive any of them.
I am embarrassed by them.
I've never lost anyone, but they've never been a true family to me. I can't find it in myself to love any of them. I've come close to losing family members, and I never cared.
The only one I can love, is my brother. I'm not even fully related to him, his father isn't my father. His father, he was awesome. He wasn't a part of the family.
I hate the others. All of them.
ALL my family talks about me behind my back. Every single one of them.
I've lost the entirety of my father's side. Racism keeps them away, and ever since I found out, I've distanced myself from them. For a year my dad's friend request has been sitting there. I haven't declined or accepted. I can't tell him off, he IS my father, but I barely know him. I hate my dad's mother. I don't know my dad's father. I hate his sisters. I hate his niece and nephews.
See, I can lie at least. I can pretend to like them, I can pretend to respect. They earn that from me, but that's all they get. Fraudulence. It's all they deserve.
At least you guys love your family, no matter what.
Little known fact about me. Neither my mother or my father wanted me and my brother. We passed between them every year or so. When I was nine we lived with my aunt for four years before moving back to my mom.
We were unwanted since birth. I deserve to hate my family.That is the saddest thing I have heard in a while. I hope that some day they will find it in their hearts to try to make amends, and I hope that you can find it in your heart to forgive them. You have to have some hope. I can't say I can feel your pain on that, because I don't think I could hate my father's side, though I definitely don't like most of them. I can give you my sympathy though, and my hope that some day, you will be ready to forgive them, even though they may not want forgiveness, or care. Maybe you will never be able to offer them respect, and you may still feel like they have dishonored you and themselves, but at least try to forgive them some day.
Thanks Owwin.
I think I really do want to forgive them, but you're right; it'll be some day. They've done too much harm and I haven't even reached twenty.
I don't want to be depressing guys. Sorry. sweatdrop
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Posted: Sat Jun 05, 2010 10:19 pm
In The Kitchen J of The Wind Umuu... I... am an unconditional lover... Hell, I am pretty much capable of loving complete strangers. xd
I love J. :3
I love hopeless optimistic.
Even though I suck at childhood, I still believe in magic, and I always hope for the best.
>.>
<.<
I KNOW dragons were real. Easy enough why we can't find the remains. They had hollow bones, cause like, they flew, didn't they? It also explains why they had really strong hide; to protect the bones.I am a hopeless optimistic, arent I? xd Well I guess SOMEONE has to be cursed to see the bright side of other peoples lives... Just wish I could see i for my own more often... And dragons are extinct because they were with the dinosaurs.
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Posted: Sat Jun 05, 2010 10:21 pm
Owwin In The Kitchen
I find it impossible to love my family. I never will.
I can't forgive any of them.
I am embarrassed by them.
I've never lost anyone, but they've never been a true family to me. I can't find it in myself to love any of them. I've come close to losing family members, and I never cared.
The only one I can love, is my brother. I'm not even fully related to him, his father isn't my father. His father, he was awesome. He wasn't a part of the family.
I hate the others. All of them.
ALL my family talks about me behind my back. Every single one of them.
I've lost the entirety of my father's side. Racism keeps them away, and ever since I found out, I've distanced myself from them. For a year my dad's friend request has been sitting there. I haven't declined or accepted. I can't tell him off, he IS my father, but I barely know him. I hate my dad's mother. I don't know my dad's father. I hate his sisters. I hate his niece and nephews.
See, I can lie at least. I can pretend to like them, I can pretend to respect. They earn that from me, but that's all they get. Fraudulence. It's all they deserve.
At least you guys love your family, no matter what.
Little known fact about me. Neither my mother or my father wanted me and my brother. We passed between them every year or so. When I was nine we lived with my aunt for four years before moving back to my mom.
We were unwanted since birth. I deserve to hate my family.That is the saddest thing I have heard in a while. I hope that some day they will find it in their hearts to try to make amends, and I hope that you can find it in your heart to forgive them. You have to have some hope. I can't say I can feel your pain on that, because I don't think I could hate my father's side, though I definitely don't like most of them. I can give you my sympathy though, and my hope that some day, you will be ready to forgive them, even though they may not want forgiveness, or care. Maybe you will never be able to offer them respect, and you may still feel like they have dishonored you and themselves, but at least try to forgive them some day. ^ this Bottling up resentment will only hurt you in the end. Forgiving them, even if you don't ever say it outright to them, is best for your emotional well-being. The key to forgiveness is understanding. They didn't just wake up one day and decide to be racist, after all. They might have been brought up that way, or had a bad experience, or bad friends. My little brothers are turning out racist because of their stepfather's influence. ._.' It's pretty sad to see 12-year-olds making ****** jokes. It's pretty sick to see him laugh. But it's not their fault, it's not their choice. It's the influence, and I'm not about to let their circumstances get in the way of my love for them.
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Posted: Sat Jun 05, 2010 10:21 pm
In The Kitchen Thanks Owwin.
I think I really do want to forgive them, but you're right; it'll be some day. They've done too much harm and I haven't even reached twenty.
I don't want to be depressing guys. Sorry. sweatdrop I brought this on us. It was a bad idea for me to confide, per usual. I have a professional I can talk to about this stuff. I don't need to ruin your guy's day.
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Posted: Sat Jun 05, 2010 10:23 pm
J of The Wind In The Kitchen J of The Wind Umuu... I... am an unconditional lover... Hell, I am pretty much capable of loving complete strangers. xd
I love J. :3
I love hopeless optimistic.
Even though I suck at childhood, I still believe in magic, and I always hope for the best.
>.>
<.<
I KNOW dragons were real. Easy enough why we can't find the remains. They had hollow bones, cause like, they flew, didn't they? It also explains why they had really strong hide; to protect the bones.I am a hopeless optimistic, arent I? xd Well I guess SOMEONE has to be cursed to see the bright side of other peoples lives... Just wish I could see i for my own more often... And dragons are extinct because they were with the dinosaurs.
Yeah. You are. I barely know what your life is like, from what you've told me though, about your father, it's awesome that you continue to be up-beat. Even if it's on the internet.
Nuh-uh. They were around the Dark Age, I know it!
Or whatever that period of time was where we have like, zero records of it.
I mean, we got them from somewhere. Fairy tales can't be total bullshit and they have to have some thread of reality to them.
I really can't see why not dragons. I mean, going to the moon is more far-fetched than a giant flying lizard that breathes fire.
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Posted: Sat Jun 05, 2010 10:23 pm
Owwin In The Kitchen Thanks Owwin.
I think I really do want to forgive them, but you're right; it'll be some day. They've done too much harm and I haven't even reached twenty.
I don't want to be depressing guys. Sorry. sweatdrop I brought this on us. It was a bad idea for me to confide, per usual. I have a professional I can talk to about this stuff. I don't need to ruin your guy's day. I like these confiding-type conversations. There's some hardcore bonding going on up in here. 3nodding
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Posted: Sat Jun 05, 2010 10:25 pm
Owwin In The Kitchen Thanks Owwin.
I think I really do want to forgive them, but you're right; it'll be some day. They've done too much harm and I haven't even reached twenty.
I don't want to be depressing guys. Sorry. sweatdrop I brought this on us. It was a bad idea for me to confide, per usual. I have a professional I can talk to about this stuff. I don't need to ruin your guy's day. Owwin, its good to vent! Im actually glad you said something. Everybody has a different background with their families and such. Sometimes ya just gotta talk about it. You dont gotta withold from us! :3
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Posted: Sat Jun 05, 2010 10:25 pm
Hey I'm still alive. I wasn't concerned, I was mad that my mom made me come downstairs and wait then my laptop died and I had to wait another hour for another storm to hit and now its here and only a thunderstorm, not tornado.
But thanks for the concern.
And as far as the family issue goes love isn't unconditional. I have family that is ******** up like yours and I hate them. One of them is in the last stages of lung cancer and is about to die. I will not shed one tear over that man. He was worthless and lived a horrible life.
It may seem mean, but I can't give love or respect to people who don't even care about themselves
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Posted: Sat Jun 05, 2010 10:30 pm
Lady Psycho Sexy Owwin In The Kitchen
I find it impossible to love my family. I never will.
I can't forgive any of them.
I am embarrassed by them.
I've never lost anyone, but they've never been a true family to me. I can't find it in myself to love any of them. I've come close to losing family members, and I never cared.
The only one I can love, is my brother. I'm not even fully related to him, his father isn't my father. His father, he was awesome. He wasn't a part of the family.
I hate the others. All of them.
ALL my family talks about me behind my back. Every single one of them.
I've lost the entirety of my father's side. Racism keeps them away, and ever since I found out, I've distanced myself from them. For a year my dad's friend request has been sitting there. I haven't declined or accepted. I can't tell him off, he IS my father, but I barely know him. I hate my dad's mother. I don't know my dad's father. I hate his sisters. I hate his niece and nephews.
See, I can lie at least. I can pretend to like them, I can pretend to respect. They earn that from me, but that's all they get. Fraudulence. It's all they deserve.
At least you guys love your family, no matter what.
Little known fact about me. Neither my mother or my father wanted me and my brother. We passed between them every year or so. When I was nine we lived with my aunt for four years before moving back to my mom.
We were unwanted since birth. I deserve to hate my family.That is the saddest thing I have heard in a while. I hope that some day they will find it in their hearts to try to make amends, and I hope that you can find it in your heart to forgive them. You have to have some hope. I can't say I can feel your pain on that, because I don't think I could hate my father's side, though I definitely don't like most of them. I can give you my sympathy though, and my hope that some day, you will be ready to forgive them, even though they may not want forgiveness, or care. Maybe you will never be able to offer them respect, and you may still feel like they have dishonored you and themselves, but at least try to forgive them some day. ^ this Bottling up resentment will only hurt you in the end. Forgiving them, even if you don't ever say it outright to them, is best for your emotional well-being. The key to forgiveness is understanding. They didn't just wake up one day and decide to be racist, after all. They might have been brought up that way, or had a bad experience, or bad friends. My little brothers are turning out racist because of their stepfather's influence. ._.' It's pretty sad to see 12-year-olds making ****** jokes. It's pretty sick to see him laugh. But it's not their fault, it's not their choice. It's the influence, and I'm not about to let their circumstances get in the way of my love for them.
I ...
maybe not now, but in the future i can. i think.
owwin, you didn't mean to, but i'm glad you did. You need to talk to other's when something like this happens, even if you have someone for it, it's best to let friends know too.
Ugh, racist jokes are bad for me. I think it's because ethnicity isn't ever an issue for me, but I can't help but lol at any racist joke. Whether it's said in malice or humor.
I just find the stereotypes so funny. I know no one is ever like the jokes. I don't know... :/
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Posted: Sat Jun 05, 2010 10:33 pm
Screw it. Sleep now, worry and be depressed later.
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Posted: Sat Jun 05, 2010 10:40 pm
In The Kitchen
I'm going. redface My mom needs the netbook.
No point in editing. >.>XD Night Haru~
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