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No, we don't have the same workload because we're taking different classes. We have different majors. I'm a psych major, logic minor. She's a double major in english and philosophy.

I'm pretty sure it's the "Don't need a relationship right now".... I'm gonna try... see if doing work or studying together helps... It might take a while...but there is honestly no one else I want. No one tickles my fancy at all.

I mean... she's said... that she can't change her feelings...but I gotta try to make things better. For her sake and for mine. I just... there's so many good times. I don't want them to mean nothing.

-huggles- D: Feel better.

Oh god, I had such a horrible morning. One week since the breakup and I had class with Eleanor again. I couldn't even bring myself to sit near her, let alone look at her, and every time she spoke in class I would start to cry. I didn't get a chance to give her the books I told her I'd lend her for the summer.

So the next class I had with her roommate a mutual friend of ours and asked her if she could give her the books. Just as she was about to put them in her bag she paused and handed them back and suggested that I give them to her. "You guys are still friends" she said.

I can barely be in a room with her. I can't hear her voice without remembering her voice telling me that I was beautiful, or her voice saying that she thought we should break up. I can't see her smile without remembering just lying next to each other, doing nothing, and seeing her smile. I can't think about her without remembering all those amazing moments and knowing I'll never have any more. I can't be near her without feeling like I'm gonna die. How can I ever be friends with her when I feel like this? These aren't feelings that should be allowed in a friendship.

PMS is a culturally bound syndrome. We have it because we think about it. Men have hormone fluctuations as well.. they just don't bleed. Other cultures don't have PMS. Also it's proven that women with stronger emotional support have less PMS symptoms.

If you need a been there, done that, got the freaking t-shirt ear/shoulder, I'm almost always on AIM/Yahoo/MSN. *a tear slides down her cheek* I feel for ya, babe, I really do.

*rolls eyes* xd It's called 'teenager.'

As for PMS... I'm not sure about the 'syndrome,' but periods sure as HELL can make you grumpy. Mine was so horrible (heavy/irregular/PAINFUL) that for the first three days or so, all I could do was lay in the floor and cry because if I tried to walk I'd end up doubled over in pain. smile For the remaining FIVE OR SIX DAYS I just bled a lot. Like change-overnight-pads-every-two-hours a lot. And seriously, I'm no wimp with pain. *flexes manly horse-trainer arm muscles and shows off hoof-shaped bruises* xp

Now I'm on birth control (extremely ironic - my friends tease me about it because I'm 'the one person that wouldn't need it,' being a lesbian and all lol) and it's muuuucccccchhh better. <3

You know what? Im ******** tired of people saying that they love me and not ******** meaning it. Tired.

If they like me / love me so much they would care just a bit about how I feel before they act. But no, they end up being self loving assholes just like everyone else.