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 Posted: Thu May 03, 2007 4:23 am
AkureiKnight You know what? Im ******** tired of people saying that they love me and not ******** meaning it. Tired. If they like me / love me so much they would care just a bit about how I feel before they act. But no, they end up being self loving assholes just like everyone else. D; You're stupid I LOVE YOU, ONEE-SAN xD < 33333 ;-; Butreally, I do.
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Posted: Thu May 03, 2007 9:36 am
Today wasn't terrible... I sat closer to her in japanese... we had minimal amounts of talking and a little bit of smiling. I don't feel like I need to cry anymore... but I still love her and I want her to take me back. But maybe this is now a road where that will happen... we might be studying together for the final.
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Posted: Thu May 03, 2007 4:02 pm
lol..
Glad someone loves me.
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Posted: Thu May 03, 2007 4:31 pm
AkureiKnight lol.. Glad someone loves me. -cuddlecling- SEE. YOUR TRIFORCE OF WISDOM IS WORKING. YOU HAVE THE KNOWLEDGE THAT I LOVE YOUUUUUU. D: Moocat is sick. Again.
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Posted: Sat May 05, 2007 9:09 pm
I got to spend the last 2 days with my best friend and this girl who is absolutely amazing!!!!!
we've been thinking about dating smile i'm relaly excited. everything is kinda confusing but as long as i can be with her even just as a friend i don't care.
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Posted: Sat May 05, 2007 10:11 pm
Surreal day... I spent time studying with my ex... and just being around her was great and she wants to spend more time together... and it was nice... just being near her... I'm thinking in the fall I might try to start up the relationship again... I did... in passing mention the breakup and there was a moment of oddness... I guess cause it was only about two weeks ago... god I'm so confused.... I still care about her so much.
EDIT: Update
I had a weird dream that I got a note from her saying she didn't want to get back together and it nearly broke my heart. And then my horoscope said something about learning to let go of something good that had served it's purpose... and I'm just so scared and confused and I don't know what to do!
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Posted: Sun May 06, 2007 9:46 am
Well, everyone, BakaTulip......
My girlfriend and I broke up today.
I could just cry forever. I don't have much time left to be online anyway... so in fact, I think I will go cry now.
Say hello to depression for at least the next six ******** months of my life. Possibly forever. -__-
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Posted: Mon May 07, 2007 1:43 am
Wow. I don't like having the best dream of my life but feeling like it was completely real, and waking up to realize none of it was.
-sigh- That's horribly depressing.
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Posted: Mon May 07, 2007 3:22 am
I've been thinking about wanting a girlfriend alot lately and it's been making me angry and depressed.
I need to start exercising. Maybe then I can get a girlfriend. My arm fat probably scares them all away.
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Posted: Mon May 07, 2007 3:56 am
AkureiKnight I've been thinking about wanting a girlfriend alot lately and it's been making me angry and depressed. I need to start exercising. Maybe then I can get a girlfriend. My arm fat probably scares them all away. .__. I can't even find someone /to/ scare away.
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Posted: Mon May 07, 2007 6:03 am
To rubber: *HUG*
To Akurei: Don't worry about your body type. I know this is hypocritical because I dislike my body.... but think of it as having more to love...
And an update on my life: Eleanor just invited me to study again... maybe this is a good sign
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Posted: Mon May 07, 2007 11:21 am
Thanks BT, I try but sometimes that's hard to help.
Im like.. crying right now. I had a dream that my brother was being a really big a** and then when I get up their is this black man preaching like Martin Luther King. So I'm like wondering whats going on and the news people came back on, said something about a hate crime bill (that puts an end to it) and the chick said that Bush Vetoed it! Why would someone veto something that would protect us more from getting killed..?
I have no faith in this world right now. None at all.
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Posted: Mon May 07, 2007 12:29 pm
AkureiKnight Thanks BT, I try but sometimes that's hard to help. Im like.. crying right now. I had a dream that my brother was being a really big a** and then when I get up their is this black man preaching like Martin Luther King. So I'm like wondering whats going on and the news people came back on, said something about a hate crime bill (that puts an end to it) and the chick said that Bush Vetoed it! Why would someone veto something that would protect us more from getting killed..? I have no faith in this world right now. None at all. -snuggle- That's absurd, why the hell would he veto a bill like that? >< Does he think all people who aren't exactly like him /deserve/ to be killed and hurt?
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Posted: Mon May 07, 2007 2:59 pm
BT: Thanks. sad
I cried all day yesterday; I've actually got a cold because of the stress it put on my throat and nose, lol... ugh, today in chemistry, she walked in; one of my guy friends had volunteered to switch seats with her (forcefully, so that I wouldn't have to sit behind her if I thought it would be too painful)... so when she walked in, he was sitting in her desk; she whined and wanted her desk back, and I sighed and told him to just give it to her - she sat down in her desk; I went face down on top of all my books, just sort of lying there feeling dead; she patted me a little and I immediately just burst into muffled tears. I drove her home today so we could talk... she's basically said that she still likes me, but she doesn't need a relationship right now, she wants time to think, figure herself out, etc. etc. ... so however long that takes, we'll be broken up, but that she plans on getting back together eventually. And I'm pitiful enough to wait it out.
But I at least feel better knowing we're not going to be broken up FOREVER AND EVER AND EVER. x_____x
Sounds like things are improving for you too, BT.
Akurei and Moo: That would suck a lot. -__- I'm really not sure who I'm voting for, or if I'll vote at all... I like the republican idea of less government involvement in the economy and such, but there's NO WAY I'd want another republican in office at the same time; at the same time, the democrats' ideas aren't always 100% appealing to me... though if they decided to make gay marriage legal, I'd probably vote democrat in a heartbeat. xd
Stupid Bush. sad
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Posted: Mon May 07, 2007 5:15 pm
You know, it's bullshit that republicans say they are for small government cause they don't even practice that s**t.
Nope, cause all the ******** they do is preach on how putting up a hate crime bill would interfere with their stupid ******** religious beliefs. <******** them. And Im sorry if this offends anyone but Im very ******** pissed off right now. =_=
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