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 Posted: Mon May 07, 2007 5:34 pm
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Posted: Mon May 07, 2007 7:42 pm
rubbermuleaccount Sounds like things are improving for you too, BT. Yet again, so ******** surreal. We studied together for nearly four hours! I had the best time. I haven't spent this much time with her in forever... but damn... I wanted a kiss. REALLY badly. And I don't know whether or not I should strike up the thought of maybe we should get back together... since it's been only two weeks... but... if I wait maybe it'll be too long... or not... I don't know!!!!
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Posted: Mon May 07, 2007 8:13 pm
I GOT A GIRLFRIENDDDDDDDD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
Hayley asked me out today
mrgreen mrgreen mrgreen mrgreen mrgreen mrgreen mrgreen mrgreen mrgreen mrgreen mrgreen xd xd xd xd biggrin heart domokun blaugh blaugh
and i'm gettin a puppy
yellow lab
so cute!
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Posted: Tue May 08, 2007 3:44 am
Maybe wait a little longer, Tulip...
-sigh- It's been a while since I've talked with Lana. I'm really starting to miss her. I know how we were, I'll never get back, but I almost want to talk to her so she can yell at me, so I can forget about her again. But I'll just show I'm still dependent on her that way...
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Posted: Tue May 08, 2007 5:02 am
Waiting at this point means waiting until September..
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Posted: Tue May 08, 2007 4:04 pm
BT - Mer, I'd say give it longer than two weeks, too... believe me, I feel the exact same way (I got really sick RIGHT after we broke up, so my girlfr... -__- ex-girlfriend... has been all sympathetic and everything, she's been petting me, fussing over me and such; today she brought me coffee and brownies to school since I had an exam... she's so ******** adorable <3... she's supposed to spend the night this weekend - sleepover, if all goes as planned there will be five of us - but there's a good chance that a couple of them are going to cancel, and we keep joking that "Oh no, it might be bad if it's just us, we might break the rules..." (the rules of being broken up - you know, we might start kissing or something lol x.x).... and I want SO BADLY to just be like "GRRR WHY ARE WE EVEN PRETENDING WE WANT TO BE BROKEN UP LET'S GET BACK TOGETHER RIGHT NOW" but I'm trying to respect her and give her her space... heh.) But yeah, we decided officially that waiting a couple of months is best, and that's what everyone else keeps saying too... both of us are going to be gone this summer, we'll hardly see each other at all, so there's not much point in getting back together if we won't be able to act like it, anyway...
Sub - Hehe, congrats. biggrin
Moo - I'm a very dependent person too; I sympathize. -___- When - oh, what the hell, I'll go ahead and just use her name (I didn't want to use NAMES because this mule account is supposed to be a SECRET), it's Rachel. ANYWAY, so when Rachel and I broke up, I spent the whole day trying to convince myself that I shouldn't call her or pester her or try to talk to her; but I have such an attachment problem that it's like I NEED some kind of communication with her EVERY DAY.... *is a pansy sad *
Now anyone who knows me (in real life / on my main account) is going to know who I am and read all my embarrassing Life Issues posts. sad
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Posted: Tue May 08, 2007 4:29 pm
Ack.
I'm really sick of this
i know it's stupid to care but
I'm just... intimidated.
really... it's stupid but i am.
Like... the idea of people knowing about Hayley and I.
It's just... intimidating.
She's worth it... but i just hate bullshit and i hate all the crap i already have to go through.
I don't care if people don't like it... i just don't want either one of us getting hurt. It's frustrating to lose respect from your peers just because you're with a girl.
*cries* i'm so stupid!
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Posted: Tue May 08, 2007 5:22 pm
Well after the japanese final we spent some time chilling and talking. And I told her I missed her in a girlfriendly capacity. And she said she missed me too, funny seeing as we've spent more time together since we split than we did recently as a couple. But we've agreed more time is gonna be spent together working/studying/chilling next year. The summer is needed for head clearing, and two days before we part ways is never the time to start a relationship again. But we still feel strongly for each other so I think there's a good shot. Her whle face lit up when I invited her to watch Bones tomorrow night, and provided she gets essayage done she'll be there. *party* And I got a hug out of the deal. So all in all I'm a happy tulip.
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Posted: Tue May 08, 2007 5:42 pm
BT, your relationship seems to be going a lot like mine. xd
Sub... hrm, yeah, I definitely know how you feel; I was always absolutely paranoid about ANYONE knowing for fear that it would somehow get around to my mother, who would ship me off to a reform school somewhere stare . I only recently found out that... way more people knew than I thought they did. My little sister is really popular, and a lot of her friends found out just from hanging around her / me (she told some of them, some of them just noticed that something about my girlfriend and me wasn't quite right), and they all went and told their big siblings at other schools, many of whom actually know me or know my friends... it's incredible how fast things get around. If it makes you feel any better, I was also surprised that for the most part, no one cared. My friends have all been very supportive, and my peers/acquaintances just never mention it. Things could easily turn out just as positively for you. 3nodding
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Posted: Tue May 08, 2007 5:44 pm
rubbermuleaccount Moo - I'm a very dependent person too; I sympathize. -___- When - oh, what the hell, I'll go ahead and just use her name (I didn't want to use NAMES because this mule account is supposed to be a SECRET), it's Rachel. ANYWAY, so when Rachel and I broke up, I spent the whole day trying to convince myself that I shouldn't call her or pester her or try to talk to her; but I have such an attachment problem that it's like I NEED some kind of communication with her EVERY DAY.... *is a pansy sad * Now anyone who knows me (in real life / on my main account) is going to know who I am and read all my embarrassing Life Issues posts. sad You see, even Lana kept coming to me, after we were broken up, because she felt she was so used to talking to me... But it wasn't the same, the second we'd start talking, she'd start ranting about her amazing girlfriend, and I'd get upset, and she'd be like "WELL, IT'S NOT NEWS I LOVE HER MORE THAN ANYTHING, SO WHY DON'T YOU JUST ACCEPT IT?!" And it's just not fair for her to do that to me, whether I know it or not, it made me DIE inside to hear it. -sigh- And I'm dying slowly without her... Just knowing she's there, whether or not I'm on good terms with her, atleast if she yells at me, I can hate her and not give it a second thought... But the hate dies away, and I'm left missing her and wishing for any sort of communication.
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Posted: Tue May 08, 2007 5:58 pm
Moocat You see, even Lana kept coming to me, after we were broken up, because she felt she was so used to talking to me... But it wasn't the same, the second we'd start talking, she'd start ranting about her amazing girlfriend, and I'd get upset, and she'd be like "WELL, IT'S NOT NEWS I LOVE HER MORE THAN ANYTHING, SO WHY DON'T YOU JUST ACCEPT IT?!" And it's just not fair for her to do that to me, whether I know it or not, it made me DIE inside to hear it. -sigh- And I'm dying slowly without her... Just knowing she's there, whether or not I'm on good terms with her, atleast if she yells at me, I can hate her and not give it a second thought... But the hate dies away, and I'm left missing her and wishing for any sort of communication. I think that was a really bitchy thing for her to do. neutral She needs to ACCEPT that even though she's moved on, you haven't, and she needs to be more careful with your feelings than that. I really do know how you feel. -___- People say that if you completely separate yourself from that person, you'll get over her in time - but it's ridiculously hard to do, and the chances are high that though you can FORGET your feelings for someone, force them to the back of your mind, develop feelings for someone else... sometimes you can't completely KILL those other feelings, just stuff them away somewhere. neutral I have a friend irl who's going through sort of a similar situation... she just reminds herself constantly of all of the evil bitchy things her girlfriend did/said to her when they broke up to keep herself angry, whilst knowing deep down that she still loves her. x.x' It sucks a lot.
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Posted: Tue May 08, 2007 6:00 pm
rubbermuleaccount quote] I think that was a really bitchy thing for her to do. neutral She needs to ACCEPT that even though she's moved on, you haven't, and she needs to be more careful with your feelings than that. I really do know how you feel. -___- People say that if you completely separate yourself from that person, you'll get over her in time - but it's ridiculously hard to do, and the chances are high that though you can FORGET your feelings for someone, force them to the back of your mind, develop feelings for someone else... sometimes you can't completely KILL those other feelings, just stuff them away somewhere. neutral I have a friend irl who's going through sort of a similar situation... she just reminds herself constantly of all of the evil bitchy things her girlfriend did/said to her when they broke up to keep herself angry, whilst knowing deep down that she still loves her. x.x' It sucks a lot. -sigh- I know. I want to hate her, everytime I mention her, I add in "That b***h", even in the moment I'm talking about was happy... I want to hate her more than anything, but goddamnit, I promised her that no matter what, I'd love her. And it's a promise my heart will keep, even though it's completely foolish to do so. I just want to hate her more than anything, I want there to be no good memories, but all the bad times fade away in my mind and the good stays, which is strange for me because I'm so pessimistic...
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Posted: Tue May 08, 2007 6:19 pm
Moocat -sigh- I know. I want to hate her, everytime I mention her, I add in "That b***h", even in the moment I'm talking about was happy... I want to hate her more than anything, but goddamnit, I promised her that no matter what, I'd love her. And it's a promise my heart will keep, even though it's completely foolish to do so. I just want to hate her more than anything, I want there to be no good memories, but all the bad times fade away in my mind and the good stays, which is strange for me because I'm so pessimistic... You should really talk to my friend. Too bad she doesn't really have internet. I wonder how she would feel about me giving a complete stranger her phone number... lmao... kidding...
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Posted: Tue May 08, 2007 6:30 pm
rubbermuleaccount Moocat -sigh- I know. I want to hate her, everytime I mention her, I add in "That b***h", even in the moment I'm talking about was happy... I want to hate her more than anything, but goddamnit, I promised her that no matter what, I'd love her. And it's a promise my heart will keep, even though it's completely foolish to do so. I just want to hate her more than anything, I want there to be no good memories, but all the bad times fade away in my mind and the good stays, which is strange for me because I'm so pessimistic... You should really talk to my friend. Too bad she doesn't really have internet. I wonder how she would feel about me giving a complete stranger her phone number... lmao... kidding... Haha. -pout- I kinda wish Lana would call me, so she could get pissy at me and I can get angry. I hate not being able to get angry at her.
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Posted: Tue May 08, 2007 7:15 pm
I interupt to make an important announcement.  Eliza Dushku is sex on legs. That is all.
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