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 Posted: Sat Oct 13, 2012 12:25 am
-Yuui-TR-Flourite- DX
I don't trust you.
You'll probably get me killed to get revenge. *sweatdrop* If I was after revenge on someone, Monster would of probably died a while ago for his werewolf antics and some others would have been murdered for putting me near death. I'm not the murdering type! *sobs in a corner* Why would people think this??
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Posted: Sat Oct 13, 2012 12:32 am
RandomKate -Yuui-TR-Flourite- DX
I don't trust you.
You'll probably get me killed to get revenge. *sweatdrop* If I was after revenge on someone, Monster would of probably died a while ago for his werewolf antics and some others would have been murdered for putting me near death. I'm not the murdering type! *sobs in a corner* Why would people think this?? ^^'
Sorry.
I'm going through the ghost sob, anger.
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Posted: Sat Oct 13, 2012 12:43 am
-Yuui-TR-Flourite- ^^'
Sorry.
I'm going through the ghost sob, anger. It's alright. If people don't know the other soul, who I've called Witch, they usually think I attacked someone. It's understandable.
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Posted: Sat Oct 13, 2012 1:01 am
-Yuui-TR-Flourite- Amu Tsukiyomi-sama -Yuui-TR-Flourite- Amu Tsukiyomi-sama -Yuui-TR-Flourite- Amu Tsukiyomi-sama I'm in college....but I need out sooner than that. I'm actually afraid of my father. He's 300lbs and can dent the domed part of a beer keg with his palm, no problem. And he came after me once with intent to harm....though that was almost nine years ago. I am actually worried he might lose it and harm me. Thank god he works late every single day... And I hate being strong. I've had to do that crap for as long as I can remember, because I was so much smarter (and still am) than the adults I was around and ran across. I had to be strong and ignore stuff for long enough that I no longer want to, but "being strong" has become second nature to me. I almost kinda can't be weak any more. I got burned so many times when I was weak and went for help from someone else....I learned to just not do that. More than anything, I want to be able to be weak, frail, scared and have someone I know I can go to (other than my mother, she has enough to deal with as it is...) and they'll....for lack of a better word....protect me. Not tell me I'm imagining things, not be all "why are you telling me this". But, no. I've not found that exactly yet....so I keep having to be "Strong"...*bitter tone*...
Times like this I am acutely aware of how pathetic I can be if I let myself....and since being weak, pathetic is dangerous for me.....I feel bad. ******** all of this. Just ******** it all. No matter how much I talk it over, no matter how much I try to avoid being around/experiencing the stuff that will keep cutting into the mental/emotional wounds I have....being in this damn house, being around my damn ******** non-father....I want out. Just being around him is a constant drain on me mentally and emotionally. Like my invisible wounds are constantly being cut on when I have to deal with him. Had I the means.....I'd be gone. I'd talk to my mom, because she was the best parents I could have ever had, but not my "father".
And I don't want to burden others with my crap. It's not fair to them. Even if they've asked me. I'm odd like that....and yet I still explain because I'm trying so hard to get rid of the crap...
If you want out fast, the money needed for your future.
Go into the military.
Like a nurse or doctor or something that involves computers.
Don't have to pick something involving shooting a gun.
Just a idea.
I think.
You'll share a dorm with someone while your in training.
I'm sure.
They would have found something for you to do, layout the choices.
Might have to do morning work outs outside.
But not something over kill on you.
These are just ideas.
You could do some research.
What kind of jobs.
You can train for in the military.
They'll get in your head, make you stronger.
They'll get you driven, you'll just do.
Without really thinking.
They'll draw out your weak side, replace it with I can do this, I will.
There is no try.
You will do it, be a pro at it.
I don't know.
If you'll pass.
My brother's friend went into the marines, he had some problems with he's family, was stuck.
After 4 years.
He was a completely different, stronger person.
He's married now, has a baby boy, living far away from his family, near his wife's family instead, happy.
He stays in touch with my brother, they game.
He's still the friend he is but stronger.
I use to try to wrestle with him, now I won't dare.
Because I know I'll lose.
lol
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Posted: Sat Oct 13, 2012 1:06 am
"enters with a plate of glowing cupcakes."
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Posted: Sat Oct 13, 2012 1:07 am
frozen_flames06 "enters with a plate of glowing cupcakes." *picks up a cupcake, summons water and spins the cupcake around the room in a sphere of water*
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Posted: Sat Oct 13, 2012 1:23 am
frozen_flames06 "enters with a plate of glowing cupcakes." I still don't trust those cupcakes.
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Posted: Sat Oct 13, 2012 1:36 am
Amu Tsukiyomi-sama -Yuui-TR-Flourite- Amu Tsukiyomi-sama -Yuui-TR-Flourite- Amu Tsukiyomi-sama I know that for the soldier part of the military, I am not allowed to join. I have titanium in my spine, which makes me ineligible. Not too sure if this is also the case with computer, medical and any other parts of the military or not... So for the time being....I'm stuck. >n> almost makes me wish I was going to college out of state....but I'm basically paying for it myself....so I couldn't afford to live in a dorm... *hugs* Thank you for the military suggestion, though. I'd not thought of that one before.
I'm sure.
They would have found something for you to do, layout the choices.
Might have to do morning work outs outside.
But not something over kill on you.
These are just ideas.
You could do some research.
What kind of jobs.
You can train for in the military.
They'll get in your head, make you stronger.
They'll get you driven, you'll just do.
Without really thinking.
They'll draw out your weak side, replace it with I can do this, I will.
There is no try.
You will do it, be a pro at it.
I don't know.
If you'll pass.
My brother's friend went into the marines, he had some problems with he's family, was stuck.
After 4 years.
He was a completely different, stronger person.
He's married now, has a baby boy, living far away from his family, near his wife's family instead, happy.
He stays in touch with my brother, they game.
He's still the friend he is but stronger.
I use to try to wrestle with him, now I won't dare.
Because I know I'll lose.
lol I see, okay.
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Posted: Sat Oct 13, 2012 1:37 am
frozen_flames06 "enters with a plate of glowing cupcakes." -Thinking: That's not normal-
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Posted: Sat Oct 13, 2012 1:39 am
-Yuui-TR-Flourite- Amu Tsukiyomi-sama -Yuui-TR-Flourite- Amu Tsukiyomi-sama -Yuui-TR-Flourite- Amu Tsukiyomi-sama I know that for the soldier part of the military, I am not allowed to join. I have titanium in my spine, which makes me ineligible. Not too sure if this is also the case with computer, medical and any other parts of the military or not... So for the time being....I'm stuck. >n> almost makes me wish I was going to college out of state....but I'm basically paying for it myself....so I couldn't afford to live in a dorm... *hugs* Thank you for the military suggestion, though. I'd not thought of that one before.
I'm sure.
They would have found something for you to do, layout the choices.
Might have to do morning work outs outside.
But not something over kill on you.
These are just ideas.
You could do some research.
What kind of jobs.
You can train for in the military.
They'll get in your head, make you stronger.
They'll get you driven, you'll just do.
Without really thinking.
They'll draw out your weak side, replace it with I can do this, I will.
There is no try.
You will do it, be a pro at it.
I don't know.
If you'll pass.
My brother's friend went into the marines, he had some problems with he's family, was stuck.
After 4 years.
He was a completely different, stronger person.
He's married now, has a baby boy, living far away from his family, near his wife's family instead, happy.
He stays in touch with my brother, they game.
He's still the friend he is but stronger.
I use to try to wrestle with him, now I won't dare.
Because I know I'll lose.
lol I see, okay.
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Posted: Sat Oct 13, 2012 2:12 am
Amu Tsukiyomi-sama -Yuui-TR-Flourite- Amu Tsukiyomi-sama -Yuui-TR-Flourite- Amu Tsukiyomi-sama Yeah. Wonder if I'd pass the mental exam....if they still do that. I mean, I know I'm technically sane....but I sometimes wonder if the stuff I think would be considered insane if I ever did anything more than think them...pretty sure the answer'd be yes... They'll get in your head, make you stronger.
They'll get you driven, you'll just do.
Without really thinking.
They'll draw out your weak side, replace it with I can do this, I will.
There is no try.
You will do it, be a pro at it.
I don't know.
If you'll pass.
My brother's friend went into the marines, he had some problems with he's family, was stuck.
After 4 years.
He was a completely different, stronger person.
He's married now, has a baby boy, living far away from his family, near his wife's family instead, happy.
He stays in touch with my brother, they game.
He's still the friend he is but stronger.
I use to try to wrestle with him, now I won't dare.
Because I know I'll lose.
lol I see, okay. ^^
Mhm.
-Your hug passes through me-
emotion_sweatdrop
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Posted: Sat Oct 13, 2012 3:47 am
*grabs a blanket* Cooooold.
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Posted: Sat Oct 13, 2012 11:33 am
-Yuui-TR-Flourite- Amu Tsukiyomi-sama -Yuui-TR-Flourite- Amu Tsukiyomi-sama -Yuui-TR-Flourite- Amu Tsukiyomi-sama Yeah. Wonder if I'd pass the mental exam....if they still do that. I mean, I know I'm technically sane....but I sometimes wonder if the stuff I think would be considered insane if I ever did anything more than think them...pretty sure the answer'd be yes... They'll get in your head, make you stronger.
They'll get you driven, you'll just do.
Without really thinking.
They'll draw out your weak side, replace it with I can do this, I will.
There is no try.
You will do it, be a pro at it.
I don't know.
If you'll pass.
My brother's friend went into the marines, he had some problems with he's family, was stuck.
After 4 years.
He was a completely different, stronger person.
He's married now, has a baby boy, living far away from his family, near his wife's family instead, happy.
He stays in touch with my brother, they game.
He's still the friend he is but stronger.
I use to try to wrestle with him, now I won't dare.
Because I know I'll lose.
lol I see, okay. ^^
Mhm.
-Your hug passes through me-
emotion_sweatdrop
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Posted: Sat Oct 13, 2012 2:15 pm
*Snaps Photo* Woohoo! Profit!. I'm close to wiping your soul from this earth.
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Auriga La Shock
Auriga La Shock
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Posted: Sat Oct 13, 2012 2:58 pm
*is staging a crime scene in my sister's room today for my Criminal Investigations class* ninja
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