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 Posted: Sun Sep 28, 2008 8:00 pm
After tasting the food he slowly set down the fork and the knife and spoke once more. "So have reeve or even hunter filled this crevasse that is on your heart? Or you still felt empty with them around?" He looked at her trying to get all the answers he seeked on her all while not being abrupt like Fox or Foward like Yawg.
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Posted: Sun Sep 28, 2008 8:12 pm
She too had set down her fork, taking a deep drink from her glass. When he spoke, she nearly dropped the glass as she was in the process of returning it to the table. Her expression changed drastically, looking somewhat hurt and scared to give her reply. Still, she replied the best she could.
"After Reeve died again, his spirit told me to move on, so I did. I love him still, though it is different. Yes, when we were together, I did not know I could be so happy, could feel so complete. When he was gone .. it was awful .. well .. you saw this yourself." she said softly, referring to the first time Reeve died.
Bobbing her head, she continued. "With Hunter .. much the same. Our love is far more shy that that with Reeve. Though it is very true, sincere and pure. If only he were here more often .. my heart is filled so completely when he is here, I never want to leave his side again. Hunter has said the same. And yet .. it seems every time I turn my gaze for a moment .. he is gone again. The words and feelings do not match the actions. My heart breaks each time .."
With these thoughts, she lowered her head, not truly wishing to continue but forced herself to anyway. "Our love has been strained .. pulled and pushed so much .. I cannot find the strength to piece it together again. I have began to hate myself for loving him so long, to have had found our love together to be so precious only to have it taken away, left to love from afar so many times. I am weak for this."
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Posted: Sun Sep 28, 2008 8:23 pm
My apologies for that though i only wish your happiness more than anything in the world. I really wished to know more of how your heart felt. You see i came to the conclusion your love for hunter is not as strong as it once were. And i think not only i saw it but Yawg and others have. I think theyre seeing hunter as anchor or a shield to prenvent yourself from hurting others as they want to be in more deep realtionship than just a frienship *he clapped and one accomodated the dishes that she almost made crash on the floor*
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Posted: Sun Sep 28, 2008 8:29 pm
She remained where she was, staring at him with a bit of confusion. She was startled when he clapped again, not understanding why he was clapping either. Feeling awkward and out of place, she lowered her head, her hands resting politely in her lap.
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Posted: Sun Sep 28, 2008 8:34 pm
You seem confused? How so? *he asked softly*
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Posted: Sun Sep 28, 2008 8:42 pm
"You wish for my happiness yet .. you seem to feel that I have less love for Hunter?" she asked softly, still rather confused.
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Posted: Sun Sep 28, 2008 8:54 pm
Why would this confuse you? I did not say there's less love i said that it seemed like a protection now that is waning to the point of being broken. I think this is not harmful or a lie as days past you felt it yourself and you told me. *He said softly and took more of the drink*
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Posted: Mon Sep 29, 2008 7:44 pm
"So frequently your efforts achieve the exact opposite of your intentions. This evening, you wish for me to feel closer to you, to want to be with you .. yet I cannot help but feel the opposite." she said softly, looking to him with sad, apologetic eyes. "I do not appreciate how boldly you judge everyone around you, especially when it concerns whom I spend time with."
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Posted: Mon Sep 29, 2008 8:02 pm
*Blinking to her words it seems rather he thought she would be more open and explained more her situation. Instead everything is batted negatively to him with her words* I was not judging you or him or anyone else here. Rather i was seeking more of how you feel with the whole situation. Yawg has been pushing you around lately more and more. I wish to know more so i can end his pressure upon you. *He said softly not even raising his voice*
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Posted: Mon Sep 29, 2008 8:10 pm
"That .. that right there is the judgment I am speaking of. It is true that he wishes to .. what is the phrase .. ravage me? The fact and truth is that he does not! Everything between he and I recently has been positively lovely. A month ago, I would not have believed that Yawgmoth could be this gentile with anyone, let alone me. Yet here we are today .. he has proven without a doubt in my mind that he will be a true gentleman to me if I wish him to be." she said softly, looking to Seisuke still with deep apology and sadness in her eyes.
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Posted: Mon Sep 29, 2008 8:32 pm
Well you have a great influence on others that can be sure. *He said in his mind he was commiting hara-kiri when she spoke it hurt him how her mind again was drifting to others and separating him from her a third time. This was prepousterous but his face and expressions didnt show it and he was blocking this from her in his mind if she evr tried to look how he felt with her words* Truly i seek for you to be with me, like i have done time and time again. Showing you that i am a person of trust and support in the good times and the bad. Yet even that you have chosen another I would still be here for you because i truly care about you.
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Posted: Mon Sep 29, 2008 9:19 pm
She looked to him with a smile and reached out to him, touching his face. "Then let us be together. Nothing and no one else matters .. that is how it was with the others .. that is how it should be with us also." he said softly, smiling sweetly as she continued touching his face.
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Posted: Mon Sep 29, 2008 9:27 pm
As you wish *akwardly this was the words of choice for her always. Sadly hearing that others were already looking at her witb the intention. He nuzzles her hand like a kitten would do to its owner*
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Posted: Mon Sep 29, 2008 9:32 pm
Moving closer to him, she nuzzled her head against his, still holding his hand. "Thank you."
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Posted: Mon Sep 29, 2008 9:40 pm
No need Oh! let us finish this dinner. It would be rude to not finish it
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