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Okay, can we please put a moratorium on talking about cutting for... three pages? Just... it's been a little dominating and it's making me kinda queesy.

Welllllll, problems temporarily fixed, as I knew they would be. stare We're on good terms for now, but I swear, if she does it again... neutral

Subhuman -- I like your sig. The part about the dog dying. It's very true. o__o;

I just sliced my thumb wide open.


With an almond container.

THAT'S WHAT I GET FOR TRYING TO EAT HEALTHY. I WAS EATING CHIPS AND NOTHING HAPPENED, BUT WHEN I TRY TO EAT SOME ALMONDS "-riiip-HOLYFUUUCK!"

xDD I'm gonna post pictures.





xDDD My poor thumb. Excuse me looking horrid in the background. xP It looks smaller in that picture, you can't see how far it goes.

Mike:What's one thing you'd change about youself?
Me: My weight.
Mike: Okay.

Later,

Me: Hey, after this let's go to the cafeteria, so we don't miss the good stuff. -/joke-
Mike: And you talk about your weight.

Later, later.

Me: I just wanna go home and watch House.
Mike: And you're hungry.
Me: No, I'm not, I wanna go home.
Mike: and you're hungry, you want to go eat food.




So, I really want to go puke up my insides. -sigh- I'm fat, I hate myself...

Everyone calls me fat though, and I feel fat... -sigh- I feel like a ******** whale..

-sigh- Who do you think makes a bigger impression, Tulip? Someone typing over the internet, or someone calling me fat to my face?

I took a quiz, and I'm at very high risk for having Dependent, Avoidant and Borderline personality disorders. All of them together basically make me.

Avoidant Personality Disorder:
Avoidant personality disorder is characterized by extreme social anxiety. People with this disorder often feel inadequate, avoid social situations, and seek out jobs with little contact with others. Avoidants are fearful of being rejected and worry about embarassing themselves in front of others. They exaggerate the potential difficulties of new situations to rationalize avoiding them. Often, they will create fantasy worlds to substitute for the real one. Unlike schizoid personality disorder, avoidants yearn for social relations yet feel they are unable to obtain them. They are frequently depressed and have low self-confidence.

Symptoms of Avoidant Personality Disorder:
Social inhibition; retreating from others in anticipation of rejection
Preoccupation with being rejected or criticized in social situations
Fear of embarrassment results in avoidance of new activities
Poor self-image; feelings of social ineptitude
Desire for improved social relations
Appear to others as self-involved and unfriendly
Creation of elaborate fantasy lives



Dependant Personality Disorder biggrin ependent personality disorder is characterized by a need to be taken care of. People with this disorder tend to cling to people and fear losing them. They may become suicidal when a break-up is imminent. They tend to let others make important decisions for them and often jump from relationship to relationship. Dependents often remain in abusive relationships. Over-sensitivity to disapproval is common. Dependents often feel helpless and depressed.

Symptoms of Dependent Personality Disorder:
Difficulty making decisions
Feelings of helplessness when alone
Suicidal thoughts upon rejection
Submissiveness
Deeply hurt by mild criticism or disapproval
Unable to meet ordinary demands of life

Borderline Personality Disorder:Borderline personality disorder is characterized by mood instability and poor self-image. People with this disorder are prone to constant mood swings and bouts of anger. Often, they will take their anger out on themselves, causing injury to their own body. Suicidal threats and actions are not uncommon. Borderlines think in very black and white terms and often form intense, conflict-ridden relationships. They are quick to anger when their expectations are not met.

Symptoms of Borderline Personality Disorder:
Self-injury or attempted suicide
Strong feelings of anger, anxiety, or depression that last for several hours
Impulsive behavior
Drug or alcohol abuse
Feelings of low self-worth
Unstable relationships with friends, family, and boyfriends/girlfriends




Most of those mixed = me