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"No, I don't think so. There aren't any relationships Nikolai liked enough to want to dream about. Especially for a coma. Unless..." Sloth drifted off, perking up. He looked over his shoulder to grin at Leon and grabbed his arm. He moved swiftly, maneuvering his way through the darkness until he could see it. Yes, this was the right memory.
It was a hallway. A familiar hallway.
It was the hallway of Black Rose's dorms.
One of the doors opened and out stepped Nikolai, his old grin on his face as he buttoned his shirt.

"I'll break up with her in the morning."

he thought to himself with a smug smirk. He paused when he heard noises down the hallway and looked over to see Leon talking to a student.

"My, my. How nostalgic." purred Sloth.

Nikolai grinned at old Leon stumbled over both his things and his words.

"What a shy, nervous man."

"Oh no, he remembered you quite well." Sloth said with a knowing grin.

"I hate him."

"But not for the reason you think."

As Nikolai teased and flirting with the blushing man, his thoughts went over what he really felt.

"He's so innocent and naive. I'll make him love me then rip his heart out right in front him. He'll hate everything like I do."

The scenes went by. From the moment Nikolai took Leon's virginity to when Ivan showed up from nowhere. It was an interesting thing to watch, seeing years old events compressed into minutes. Nikolai's dark thoughts and mental schemes about how he'd break Leon's hearts gradually lightened.

"I'm supposed to hate you. This shouldn't feel good."

"Look at the way you smile. It's so cute... to... to think of how it'll never show again when I'm done with you."

"You're just like him... and that's why I can't let you get any closer. I won't go through that again."

It was clear to Sloth that Nikolai was getting feelings for Leon as their time together progressed. It was obvious whether he heard the thoughts or not, anyway.
Then they got to that one dreadful scene. The log cabin in the snow burned as a stabbed Leon carried Nikolai out.

"E-everything will b-b-be okay...I pro-promise."
"Don't go, dearie... Don't go... Don't leave me!" Nikolai cried as he shakily held Leon's bloody hand against his cheek. His mind was in shambles.
"Please, not again! Not you too!"
"I can't do it. I can't go through this twice. Why couldn't it have been me! Why did you waste your life on me?! Don't make me feel this pain again. This is so much worse."
"Don't go, dearie!" Nikolai whimpered, desperate to keep Leon awake. This fire was sure to attract attention, wasn't it? Someone would help, they had to! "Y-You promised you wouldn't leave! Please don't leave me, Leon! I-I need you! I-I... I-"
"I love you.
I love you! Let me say it! Don't let him die not hearing it! I love you!! Please!"
But Nikolai couldn't say it. Whether it was fear of his own mortality or the inexperience from ever saying it, but he couldn't utter those words. And he watched helplessly as Leon passed away in his arms.
The Sin was still for a moment, as if expecting Leon to wake up and tell him that everything would be okay. But he didn't, and it wasn't. So Nikolai tilted his head back and let out a cry of agony. This pain was worse than everything he had felt in the past. He had thought that for a split second he might be able to move on and stop his facade with the world, but now it was ruthlessly ripped away from him. And by someone he had tricked into loving him. He wanted to be bitter, to laugh as though it were some joke, to curse all of Heaven for watching his misery like some comedy show. But he had no energy for that. He just wanted to sit here and mourn the man he had fallen in love with.

As Nikolai cried for what seemed like ages, a hand waved passed his head. "Hmm." Sloth pulled his hand up, flexing the fingers before giving Leon (the living one) a perplexed look. "I don't understand. I thought for sure he would be here."

"These are his happiest memories." Sloth said. "Falling in love with you and the likes. Unfortunately, if he remembers that then he has to remember your death, as well. But it's beginning to change." As he said that countless scenes passed behind him. All of them being the moments Nikolai and Leon shared together. Sloth turned to see what passed him. "Lately he dreams more about being with you. I suppose that explains why he sleeps more."
The scenes passed faster and faster until they were back in the darkness, only there was nothing waiting for them. They had just gone through all of Nikolai's memories and he wasn't in any of them. Where could he be?
As if answering him, something glimmered ways away from them. Sloth turned slowly to see what it was. It was a door. A simple, brown door. The Sin approached it with hesitation. He couldn't say he remembered this, but it wasn't like he paid attention to every door he'd ever encountered.
"Erm... Age before beauty, dearie." smiled Sloth as he stood aside for Leon to open the door first.

Darkness greeted them. It was as if they had opened a door just for the sake of opening a door. There were, however, two peculiar objects in the darkness. One was a full length, oval mirror with a mahogany frame. Across from it, just a few feet away, was a twin sized bed with a soft green blanket. It was like looking into a cozy inn room, but the walls and the floor were still pitch black and gave off the impression that the bed and the mirror were floating. Among those two, though, there was one more object that was even more interesting.
It was Nikolai. And at the same time it wasn't him. It was the man from the early memories, the one who had not yet been touched by the darkness of reality and hell. His hair was a soft brown and lacked their frilly curls, his lazy attired of a black suit had been replaced by a dark olive cardigan and faded jeans, and his glinting lime green eyes were once again tired and hazel.
He sat at the edge of the bed, staring forward at the mirror. What stared back at him was the Nikolai that had been changed and altered to fit Sloth's requirements, though even he had no grin. Nikolai suddenly paused and turned his head to look at the person that opened the door.
"Leon." he said in a soft voice that lacked the tease and hidden messages his voice usually had. He turned to look at his doppelganger. "Sloth." He was still for a moment then smiled lightly at the two. "You found me."
"Yes, but it wasn't easy, mind you." scoffed Sloth as he crossed his arms. He moved in and looked around. "This is not your memory. You can't cheat like that, dearie." he told Nikolai then looked at the mirror. "Oh, and what is this?" he griped as he waved a hand at the Sin reflection.
"It's a mirror." replied Nikolai gently as he returned to staring at himself. "Sorry about tricking you, but you're not the only one that knows a few tricks here. I wanted to think about something and I didn't need you chirping in my ear every second." He looked at Leon. "I didn't think you'd make you're way here."

Nikolai dropped his gaze. "Oh. I wish you didn't see those." he muttered before looking back at the mirror. "Myself, for the most part." he answered. There was silence for a moment, then suddenly he spoke again. "Who do you love, Leon? Is it me, or is it him?" he asked while motioning to his Sin reflection. "That Nikolai, is that even me? That man was created out of my hatred and bitterness. If I had never been a Sin, if I stayed like this, would you have loved me?"
"Dear me, but you are a prepubescent girl." sighed Sloth as he ran a hand over his face. "Enough heartfelt questions, dearie. It's time to wake up now, don't you think?" But Nikolai didn't react to the man, making him sigh once more.

"Hmm." replied Nikolai. There was nothing that peaked from his tired expression that could give away how he felt about Leon's answer. He just smiled dreamily.
"And what about you?" he then asked. Placing his thin hand over Leon's, Nikolai looked back at the mirror. The reflection wavered as if it were water, then it showed the monstrous form Leon had taken when he mercilessly attacked Miranda. "I've never seen you so vicious before. It was honestly scary." He looked at the real Leon. "Is that who you've always been? Or have you changed too?"